Venting Why does nothing seems to work?

[dogbird]

Why does nothing seems to work?
I don't know what's wrong with me. I have tried a few methods and they don't seem to work. I really make sure I do everything right but I don't lose consciousness.
I now put a timer on sight and have gone as long as 20 minutes without losing consciousness. With very little oxygenation to the head.
I tried the tourniquet method today I
even put a bag over my head to lose consciousness faster.

The tourniquet was too tight.
I did both variations of this method.
Nothing.
I can't lose consciousness even breathing for more than 15 minutes with a closed bag (half the time with timer.
My neck is totally injured. Very very marked, I emphasize this so that you understand that the pressure was really a lot. Just below the jaw
Why can't I leave this world once and for all?

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so cruel how trying to permanently cease existing can go wrong and lead to way more suffering as a result, I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I understand just wanting to be free from it all, I get that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find the peace you search for.