Venting Why do I continue

[Abdullah]

Why do I continue when I'm at a dead end in life. I failed my final year of university and exhausted all my finances. I work a dead end job. The love of my life turned out to be someone else. I don't have any other chance at love nor being a provider. Life was so much more simpler in my early 20s. I would eat, study, work out, socialise smoke weed, repeat. Now I can't smoke no more because I live with my parents. I already made an attempt (overdosing on heroin) but I failed and ended up in hospital with a catheter and disapproving looks. I nearly lost my job and I had to fight to get it back. Now here I am again contemplating on CTB yet I don't have the courage. I mean is that even a solution to my problems ? The UK is to introduce a life long learning loan (LLE) for older people to access higher education however I have to wait until 2025 to access this. In this day and age, you can't make it w/o a degree. Yeah, I know the majority of the world cannot afford higher level education and live in abject poverty but I don't want to live like this. I'm tired everyday from work. I sleep all day on my days off and make no progression. I really have it easy but yet I feel trapped. Does anyone else feel this way? Have you made mistakes that you regret till this day?

 

[MidnightDream]

Tbh, I think degrees are overrated! Unless it's something STEM, or where you're working towards a profession (civil engineering, nursing, etc), I really don't think it's all that worth it. I've got one, and now working towards my second bc the first one was entirely worthless. In the meantime, friends who dropped out of college education have gone on to work in insurance firms, call centres etc and are now managers on salaries with plenty of work experience behind them. University really isn't all it's cracked up to be! There's plenty of other options out there if that's something you do want to explore.

 

[Abdullah]

Tbh, I think degrees are overrated! Unless it's something STEM, or where you're working towards a profession (civil engineering, nursing, etc), I really don't think it's all that worth it. I've got one, and now working towards my second bc the first one was entirely worthless. In the meantime, friends who dropped out of college education have gone on to work in insurance firms, call centres etc and are now managers on salaries with plenty of work experience behind them. University really isn't all it's cracked up to be! There's plenty of other options out there if that's something you do want to explore.

Thank you for your reply. I was actually studying a STEM degree (mathematics). It seems like that was the only thing I was good at but I lost motivation in my final year, my aunty kicked me out of her house. I didn't want to sacrifice my sleep in order to succeed. I just focused on my relationship with my ex at the time because I was in love. Fast forward COVID-19 hit and I lost the plot.
And we live in a world where it's the people you know that set you up for life. I doubt I could land a job in an insurance company w/o connects, w/o an undergraduate degree, etc.

 

[Deo volente]

Why do I continue when I'm at a dead end in life. I failed my final year of university and exhausted all my finances. I work a dead end job. The love of my life turned out to be someone else. I don't have any other chance at love nor being a provider. Life was so much more simpler in my early 20s. I would eat, study, work out, socialise smoke weed, repeat. Now I can't smoke no more because I live with my parents. I already made an attempt (overdosing on heroin) but I failed and ended up in hospital with a catheter and disapproving looks. I nearly lost my job and I had to fight to get it back. Now here I am again contemplating on CTB yet I don't have the courage. I mean is that even a solution to my problems ? The UK is to introduce a life long learning loan (LLE) for older people to access higher education however I have to wait until 2025 to access this. In this day and age, you can't make it w/o a degree. Yeah, I know the majority of the world cannot afford higher level education and live in abject poverty but I don't want to live like this. I'm tired everyday from work. I sleep all day on my days off and make no progression. I really have it easy but yet I feel trapped. Does anyone else feel this way? Have you made mistakes that you regret till this day?

I feel the same. Life is easy and it's awful. People say you should be grateful to have an easy life. I think they don't know what they are talking about. I pretty much wasted my entire life so far. Everything I did before has come to nothing pretty much. I really feel for you. I hope you find clarity and a way through all the confusion you are going through. <3

 

[Abdullah]

I feel the same. Life is easy and it's awful. People say you should be grateful to have an easy life. I think they don't know what they are talking about. I pretty much wasted my entire life so far. Everything I did before has come to nothing pretty much. I really feel for you. I hope you find clarity and a way through all the confusion you are going through. <3

I'm grateful to an extent but I say why can't I be earning millions/billions, travelling around the world, having as much offspring as Moulay Ismaïl? I'd be much happier, I just know it. My whole existence feels like a waste of time.