Venting Why doesn’t society let people like me die?

[Raine Meadows]

So I'm useless. The things I care about and could be good at are things that aren't easy to profit in (art.) I'm not really good at art, though. I have no job, and I'm not even sure what to do with my life.

My mom says she wants to retire in 12 years. I'm not even sure why she had me. It's not like she unconditionally loves me, either. My dad has never been a stable presence in my life. The only two people who could possibly care about my death would be my grandma and younger brother, and even then, I'm not sure to what extent he'll mourn me (for all I know, it could only be a passing thought). Everyone should forget about me.

The state of the world is also quite messy. I'm glad I'm not being bombed or seeing my loved ones hurt, but I also can't deny that I feel, in some regards, numb and, in other regards, fervent. My heart aches for those people's pain, but I can't stand to see that imagery on my feed anymore. There's so much injustice in the world, and it makes me demotivated. I've been struggling internally since I was 9 years old, and seeing others hurt too just makes it feel worse. Seeing the powerlessness of people abroad and internally, it just makes me want to die.

Really, the only reasons why I haven't done it are a few if silly reasons.

• Fear
  • Fear I'll fuck it up, fear it could be better, fear I'll become disabled.
• Family
  • My grandma would probably be devastated if I killed myself.
  • My younger brother could be devastated too.
• Owl plushies
  • Stupid, but I really love them. They literally prevented me from killing myself. I don't know what would happen to them when I die, whether it be natural, a freak accident, or suicide.

Recap/TL;DR:

• I have no job
• I have no friends
• My family only conditionally loves me
• I have not done anything of note
• I am a nobody
• Resources are wasted keeping me alive
• Net negative for the world
• Low self-esteem/advocacy LMAO
• Selfish, annoying, defensive, crybaby, entitled coward with nothing to her name

Reasons I haven't CBT'd

• Fear of fucking up & ending up disabled.
• "What if it gets better…"
• My grandma & maybe younger brother would miss me
• Plushies
• Selfish, crybaby, coward. I'm just a coward

As you can tell from this post alone, society should have options to let POS like me make the world just a little bit better by allowing folks like me to receive euthanasia. Hey, it helps the deathcare industry, doesn't it?

 

[ma0]

Sadly, the world has always prioritized numbers and statistics over ethics and emotions. This has always been the case. This is always how it's functioned.

You are a number, as much as it pains me to say it. If governments allowed people like you or me, people who would be much more at peace in silence to die, that would affect the precious statistics.

It sucks, but that's the reality we live in. I don't think there's much we can do to change it, so in the meantime, try to take care, at least.

 

[honir]

So I'm useless. The things I care about and could be good at are things that aren't easy to profit in (art.) I'm not really good at art, though. I have no job, and I'm not even sure what to do with my life.

My mom says she wants to retire in 12 years. I'm not even sure why she had me. It's not like she unconditionally loves me, either. My dad has never been a stable presence in my life. The only two people who could possibly care about my death would be my grandma and younger brother, and even then, I'm not sure to what extent he'll mourn me (for all I know, it could only be a passing thought). Everyone should forget about me.

The state of the world is also quite messy. I'm glad I'm not being bombed or seeing my loved ones hurt, but I also can't deny that I feel, in some regards, numb and, in other regards, fervent. My heart aches for those people's pain, but I can't stand to see that imagery on my feed anymore. There's so much injustice in the world, and it makes me demotivated. I've been struggling internally since I was 9 years old, and seeing others hurt too just makes it feel worse. Seeing the powerlessness of people abroad and internally, it just makes me want to die.

Really, the only reasons why I haven't done it are a few if silly reasons.

• Fear
  • Fear I'll fuck it up, fear it could be better, fear I'll become disabled.
• Family
  • My grandma would probably be devastated if I killed myself.
  • My younger brother could be devastated too.
• Owl plushies
  • Stupid, but I really love them. They literally prevented me from killing myself. I don't know what would happen to them when I die, whether it be natural, a freak accident, or suicide.

Recap/TL;DR:

• I have no job
• I have no friends
• My family only conditionally loves me
• I have not done anything of note
• I am a nobody
• Resources are wasted keeping me alive
• Net negative for the world
• Low self-esteem/advocacy LMAO
• Selfish, annoying, defensive, crybaby, entitled coward with nothing to her name

Reasons I haven't CBT'd

• Fear of fucking up & ending up disabled.
• "What if it gets better…"
• My grandma & maybe younger brother would miss me
• Plushies
• Selfish, crybaby, coward. I'm just a coward

As you can tell from this post alone, society should have options to let POS like me make the world just a little bit better by allowing folks like me to receive euthanasia. Hey, it helps the deathcare industry, doesn't it?

Your reason not CTBing:

• Fear of fucking up & ending up disabled.
• "What if it gets better…"
• My grandma & maybe younger brother would miss me
• Plushies
• Selfish, crybaby, coward. I'm just a coward

Technically, you have 4 out of 5 good reasons to hold on.

• "What if it gets better…"
• My grandma & maybe younger brother would miss me
• Plushies
• Selfish, crybaby, coward. I'm just a coward

These alone are the best reason for you to stay put. You have an unrevealed mission in the world...

 

[UnusedGate]

Society doesn't care about people like us (look at how there's basically no effort on actually fixing mental health by changing how we run the world, e.g making it easier to actually live) but at the same time they get sad when they see someone die. In a way, they just want us to suffer in silence. Out of sight, out of mind.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Sadly society has a place for you and me my friend. That place is at the bottom where it put us for whatever reason it could find. The scapegoats in society are held captive there for a reason, to be blamed and to avoid accountability. The top cannot exist without the bottom to hold it up :(

 

[Klophy]

Its crazy, I can read posts on here and physically feel seen, moreso than any other place.

As for my take on the topic title. It's to keep us here as the 'other' people. You know how they say others have it worse? We're the other people they reference so they can feel better about themselves.

Of course we don't have it the worst. However, I like to think that when we do look at people who have it worse than us, it's with empathy not with some kind of superiority.

 

[wine is fine but]

sadly, society cannot let it happen
there needs to be some form of balance, although exactly what that balance is or should be, i cannot tell you
it would be horrible to find someone mid hang, and all but impossible to let them continue, but it is even more horrible to force that person to live when they do not want to, especially if they have already given themselves a permanent injury

the main reason society cannot let it happen, is simply because no one knows where to draw the line. those who are pro-life can never understand what is going on in the mind of someone who takes their own life. those two groups of people live in totally opposite universes so cannot understand each other's thought process and beliefs. with human nature the way it is, if someone is given a choice that goes against the grain, the person will invariably choose it. that choice normally isn't the best choice for them, but all they can think about is the here and now. for instance, how many people get to mid/old age with massive health problems and then wish they didn't start smoking. most or all of them do, but they did not care one bit about the dangers when they were younger. if suicide was a real and legal option for anyone, many people who were grateful to get old, would not have had that opportunity. would they care if they were dead 40 years previous; probably not, but then none of us knows what is after death and if those 40 years were traumatic, because death was actually horrible, then the living option may very well have been much better for the person, as well as their loved ones, and possibly even society in general. it is similar to not letting a woman have her tubes tied when still young (in australia, at least). she may know that she does not want another, or indeed any children at all. she may know the dangers involved for her if she becomes pregnant and not wish to face them, but later on, she may wish she didn't have them tied because now she doesn't have the chance of a child. that in itself can lead to mental issues for her and open up a whole new pandora's box. while i agree with people being able to make their own choices, it is not that clear cut in a legal or moral sense to make irreversible things easier

perhaps, there needs to be something where a person can register for ending their life, but cannot have access for a certain amount of time, and their registration is only open for a small window. that way, impulsive decisions wouldn't be so prevalent but it is still fraught with potential dangers. sadly, there is no easy solution for those who truly need it and (those 2 words again) human nature means that well meaning people will always insist on no one throwing away their own life, no matter how much relief would be given to the person who wishes to do it. most of society believes that breathing in and breathing out is the only thing that matters, despite how uncomfortable it is for others

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

It's really illogical and evil that a human who is suffering exremely and wants and needs suicide to escape isn't allowed to escape extreme torture even though the technology has been there for a long time. i can't purchase some escape like hiring someone to shoot me or buying Nembutal , sarco suicide booth etc. the only reason i can't hire somoone to aid me with suicide , Nembutal etc. is because they made all those methods into crimes . there is no logical reason. sure they come up with all kinds of excuses like it's to protect the children . ok then they can't even put an id age requirement even that they won't allow as if someone 16 like Junko Furuta can't be in extreme torture . they won't allow someone age 82 in unbearable pain to purchase Nembutal or to hire someone to shoot them or aid them with suicide and what is the excuse there? what is the lie/ excuse for someone age 82 who is in unbearable constant unbearable pain and wants suicide , why can't they hire someone to shoot, or hang them or inject them etc. ? there is no logical reason it's just pure evil control. they allow a dog or cat to have nembutal but not a human. plus there is no reason to live , life is meaningless suffering anyway and we all will die also soon because how fast did the last 5 years pass.