I loved and hated being in love in equal measure. It was a drug I couldn't get enough of and hated feeling addicted to it.
I'm my humble opinion, the state of being "in love" is akin to having a mental illness. If a person doesn't love you back, or if the magic or chemistry is no longer there, what's the use of dwelling on it? Get over it and move on. But wait...here is part 2:
It's easier said than done and I've experienced heartbreak myself. I've just come to the conclusion after so much suffering that if someone doesn't love you back or treat you well, cut your ties, cut your losses and move on ASAP.
Again, easier said than done, I fully acknowledge that.
Just my thoughts.
It's easier said than done and I've experienced heartbreak myself. I've just come to the conclusion after so much suffering that if someone doesn't love you back or treat you well, cut your ties, cut your losses and move on ASAP.
Again, easier said than done, I fully acknowledge that.
Just my thoughts.
moonsafari
ヾ(•ω•`)/ [F/18]
- Mar 30, 2020
- 47
I've never really dated that much. The one person I was really in love with happened to decide that we weren't really meant for each other and that's left me hanging for a while now. I was so surprised I got over it quickly - I only cried once, but that was a week after he dropped the bomb.
I like to think that that one breakup would be one of countless more heartbreaks to come along in the future.
I've always thought that the longer time you've spent with someone, the harder it is to leave them.
I like to think that that one breakup would be one of countless more heartbreaks to come along in the future.
I've always thought that the longer time you've spent with someone, the harder it is to leave them.
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highlyvolatile
I don't know anymore.
- Feb 14, 2020
- 278
He replaced me and left me quite easily so i must not have meant anything.
moonsafari
ヾ(•ω•`)/ [F/18]
- Mar 30, 2020
- 47
That could be a case too, I'm so sorry for your loss. Lots of hugs
and love to you
Pryras
Last hope
- Feb 11, 2020
- 516
I think anyone's reason is an acceptable one. I'm in a position where I have no option besides living with the pain of my once best and closest friend who assaulted me and won't EVER admit any wrongdoing or killing myself and ending the pain because I will never get over it
moonsafari
ヾ(•ω•`)/ [F/18]
- Mar 30, 2020
- 47
Yeah. I don't think it's our business to decide how right or wrong someone's CTB reason is. People want to help me but it hurts more when they interfere and try to hold me back because that's against my personal will to die.
Pryras
Last hope
- Feb 11, 2020
- 516
Exactly, everyone deals with their pain differently. I can't take emotional pain as good as some people who take it as a drive to do better in their lives. Emotional pain turns into physical pain for me and I have no way to cope.
A broken heart is one of my many reasons I'll ctb. You build your life with and around someone and then they leave you, cheat, die ect and then you can be left with nothing. Possibly faced with homelessness as well if they kicked you out or you loose your home. Having your entire life ripped out from under you in a matter of minutes. It might be hard for some people to fathom ctb over a break up because they are they "there is always plenty of others to date" type. But some of us form an attachment and a great bond with another person we don't want anyone else ever again.
Others cannot understand someone else's pain, and suffering because they are not them or in their head. What one person can get thru and over come another might not because the grief is too much. Grief is complex. Everyone's pain and sorrow is valid because that's what they feel.
Others cannot understand someone else's pain, and suffering because they are not them or in their head. What one person can get thru and over come another might not because the grief is too much. Grief is complex. Everyone's pain and sorrow is valid because that's what they feel.
braketimez
Specialist
- Mar 15, 2020
- 340
Your entire sense of self falls apart if you were truly close to the person. It's really tough and exhausting to fix that.
Brokenwings
Someday Some Way
- Mar 30, 2020
- 26
Since I lose my bestfriend I understand, it hurt more than any other loss for they were the one who was there when all those other loses happened.
Overnoutofhere
Member
- Mar 30, 2020
- 52
a.n.kirillov
velle non discitur
- Nov 17, 2019
- 1,831
"I believe that no man ever threw away life while it was worth keeping. For such is our natural horror of death, that small motives will never be able to reconcile us to it; and though perhaps the situation of a man's health or fortune did not seem to require this remedy, we may at least be assured, that any one who, without apparent reason, has had recourse to it, was cursed with such an incurable depravity or gloominess of temper as must poison all enjoyment, and render him equally miserable as if he had been loaded with the most grievous misfortune." — David Hume
moonsafari
ヾ(•ω•`)/ [F/18]
- Mar 30, 2020
- 47
TheEndof
It's getting dark and it's getting cold
- Dec 31, 2019
- 146
This. I've had my heart broken so many times in life. Some more impactful than others, but it never made me suicidal. Now, I've built a life with someone only to realize I've been lied to. All of the most important promises that he made were lies. After more than half a decade with someone, sacrificing support systems and better opportunities... it's more than the loss of a relationship. I'm mourning the loss of my youth, my body (which has been sacrificed in order to have his child), opportunities, support... I have absolutely nothing but my son (the only reason I'm still alive) and if I leave, I have nothing to give him. You give your all to somebody, quite literally, and they throw it all out the window. What's left?
I am in the same situation. Thinking of killing myself because I lost the most beautiful girl on this planet because of stupid behavior
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Nem
Drs suck mega ass!
- Sep 3, 2018
- 1,489
I fucked up a relationship because I was too deep in regret over what happened to me during the previous relationship. I felt like an idiot, it was really bad. The person claimed to be an empath but obviously that turned out to be bs, relationships can be both good and bad but for myself my thoughts on ctb aren't necessarily from relationships.
To each their own though and any reason is valid to an individual and I respect that
Peace/hugs
To each their own though and any reason is valid to an individual and I respect that
Peace/hugs
zherhk
Student
- Nov 25, 2019
- 126
I can understand the situation that leads to ctb when you literally lose forever someone when being together as soulmates.
AlreadyGone
Taking it day by day
- Jan 11, 2020
- 917
This. 100% this. Some people simply do not want to start over again with another person. For people who have the luxury of dating anyone, there is always someone else to date. For others, they do not have that luxury. You lose the person you built your entire life around, that's it.
Personally, I find that people get over breakups when they find someone new. When you don't, it is extremely hard.
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waterbottleman
Not a person
- Sep 30, 2019
- 721
itsamadworld
i wanna die somewhere like up there
- Mar 15, 2020
- 410
I have BPD and if I loose my favorite person it is extremely devastating! I feel a broken heart is a very valid reason to ctb. I am sure there is a science in the chemical drops in the brain after a breakup. Not to mention, not only does one loose the ex, but all the other people that the ex associated with!
Erase.myself
My body is a prison
- Jan 4, 2020
- 198
I totally understand this. My ex/best friend died Christmas Eve of last year. We were actually talking about possibly getting back together two months before he died. We didn't get back together (long story) but I still have strong feelings for him and felt super connected. Felt like we were soulmates and also have known him for 16 years. I've been wanting to ctb ever since, actually when I came into this site. I just want to go be with him and also my twin sister who passed away last year. Not only that but I also have BPD, recovering from anorexia, social anxiety, depression and OCD. I've tried to ctb a couple times before this, once when I was a teenager but my SI kicked in. Another time was two weeks after my twin died.
moonsafari
ヾ(•ω•`)/ [F/18]
- Mar 30, 2020
- 47
Erase.myself
My body is a prison
- Jan 4, 2020
- 198
Survival instincts. Basically, I was attempting to drown myself and I didn't tie myself right enough, so when I felt like I was suffocating and my lungs were about to explode, I wiggled free of my own dumb tied up situation underwater and got to the surface to breathe.
moonsafari
ヾ(•ω•`)/ [F/18]
- Mar 30, 2020
- 47
haha, for some reason that's what I thought the "i" meant.
Some of the same centres in your brain fire as physical pain, so you are actually experiencing what seems like physical pain? It also cause your body tone under tremendous stress and th body doesn't care whether or not its physical or mental stress it still effects the body, those are my two best guesses
waterbottleman
Not a person
- Sep 30, 2019
- 721
Erase.myself
My body is a prison
- Jan 4, 2020
- 198
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A heroin overdose. His doctor took him off Suboxone suddenly, which helped him stay well and stay clean for over a year. So off of it, he started going through withdrawal, bought dope and accidentally did too much and died.
waterbottleman
Not a person
- Sep 30, 2019
- 721
I'm so sorry to hear that.
Idk what I'd do or how I would feel if someone I loved died in that way.
May he Rest In Peace.
Erase.myself
My body is a prison
- Jan 4, 2020
- 198
Thank you for your kind words.
Im devestated. I just want to go be with him and my twin sister so badly. Something keeping me here is thinking about my mom though; she already lost one child and is heart broken...I don't want to put her through another heartbreak (plus my dad died) so in thinking of her keeps me here on Earth. It's what's holding me back right now.
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