Why did you join

[Nefer]

What made you join the site and has it proved useful or as expected?
I original was seeking such a site hoping for a partner to join in my ctb, but now I seem okay going solo.

 

[Geist]

I'm going through a stressful time right now, and I might have to go through with it soon as a result of that, so I just decided to google "suicide forum", and this site is what popped up first. I just registered here a few days ago, so I'm not all that familiar with this forum yet. There's a disturbing amount of young people here though. And I'm honestly wondering how this site is even still up. You'd think they'd ban sites like this immediately.

 

[Maeve]

I joined primarily to find people that i can talk to and understand and not just say "helpful" stuff

 

[kindalone]

I come for the methods and stayed for the people. Nobody really gets me in the real world. Even depression is so varied that I have yet to find somebody that has similar thoughts.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

Mainly to connect with others who are going through the same kind of suffering. Yet also to learn about methods.
Only people on here understand me.

 

[carac]

I was searching for methods and started reading the threads out of curiosity. It seemed like a place where people were free to share their thoughts and feelings freely, with like minded others. I lurked for a month or two then joined in.

 

[Shiva_Story]

I was researching method of my choice and was curious see what others headed in the same direction are dealing with

 

[LonelyKitten]

I wanted to check out a genuine, open-minded space to discuss suicidal thoughts I've struggled with all my life.
It delivered!

But I fucked up.
I messed up my life too much already, and have been finding it impossible to reverse course.
So... It turned toward researching methods now, as I want to escape before it all gets worse and worse.

I am thankful for both aspects!

 

[CandycanePuke]

To be able to talk about what i feel without feeling the need to censor myself and to learn about methods to chose the one for me

 

[Darkover]

driven here by a brain injury

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I had a very deep depressive episode after everything went wrong what could go wrong and I had no hope and was totally desperate, ready to CTB. So I had my stuff ready to CTB. I searched for a community to be able to talk about my personal problems I cannot talk about with anyone else out there bc everyone is anti-suicide. So that's how I reached here and I'm still here.

 

[lwlaiet8887]

Deeply dissapointed with life and want to end the mental torment

 

[FuneralCry]

To research suicide methods of course as after all it's a suicide forum. But sadly in my case all the methods are either risky or inaccessible which is why I'm still trapped here. This is just the consequence of existing in this disgusting anti-suicide society where people are just expected to suffer endlessly until they cease existing anyway, it's such a hellish world.

 

[Morgengrauen]

came originally to research methods and since at the time it required to sign up to access full view of the site i did. Ended up staying because this place turned out to fill a need to have a place to freely talk about CTB in anonymity without worrying my online friends with my constant venting. Having connection with so many kind people who simply get it and can't step in trying to persuade me out of doing it is ironically helping a lot with my mental health and i'm incredibly happy to have found this place

 

[TheSuicidalLlama]

I tried to kill myself by impulsively jumping from a fourth floor 3-4 years ago. I somehow only broke an ankle but through the years I've developed chronic pain in the spine, craniocervical instability and lots of neurological symptoms because of it.

Since then, the situations that made me want to try to kill myself in the first place have only gotten worse (situations out of my choice or control) and my ability to deal with those situations is even lower because of my chronic pain.

Because of it, I've decided I want to kill myself right this time, so I joined to get all the information I can to choose wisely how to do it. I will have patience to get all the information and resources, even if it takes a year. I have a job and the resources to live until then, and I have the patience, so I'mma do this right this time, haha

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I wanted to find out what type of bullet people were using to ctb with a .357 magnum gun since they also shoot .38 special. Usually the only thing in reports is '.357 magnum revolver' which doesn't say much. Which caliber, if .38 then +P? Weight? Point? I did not find the site helpful in that regard.

Actually that's why I started poking around. I joined because I thought I had something to offer the community...empathy, advice and whatnot.

 

[Seered Doom]

researching suicide methods as well as finding a place to let out what I actually feel without being censored

 

[Lostman1029]

I came here to research suicide methods. After a few months of lurking, I got up the courage to join. I do not have anyone who shares my views on suicide in my life. I want to talk to others who understand what I am going through. Hello from Michigan, USA everyone!

 

[eternal_peace]

i wanted to join because I've been suicidal for so long, i wanted tips on how to take my life so I dont get brain damage or something shitty like that. this site really has helped me a lot and i'm grateful to whoever made it

 

[Lostman1029]

i wanted to join because I've been suicidal for so long, i wanted tips on how to take my life so I dont get brain damage or something shitty like that. this site really has helped me a lot and i'm grateful to whoever made it

I understand this completely. I want to die; I do not want to be maimed or injured for life.