Venting Why did things turn out the way they did?

[pedro3211]

I keep asking myself "why" things turned out the way they did. Why did I experience all the pain and disappointment? What was it all for? What does it all mean? How can I make it mean something? How can I make it so that it was all worth something?

It's all pointless. I could've been happy the whole time but that's not the way things turned out. Why?

 

[hdead]

Brother, I wish I had answers for you. I keep circling to the same freakin' question too. WHY?! I know I made many decisions that put me in the spot where I'm at, but I don't see why I came to be the way that I am. I don't understand why I couldn't, like many other people, make something purposeful out of my life.

I think it's exposure to internet and information along with childhood trauma. It's been too much for my nervous system to handle and I could never deregulate. I'm always functioning on a hairtrigger and I've always had sleep problems, anxiety and existential crisis and dread. It's gotten me isolated from whoever I came into touch with and my family is all broken up, too.

I hope you can find some rest, at least for the night. May your mind quiet down a little bit.

 

[pedro3211]

Brother, I wish I had answers for you. I keep circling to the same freakin' question too. WHY?! I know I made many decisions that put me in the spot where I'm at, but I don't see why I came to be the way that I am. I don't understand why I couldn't, like many other people, make something purposeful out of my life.

I think it's exposure to internet and information along with childhood trauma. It's been too much for my nervous system to handle and I could never deregulate. I'm always functioning on a hairtrigger and I've always had sleep problems, anxiety and existential crisis and dread. It's gotten me isolated from whoever I came into touch with and my family is all broken up, too.

I hope you can find some rest, at least for the night. May your mind quiet down a little bit.

Thanks man, it sounds like we struggle with similar issues