Why does parental divorce make people suicidal?

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After their parents separate, many children experience depression, and the suicide rate in adulthood is two to three times higher. I wonder why it's so traumatic. Is it because of the feeling of abandonment? Or because it's no longer possible to believe in love? It's often said that divorce is better for children's mental health than domestic violence, but statistically that's not even true.

Have people here had suicidal thoughts following their parents divorce?

 

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i did.

my parents divorced while i was in high school still and the amount of chaos and instability it caused on top of all the stress from school among some other things, made me very depressed. i felt like i had no one to talk to about this. it also wasn't an easy process for them. divorce takes a while - you have to be proven to be split up for a year here. during that time i had to choose who i wanted to live with and by moving i lost quite a few friends. divorce by itself can be really hard to deal with for anyone but for me, divorce was the catalyst rather than the main event.

i also felt like it was my fault since my dad said it was at the time. he apologized but it stayed with me for years.

the one other thing that made it worse was my parents moving onto new partners instantly or trying to anyway. it felt like both of them put more effort into finding someone new than caring about their children. i do not remember ever being asked how i felt or how i was holding up through it all. i met some really mean people when both of my parents were trying to find someone new, one of which abused me and my mom has been with him now for over a decade.

to try and sum it up; divorce isn't black and white, it feels like you no longer have a stable family. you grieve for the version of the family that used to exist. home no longer feels like home anymore. everything gets split into two and it's exhausting. everyday things can become confusing that used to not be. i felt a ton of guilt even though it wasn't my fault and it felt taboo to speak about. it also felt like i had to grow up quicker and take on a lot more roles especially with a sibling.

edit: i'd like to add that it wasn't the main thing that made me suicidal at the time but it added to it