Venting Why haven't I killed myself yet

[KattinKai!]

I literally have nothing. Nothing to kill myself with. I can't get the rope. I can't get a gun. I want to die though. I. Can't. Do. Anything.

 

[chaewon]

Why can u not get anything? Are u in a hospital or on suicide watch?

 

[KattinKai!]

Why can u not get anything? Are u in a hospital or on suicide watch?

Neither, luckily, but I'm having a hard time actually ending it. In real life responsibilities kind of get in the way and it sucks that I'm focusing on that more when I literally wanna die

 

[slapntickle]

Neither, luckily, but I'm having a hard time actually ending it. In real life responsibilities kind of get in the way and it sucks that I'm focusing on that more when I literally wanna die

Don't feel too bad. After spending a bit of time on ss, one realises that it's actually _hard_ to kill oneself. Like really quite difficult in many respects... I guess if N was available more readily that would be easy, but as it isn't, it's just a hard old thing to do. If you're really destined to do it, you will, but until then, don't worry too much about _not_ doing it.

 

[KattinKai!]

Don't feel too bad. After spending a bit of time on ss, one realises that it's actually _hard_ to kill oneself. Like really quite difficult in many respects... I guess if N was available more readily that would be easy, but as it isn't, it's just a hard old thing to do. If you're really destined to do it, you will, but until then, don't worry too much about _not_ doing it.

It feels so wrong to not do it though. I just want to die