Why does CTB have to be so difficult?

[rllysuper]

i feel like it's so much harder to die on purpose than when it's by accident. there's so many barriers put in place, either by government regulations or human biology, that make it so frustratingly difficult. sometimes i hate how resistant my body is to just dying. i've had two pathetic attempts in 2021, and since then life hasn't really gotten that much better for me. i'm hoping if i can get my hands on some SN i can finally be put to rest.

 

[Namelesa]

fluffing pro-lifers limiting access to methods as much as possible and our own bodies making so difficult cus of survival instincts being drilled into how we work. Its makes me feel so trapped that everything is preventing me to ctb and so I have to continue with my torturous life.

 

[Tig]

It's hard,
Cause it has to that way, the "Hard" makes it worth it,
When we "feel" like we do, some of us weren't meant for this existence, even though we were Born to it.
Nothing worth doing is easy in the end, even if it's death.

 

[Richard Langford]

I suppose if you're willing to except considerable potential pain it isn't. Like in front of a train or off a building. I don't fancy either and just want pain free and simple - so I'm looking at Opiates or synthetics. For someone my age sourcing suchlike is difficult. Don't younger people all have at least one acquaintance that could 'hook them up'?

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Two reasons:
1. The survival instinct is very strong because evolution has created an addiction within the human brain of "I need to continue living, I need to continue living, I need to continue living".
2. Pro lifers have went out their way to restrict the painless suicide methods leaving people with only painful or risky methods which in turn causes them to either take the risk and fail horrifically or don't attempt at all in fear of the risks. Plus, they have made assisting somebody with suicide illegal which is also a detriment to most people since the majority of people are used to doing things in groups.

 

[L'absent]

Because we have convinced ourselves that it is difficult. In many cultures it was as normal as drinking a glass of water. Socrates could have saved himself, but he decides to drink the hemlock at all costs, because the value of the laws was the most important thing for him. So he refused to continue living.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it's just so cruel and horrible to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again. I see so much cruelty in how painless death with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony is denied even know this existence was imposed in the first place, I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of human existence rather I just want to not exist instead, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as so undesirable.

 

[comfortinbooks]

You are planning you own murder and you don't wanna get caught.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

I agree with you, it seems very difficult - as we're talking about painless methods of suicide. On the other hand, there are available methods that can't be controlled, such as rope, buildings and railways.

My problem, tbh, is thinking a lot about the suffering of other ppl. I fear some get really sad, depressive or even try suicide themselves, but I've come to conclude that existing just for minimize others pain, while I'm dead alive and gave up completely, isn't an option - I'm not a martyr.

 

[beseechgod]

I suppose if you're willing to except considerable potential pain it isn't. Like in front of a train or off a building. I don't fancy either and just want pain free and simple - so I'm looking at Opiates or synthetics. For someone my age sourcing suchlike is difficult. Don't younger people all have at least one acquaintance that could 'hook them up'?

I wish. But some of us young people are just as isolated and disconnected from resources unfortunately.

 

[Kanashii]

There's not enough ways because they authorities and people in power make it so difficult. They want to stop us from doing something that we have decided ourselves.

They're also the ones who make it so that we even want to CTB anyway. They make our lives hard, they make us slave away and all our money goes to them that we've worked hard for. They don't help us in any way as they only care about the rich. Some communities are so deprived because of those in charge, and then they wonder why people want to CTB, failing to realise it's all their fault. It's their doing.

They put barriers in place becuase in my opinion... they just want to use us more. They want to make us slaves for the rest of our lives and it's only ever going to be that way. Nothing changes.

It's a shame that they put all these restrictions in place and don't allow those who want to end all the suffering they've had, some cases all the suffering they've ever known. It really is a cruel world we live in.

 

[human909]

I also find it harder and hope that i die in an accident or something to make it easier.

 

[-NH-ONO2Na]

I suppose if you're willing to except considerable potential pain it isn't. Like in front of a train or off a building. I don't fancy either and just want pain free and simple - so I'm looking at Opiates or synthetics. For someone my age sourcing suchlike is difficult. Don't younger people all have at least one acquaintance that could 'hook them up'?

Having OD'd on Buprenorphine and tramadol if they don't kill you they will make you wish you were dead, I spent several days laying on the floor hardly able to move with my head feeling like it was going to explode and the room constantly spinning. That's without mentioning the nausea I was constantly vomiting even when I had nothing left and a tiny sip of water was enough to start me vomiting again.

What country are you in ? Because anyone with conditions that cause pain have opiates handed out like candy.

It's honestly this experience which has made it more difficult for me to CBT from fear of suffering like that again.

My options are currently:
Shotgun
Some sort of maid service
N
Carbon monoxide

Just something that won't cause a panic response or cause significant suffering

 

[ivan576]

Ctb could be easy, but we're in a prison and our jailers fancy themselves philanthropists. Just another way humanity decides to torture itself for no reason.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I just wish that access to euthanasia and assisted suicide were treated as universal human rights, including for people with mental illness. I would be willing to jump thrugh some hoops to access a peaceful death using the best methods modern medicine has to offer.

 

[Richard Langford]

Having OD'd on Buprenorphine and tramadol if they don't kill you they will make you wish you were dead, I spent several days laying on the floor hardly able to move with my head feeling like it was going to explode and the room constantly spinning. That's without mentioning the nausea I was constantly vomiting even when I had nothing left and a tiny sip of water was enough to start me vomiting again.

What country are you in ? Because anyone with conditions that cause pain have opiates handed out like candy.

It's honestly this experience which has made it more difficult for me to CBT from fear of suffering like that again.

My options are currently:
Shotgun
Some sort of maid service
N
Carbon monoxide

Just something that won't cause a panic response or cause significant suffering

I'm looking at other things rather than Buprenorphine and tramadol.