anonymous9559

anonymous9559

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Jun 12, 2023
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I have been doing pretty much nothing for a while (now that school is out) so I have been left alone to think a lot. I have been thinking a lot about my reasons of doing what I do. So anyways, recently (like today) I was thinking: Why do I actually get up in the morning? What is my reason to wake up? What do I have to look forward to in the day? What is stopping me from just stopping? I really have no reason to keep going on. I am just posting here because I know this is a question I can't really ask anywhere else and expect a real answer. I am just wondering what your reasons to keep on going every day are.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,857
I only continue to exist as if one doesn't find a way to free themselves they have no choice but to. I hate how suicide is purposely made so difficult in this world, suicide should just be as easy as just wishing to be gone, it's so inhumane how we are expected to just be prisoners to this existence.

And in my case I'm fully aware of how futile and harmful existing truly is, waking up certainly is such a horrible thing, there's no benefit to delaying the inevitable, the reality is that we are just waiting to die anyway, existing here could never be appealing, it's a terrible punishment having the ability to exist in this dreadful world that is filled with endless suffering.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I guess it's the knowledge we either know already, have it drilled into us- or, experience it ourselves that- even if we just give up, chances are we won't just die. Instead- things will just get gradually worse for us... Sleep patterns will start getting messed up, hygienne will start being neglected- leading to painful infections, our social skills will disappear and we'll become afraid to leave the house, eating may become restricted or over-done leading possibly to eating disorders and health problems, dependancy on drugs and alcohol can become a problem. All of which will make it even harder to pull ourselves out. I think we all kind of know the slippery slope exists- so, we just kind of slow the descent as much as we can!

People who are seeking to recover I imagine also work on the principle of 'the greater good'. So- I don't WANT to exercise, I don't WANT to brush my teeth, I don't WANT to fill in that job application- but chances are- I'll feep better in the long run if I do those things.
 
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Elysion

Elysion

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Jun 12, 2023
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The human brain causes the postponement of suicide by creating doubt, fear, infertility and illusion of hope, this is the reason why you wake up every day in vain. Because I also provided the necessary conditions and tools to commit suicide, but I am stuck in this situation and I am working on ways to get out.
 
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Zero Two

Zero Two

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Jun 13, 2023
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Wow thats a good question.
I am a very suicidal person, but I decided i was gonna give it one last shot before i ctb. So I am using the dumbest stuff to keep me going, such as "i will not die today because I wanna buy a new shirt" or "ill live today so I can see my crush and wave at him". It keeps me going and has made the last few days not so miserable.
 
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Coin

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Apr 6, 2023
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Almost certainly not the answer you're looking for but I only get up because I obsess over my hygenics. I get up to piss, shit, brush my teeth, and shower. I don't know the longest you've gone without eating/drinking but from personal experience, the pain gets to be too much to handle so I guess I get up to eat/drink as well.

I get up to do the bare minimum. If I didn't have to do any of these obligations, I would lay in bed and rot until death takes me. The mere idea of using "hope" as a motivator is completely laughable in my experience. I have gone through countless attempts to better myself and they have all ended poorly, a few through the ignorance of others but the overwhelming majority from dumb luck or innate mental issues.

You mentioned being in school in your post so I'll assume you're still young? If so, please take my post with a grain of salt as you still have plenty of time and opportunity for a better life. I posted about my experience as it's the only one I can speak about but everyone's experiences will vary.
 
MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
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I have my finals today and then I'm officially done high school age 18. I'm surprised I've lived this far, maybe even further. But life rn has been on a cliff right now. Now that school is out, I feel incomplete I had a reason to go to school to prove the people who insulted me wrong. Now what? I have nothing but video games and sleep, I wish I didn't wake up but at the same time I wish I did. I wanna help people before my time comes, Fuck if I was immortal in a way I'd be fine I'd be happy, I wouldn't get sick or tired I could learn as much as I want, do what I want. What ever man
 
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