Why haven’t you left yet?

[Crazy4u]

Because I'm worried about my dog

 

[Brayu]

marvel movies

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

CTB is a safety net for me. I think of it more in theory than execution. As in - if things get so fucking bad that I can't take it, I can go out on my own terms. I'm not bound by any rule to play this fucked up game if I don't want to. At the moment, I'm doing okay and have hope.

It's that safety net, it gives me a sense of tranquility and peace.

 

[CiproKilledMe]

Terrified of failing and making things even WORSE for myself (unfathomable). Not to mention the fact that I don't want to die. But I have to.

 

[todestrieb]

I thought I was holding on for my child, but the vile things that keep coming out of his craw reminds me that I have nobody left to worry about. Honestly, at this point I'm waiting for my deceased parents' animals to pass away so I can rehome my pup and find my peace. Seems like the little buggers will naturally outlive me.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

Trying to hold on until my dad passes.

 

[DanceUntilTheEnd]

SI and I don't want to fail/be found early.
It's also getting closer to the holidays and I don't want to ruin xmas for my family.

Same!!! Holidays...

 

[deathisawesome]

Family members that need me and the lack of access to peaceful and easy methods and fear of failure

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Just wanted some last little time with my family so they don't feel awful in the end.

 

[Dot]

stp tpng lk tht, its hrd t rd lol

:-(

 

[maakies]

My partner and my peers keep giving me assignments and projects that make people depend on me. It's kind of annoying. I'm waiting for the day that people stop asking for my help and honestly, I'm making it so people aren't so inclined to ask for my help anymore.

Also drugs. Xanax and ketamine mostly.

 

[Depressed_Kettle]

Family visits. My last chance to spend time with them before I go. After, I'll feel more comfortable leaving. Then another reason is that I'm scared too.

 

[Q-Dust]

I'm stupidly afraid of heights, Sat on a window sill once and realized that my body wouldn't let me move at all

 

[PDAnnie2610]

I'm trying to decide if I should get more SN after I opened my bottle of SN yesterday...

But other than that, I'm all ready to go too.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

marvel movies

Me too actually, I've been trying to find reasons to quit with the phase 4 movies mostly being ok I still find myself enjoying them enough.

 

[cambrai33]

Exhausting all options of getting help first.
EBaying all my possessions and sorting out admin.
Means to ctb are in place and in reality I think I have 4 weeks left before I go, I am very calm and content, I have no emotion left to feel

 

[ClownMe]

I'm trying to hold out until my dog passes away.

 

[HelloAllYouPeople]

Still have a few exciting things to do. Once I grow bored of everything, I'll just wait for a very bad day to ctb

 

[tissosad]

I've been practicing my SN routine with regular salt and it's not going well. I gag every time I think about it and I puked twice.

 

[Phoebe11320]

I'm afraid I'll screw it up and be stuck with some sort of permanent physical damage.

 

[Zakovian331]

@Dot types like that because she has no choice. Don't be so rude. Manners cost nothing.

can you explain me why she has no choice?

 

[diinasours]

im giving life a little more time, as i am still young. i just have a sliver of hope things will get better, but i dont know.

 

[ARawYouth]

For those of you who have all your stuff together. Why haven't you caught your bus?

Honestly, my dog is the only thing keeping me here. I'd either have to kill him, which I could never harm a hair on his head. Or I'd have to kill myself and die knowing that he will live the rest of his life thinking he wasn't enough for me, that I just abandoned him.

 

[Romeo1984]

My sons

 

[PDAnnie2610]

I've been practicing my SN routine with regular salt and it's not going well. I gag every time I think about it and I puked twice.

Not worth practising. It only works to put you off it.

 

[tieiwi]

My sons

i hope you are able to spend some quality time with them :) wishing you and your sons the best!

 

[Dot]

can you explain me why she has no choice?

Is on prfle.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Timing really. UK lockdown in the past has affected my timing and possible restrictions on travel could hamper that again

 

[LeGuitarist]

I'm biding my time until I find the perfect method. Life is just sufferable enough for me to be content waiting for a lethal, quick, painless, and peaceful death. I'm aware it probably won't happen, but no harm in biding my time. The more patient I am, the more likely I am to uncover the perfect method for me.

 

[youraffection]

Hanging has severe consequences if I fail.