Blueberry Panic
The Angel of Death
- Jan 5, 2025
- 533
This isn't going to super long but I just wanted to give a small run down of why im here... and some of my trauma. I'll leave some things out so it doesn't become boring.
I've always had issues with myself,I never saw myself as a good person I might be extremely nice and help people when I can bit that doesn't make me a good person.
I've struggled with suicidal behaviors since I was 10 . Because I was raped as a child and the way people I trusted responded to it and how my family has treated me through my life I've always been self destructive.
I started self harming at 10 , started taking drugs and drinking alcohol at 12.
I went through the early years of my life trying to chase down dopamine and any type of acceptance from anyone who would have me.
I would have needless sex starting at 15 and I didn't realize the damage I was doing to myself.
I worked at a hospital and as a mortician and all I saw was death. It made me see that life truly has no purpose
I lost so many people through everything . every step on the way I'd loose parts of me until now I'm just barely a husk getting by.
I've had so may attempts and I didn't find this site until this year... I've met so many interesting people who have been suffering just like me . Some who are gone and who are still with us... this place brings me comfort when I'm feeling low because I can use the pain I feel to try and help others.
I've always had issues with myself,I never saw myself as a good person I might be extremely nice and help people when I can bit that doesn't make me a good person.
I've struggled with suicidal behaviors since I was 10 . Because I was raped as a child and the way people I trusted responded to it and how my family has treated me through my life I've always been self destructive.
I started self harming at 10 , started taking drugs and drinking alcohol at 12.
I went through the early years of my life trying to chase down dopamine and any type of acceptance from anyone who would have me.
I would have needless sex starting at 15 and I didn't realize the damage I was doing to myself.
I worked at a hospital and as a mortician and all I saw was death. It made me see that life truly has no purpose
I lost so many people through everything . every step on the way I'd loose parts of me until now I'm just barely a husk getting by.
I've had so may attempts and I didn't find this site until this year... I've met so many interesting people who have been suffering just like me . Some who are gone and who are still with us... this place brings me comfort when I'm feeling low because I can use the pain I feel to try and help others.
