Why can't I die like my baby

[Endless]

Ive been what my shrink likes to call chronically suicidal for years. I lurk on this forum because it's often the only thing that gives me any comfort.

My life on paper I guess is pretty good but these thoughts just appear from nowhere. I don't choose them.

But now my baby has died inside me, and I'm heartbroken. He is so far along that the heartless medical professionals are making me labour and birth my dead baby. I don't understand why they can't just cut him out. How is it ok to force a woman to go through that amount of trauma? I wish they could euthanize me and let me die with him. I have never felt so helpless in all my life

 

[Tomoko]

God, my heart is broken for you. My biological mother went through this before she herself died, seeing the pain she was in was terrible. I am so sorry this is happening. We are all here for you, should you ever need to talk. Sending love your way. I'm so sorry.

 

[Kobusu]

I can't imagine what this is like for you, and I can't ever understand, but I'm sorry you're going through this. Nobody should have to.

 

[Dead Meat]

My words cannot express how very sorry I am for you.

 

[liberty_222]

I am so sorry...i cannot imagine your pain rn. Please be safe.

 

[pole]

can't imagine what you're going through. i'm so sorry.

i hope you find peace.

 

[Rayzieka]

Thats so terrible... I'm sorry.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Nasty stuff, they should really have a way to deal with that at this point.

 

[Datguyohmy]

I'm so sorry. Nobody should have to go through that. It's awful that our medical system can't find a better method for you and so many other women who suffer through this.

There truly are no words... but please know that I am thinking of you.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

My heart truly goes out to you. Like others here, I simply don't know what to say. Only thing I can do is give you a virtual *hug*

 

[_Seeking]

I can't imagine how traumatic this must be for you, I am so sorry. I wish doctors would put the emotional well being of the patient first and not cause undue distress.

 

[Endless]

I can't imagine how traumatic this must be for you, I am so sorry. I wish doctors would put the emotional well being of the patient first and not cause undue distress.

It's like they don't really care. The loss alone is one thing but I feel like the process of going thru labour and delivering a dead baby is only going to land me in a psych ward or a grave

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for what you are going thru, for your loss & for the callous and completely broken medical system lacking any empathy. Hugs.

 

[miserableforever]

Ive been what my shrink likes to call chronically suicidal for years. I lurk on this forum because it's often the only thing that gives me any comfort.

My life on paper I guess is pretty good but these thoughts just appear from nowhere. I don't choose them.

But now my baby has died inside me, and I'm heartbroken. He is so far along that the heartless medical professionals are making me labour and birth my dead baby. I don't understand why they can't just cut him out. How is it ok to force a woman to go through that amount of trauma? I wish they could euthanize me and let me die with him. I have never felt so helpless in all my life

You poor thing. I lost my baby at 18 weeks. They induced me and it took all night to 'deliver' a dead little girl. I was able to stay with her in my arms for the whole day to say goodbye and give her kisses. I know your pain. It's been 2 years for me now and I'm still not ok.
Have your little one cremated. It's not very expensive and you will forever have something left of him.
If you need someone to talk, I check on this page every few hours.

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that must be painful what you are going through. I'm sorry you are in this situation, this life is so cruel. I wish you the best.

 

[Callie Arcale]

This is one of the most barbaric practices. Actually it's beyond barbaric… My heart goes out to you and every woman who had to endure this torture.

 

[Endless]

Update .. Ive been in hospital and they tried to induce me twice and failed. I begged for other options, why can't they do a d and E like they do for late term abortions ? But no ..they refused and sent me home with my dead baby boy inside me for christmas and will try again in a couple of days.

Barbaric really is the best word for it :(

 

[notocarpediem]

How are you doing now? my baby girl was also born sleeping.

 

[Here Today]

I'm so sorry.