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mish2019

Member
Oct 11, 2018
7
I`m worthless !! However I been hoarding cash it seems to help ! But you can never save enough money to make you happy, its never enough. actually I do not hate myself, I hate the world i`m in. I might consider suicide as a way out, to save myself from this horrible world. Suicide hotlines are not helpful, no one really cares, not really. Too many Americans have fell down into near poverty, with no way out and they don`t even see it. All they see is the dumb cell phone in their hand and they think life is good.
 
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jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562
I have no talents, no reputable skills, no friends, not smart, I am lazy, awkward, can't talk to people, fucked up some decisions in my life, can't find a passion, can't find a job and I'm disconnected with life. I'm sitting here wasting time and space.

That's why I'm worthless. I hate myself :)
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
Maybe at some point I'll feel like sharing it... suffice to say that I believe I have negative marginal value to society. But that's not the reason I want to ctb. I want to do it because each day offers me negative utility. Yeah, I'm a selfish bastard too...
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
What makes me worthless is I wanted plastic surgery as far back as 2004 and didn't do a single thing to get it. I just pissed about smoking weed expecting my parents to sort it out. They didn't and I wasted six years just waiting. I even went along with all the therapy bullshit they thought I needed. They were wrong I wasn't imagining it but I must have been off my head to not see what was happening. Why didn't they treat me for that? Fuckers, I'm so angry but I don't know if I have any right to be. Nothing was stopping me if I really wanted it but I didn't do anything until 2010 when I then joined a forum to ask about time travel. Yeah seriously. Waste it then immediately want it back. I did what I could about the wrong thing. Here I am another eight years down the line on a different forum because I 've never got over it. My inability to do what amounts to a google search. Every time I see some kid on a smartphone it's triggering. It's normal now and anyone can do it. Even my pathetic self could have probably managed something in six years with that ease of access available. Were forums big back then? I certainly wasn't on any, I don't think I even thought but if someone had it would have saved my life. After years of procrastinating I saw a surgeon last year who I expected to say no and that would be that (I expected this because of what I 'd been lead to beleive by the therapists and the few surgeons I had seen but he said yes and confirmed everything I 'd always said about my appearance. Then he changed his mind saying he didn't see any way he could improve it. I've been in pieces ever since. What does this mean? Will nobody do it or is there still someone?When's enough enough? Would somebody even have done it then if I 'd really tried? That's what I can't bear. I've been messed about but what would have happened haunts me. I want to find out by posted something like this on a plastic surgery forum but I can't risk it. I don't want to hear the yes I once wanted to hear. I hope that makes sense. When the time comes I can kill myself if I want to that's when I 'll do it
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Mine not so much but I'd been meaning to write that for ages. This seemed a good place
 
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Aaron Josef

Student
Oct 6, 2018
101
What makes me worthless is I wanted plastic surgery as far back as 2004 and didn't do a single thing to get it. I just pissed about smoking weed expecting my parents to sort it out. They didn't and I wasted six years just waiting. I even went along with all the therapy bullshit they thought I needed. They were wrong I wasn't imagining it but I must have been off my head to not see what was happening. Why didn't they treat me for that? Fuckers, I'm so angry but I don't know if I have any right to be. Nothing was stopping me if I really wanted it but I didn't do anything until 2010 when I then joined a forum to ask about time travel. Yeah seriously. Waste it then immediately want it back. I did what I could about the wrong thing. Here I am another eight years down the line on a different forum because I 've never got over it. My inability to do what amounts to a google search. Every time I see some kid on a smartphone it's triggering. It's normal now and anyone can do it. Even my pathetic self could have probably managed something in six years with that ease of access available. Were forums big back then? I certainly wasn't on any, I don't think I even thought but if someone had it would have saved my life. After years of procrastinating I saw a surgeon last year who I expected to say no and that would be that (I expected this because of what I 'd been lead to beleive by the therapists and the few surgeons I had seen but he said yes and confirmed everything I 'd always said about my appearance. Then he changed his mind saying he didn't see any way he could improve it. I've been in pieces ever since. What does this mean? Will nobody do it or is there still someone?When's enough enough? Would somebody even have done it then if I 'd really tried? That's what I can't bear. I've been messed about but what would have happened haunts me. I want to find out by posted something like this on a plastic surgery forum but I can't risk it. I don't want to hear the yes I once wanted to hear. I hope that makes sense. When the time comes I can kill myself if I want to that's when I 'll do it
Plastic surgery for what though?
I had a hard time understanding that, sorry
 
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Kellogg's

Member
Oct 9, 2018
79
Doesn't matter who you are or where your talents lie in this world everyone is expendable, like say if Trump died today then they'd just replace him with another guy just like him who can't make any actual decisions alone either, and how would one wagecuck be more important than an unemployed person, everybody dies obviously and that's how it's always been and so many people who got a job have died and no one has ever batted an eye over their deaths because the world doesn't need one person or even one hundred million to go on. On the other hand, perhaps the world will always need just enough people in order for mankind to continue, but perhaps even that's not true since there could be other worlds with human populations and so even if everybody would die in this realm humans would still continue in other realms so we are just really, really meaningless, especially on an individual level. Or so I feel. And having said that I don't think I'm philosophically speaking more worthless than the next guy whoever he may be, while I'm pretty worthless though if you just take a look at my life, a total waste of oxygen.
 
Rocky M

Rocky M

I'm A Monster
Jun 20, 2018
213
I could give you a very long list, but the thing that makes me feel most guilty is pushing away the only friend I had. It may not seem like much of a big deal to some, but she's the reason I'm still here. Even though we haven't talked in a while, I know She'd want me dead, trust me.I am a truly Disgusting creature . I don't deserve to be called a human. I Am nothing .
 
Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
A truly disgusting creature wouldn't show any remorse
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
Plastic surgery for what though?
I had a hard time understanding that, sorry
One side of my face is noticeably less developed. Apparently not noticeably enough though and I 'd rather live with that than the knowledge it could have been fixed fourteen years ago
 
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Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
837
I have no talents, no reputable skills, no friends, not smart, I am lazy, awkward, can't talk to people, fucked up some decisions in my life, can't find a passion, can't find a job and I'm disconnected with life. I'm sitting here wasting time and space.

That's why I'm worthless. I hate myself :)
That's pretty much my words, except I keep finding jobs and then not showing up and/or finding work that is not suited to me. I messed up so badly with my past decisions too.
 
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TheDarkness

Member
Apr 8, 2018
30
Me personally I'm not too sure I mean I didn't get the best grades who cares,
I'm slow body wise at least when it comes to doing fast food

I had to quit my job it wasn't giving me enough hours and I will likely be moving.
 
Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
Depresson and axiety are horribly crippling. Some people can't understand others dont want to. They would rather actually believe I'm just lazy and crazy, deserving of abuse, worthless.

If God is real he/she must think I'm pretty worthless too. God can't be wrong.
 
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musicismylife

Member
Oct 7, 2018
39
I feel that I have made choices at specific times in my life which have led me to this moment,,, which is pretty much loneliness, scarcity and to be quite honest sadness of being alive... unemployed and also not feeling like getting back to the world, and working and doing the whole thing... I feel a strong wish to be able to fall in love again and see light in things, but it fades out day after day... which makes me consider not to exist in this world... in a very profound way
 
Gainax

Gainax

Experienced
Oct 8, 2018
265
As the time passes i see it is the world and society itself that are worthless not me

on a personal level
i cant connect with people in life and in groups of people im the one who always stays silent while everyone is talking but 95% of the time they talk about meaningless bullshit, the weather, the politics, a certain car model, nothing that makes me want to contribute

in the job market
the last company i worked there wasn't much team spirit, only fear of getting fired and kissing ass to the higher-ups and taking shit from them
companies don't care for their employees, their just numbers, and they will only give you a chance when you're young after certain age you're fucked

in society overall
no one really cares about each other and but then comes Christmas and suddenly everybody loves each other for a few days
 
AllyStar

AllyStar

Tired
Oct 16, 2018
6
When I ask others they always say that I'm worth something to them, but I can't see why. To me, I'm a total waste of space, I don't have any talents, I have zero motivation to do anything, I never know what to do/say when I'm around people (which makes me awkward at times) and I always find a way to let people down. I'm also extremely insecure, this makes me believe every bad aspect people have to say about me. And believe, me people my age aren't exactly nice to each other.

Some might say this is all part of growing up (since i'm only seventeen), and well i sure hope it is...