Venting Why can’t I make freinds?

[dreaming_of_pearl]

I'm back again I dunno where else to go my gf has been working extra long hours and I finally made a freind in the hlm fandom but I feel like I scared them because of my past and the fact I got involved with so much stuff, they are really super cool and I'm so sad I just fucked up by talking about my experience with the cosplay scene and people doing drugs n shit, I hope they don't think I'm a bad person it hurts I feel like I'm in middle school again and I keep saying the wrong thing I think I'm just so desensitized to stuff idk idk I'm scared they r gonna wanna leave and it's fine if they do I just I dunno I'm so sad I'm genuinely so sad I can't stop crying I hate loosing people and they r super cool, I don't wanna go back to the stupid side of hlm twitter my ass is gonna end up on regardless of what I do, I'm so genuinely sad and worried I can't stop biting my hand I hope they like me, I just want somone other then my gf to like me I can't stop crying
I miss my freind Seth I wish none of us ever got involved I. Drugs I hate it all please kill me I lowkey wanna relapse I feel so bad

 

[Worndown]

It happens. Your confidence, social skilla and those you interact with will determine the ourcome. It is complex and everyonw has to find "their groove".