Why are you suicidal?

[StillLife]

Not really interested in raising a family, social status, and getting sickly old.
I already feel like a specter, so when the last of the people that genuinely care about me are gone, um, what's next if anything?

Purpose would take me far but I'm having doubts I'll find something worthwhile in time...

 

[liza]

A group of people have been doing very horrid things to me secretively and I'm dreaming every night non stop. I feel like the jab from the vaccine is what caused the non stop dreaming. Mayb I'm not lovable

 

[sohopelessandempty]

The negatives outweigh the positives. With everything.

I'm not good enough at anything no matter how hard I try.

The text under your profile is exactly how I feel.

 

[sick&tired]

Chronic illness. I want to stay so badly, but it seems my body really doesn't want me to </3 every single day is a battle ..

 

[Lost Impact]

An incurable disease like me shouldn't have existed in the first place. I don't sleep. I don't live. I don't do anything. I sit here and rot. The vessel and mind have given up on me or was never there for me to begin with.

 

[l1ablemistakes]

No matter how hard I try the depression won't go away. I've worked so hard to have amazing friends, a beautiful relationship, a perfect job that pays well, and it's still there. It's been there since I was a young teen. I've been in therapy for 6 years and tried so many medications and I've only gotten worse. I think this is just how my brain is and I can't take it.

 

[sick&tired]

I will keep it short and to the point why I'm suicidal:

Chronic illnesses that worsen with age (I'm 38 and already have a body of a 70 year old person)
Due to my Asperger's I never had a friend nor a love life
I'm avoided by all like I have the plague, even though I'm a good person (I have been told by many that I'm a good person)

39 and I struggle with chronic illness too. It's devastating sorry you're dealing with it

 

[Macedonian1987]

39 and I struggle with chronic illness too. It's devastating sorry you're dealing with it

I'm sorry for your pain too. Living with chronic illnesses isn't life... it's torture. On top of it all I have nobody to comfort me when the pain gets too bad. My mother and father are very cold parents. Some people shouldn't have children at all.

 

[NameOfAction]

Agonizing mental anguish. I want to claw myself to shreds. There isn't a hard reason for this. I self-isolate. I have nowhere to go and there's boundless energy that has nothing to focus on, so it tears me from within. I can't tell what came first, the isolation or the pain and it's fucking horrible. I don't self harm anymore only because I consider it childish. If I could I would paint the room with blood and dance in it. I wonder if by body does it to my brain anyway, it would explain the anguish.

 

[Unicr0n]

Right now? My dog bit my face because he didn't like something I did and I'm considering behavioral euthanasia for him and then myself. I can't envision a world without him. Even though he came close to blinding me, taking out of this world that little bundle of bouncy joy I couldn't live with the thoguht that I'd killed him. Especially when I've done so much worse to people mentally. It's not fair to him

In general though, just seeing how much harm I've done to the world compared to how much good. And how even though I've tried over, and over, and over to be good, I end up doing something that harms someone's feelings/mentally and I'm realizing it's never going to end until I do. There are monsters in the world, people that deceive. I was raised to be a deceptive monster, and no matter how hard I try to tame that tiger, it always ends up mauling its master. Monsters don't belong in this world.

 

[Useless Idiot]

1. A psychopath lives in my home.
2. Life is ruined because of my mistake.
3. Health problems
4. Studying is ruined.
5. Mental health problem- emotional numbness.
6. Confusion about values.
7. Dont see a way out of home.
5 and 6 have made me insane for 5 years.

 

[itsgone2]

I don't know what's wrong with me but always been awkward, probably autistic. Maybe severe. I've made so many mistakes and can't fix them. Harm has been done to me too, plus the world is terrible and changing too fast for me. This is rambling and stupid and I don't care. Another night of insomnia. I was terrible and I'm being punished I get it but just wish it would all go away

 

[doomedforsure]

i just can't fit in this society. couldn't find any goal and happiness in life

 

[chudpolonais]

i have nothing to live for
no friends
no relationship
no job
no education
no talents
no hope
no future

 

[kk13]

Im not sure why im suicidal I have no family problems or financial problems but there's something wrong with my mind. I've known so long and I've tried to make people understand but its too late now all I want is to die

 

[merlinghost]

I'm seemingly suck at everything, I can't seem to help anyone, and I don't seem to enjoy anything, why not.

 

[richieya]

Worries about my past - the paranoia being too much to live with. Can barely go outside anymore because of it.
Also the fact I've reached out so much before and nothing has changed. There isn't much left to do

 

[Noob]

This might sound pretty stupid but these are the reasons I'm suicidal:

1. I don't want to go to college or get a job, both seem so miserable, I've never went to college, but still, I don't want to do assignments and any time I've had a job I've hated it.

2. I hate being unemployed as much as I do being employed. I hate feeling like a leech and I hate not having my own money.

3. I don't live alone and I have no privacy. It's degrading and I'm afraid I'll have to live with someone for my entire life due to my laziness and lack of motivation.

For me it's exactly the same as you. There's more but that is included in my package.

a general dislike of needing to do things and be productive.

And this

Most of my problems are financial. That would fix a lot in my life.
But till this day i hadn't enough willpower to pursue a career or just work in any job really. I dropped out of higher education, most jobs available to me now will probably suck.
I did make some money online for a while (years ago), it was decent, better than a minimum wage 9-to-5. But other than that i was unemployed all my life, because i just can't stand a normal job. Maybe i will never land in a good one. It would have to be a good one to be worth it OR just winning a loto, lol.

The problem is, i will have to dedicate a lot of my time to earn money and then i will not have enough time to enjoy that money. So what's the fucking point? I will have to enjoy it when i am older and sick? How if you lack energy, if you lack strength and health? And age is catching up to me... past 30 already

 

[ThunderBringer]

I'm suicidal because it's the only thing that makes sense to me. The first memory I have is wanting to die as young as 4 years old. And that's before I could comprehend how much of a bad hand I'd been dealt. I've been depressed and suicidal since day one. I don't have any recollection of a time when I didn't think of dying 24/7. Then life just kept getting worse and worse.
I just don't think I'm cut out for this life at all. I'm not strong enough for it. I can't love the way I'm supposed to. I was put on this earth to suffer and continue suffering until I die.
Being suicidal is as innate to me as breathing is for most other people. I've simply always been, therefore I will always be. It was as if I knew from the moment I was born that I was destined to kill myself. I'm a pretty reckless guy when it comes to my own safety, that's because I feel so strongly that if I'm going to die it will be on my own terms by my own hand.

 

[GyreOfAsh]

My most influential reason for feeling hopeless in life is my Debilitating Chronic Pain Hyperacusis / Low sound pain threshold which produces elevated levels of nociceptive, nociplastic & neuropathic pain from everyday sounds as low as 45-50db. This condition has created a highly stressful internal environment in me for longer than I've had a stable one. If I want to keep low stress hormones, I can't even have a conversation with someone without hearing protection on due to the average voice being higher than my loudness discomfort level.

Then there are the nervous system & digestive issues that are likely caused from the stress of having this condition. I also have other issues with my situation like my looks. Then there's the nihilistic & apathetic perspectives that I've gained from being wronged by humans in many other ways than just with my conditions. There are probably other reasons that I haven't easily realized. Getting to a point where I'm not seeing the point in life since the pleasure of life pales in comparison to the pain. The only things that are between me & oblivion are a few loose ends & my si.

 

[Bitch With An Apple]

1. I don't want to work. I live in a bubble that's popping. I'm incompatible with what I need to do to ensure my survival
2. I've cornered myself into an extremely negative worldview, but I think it's more or less correct so I can't abandon it
3. Guilt used to play a huge factor but I'm getting over that
4. I'm going to die anyway

 

[bugbugbug]

This might sound pretty stupid but these are the reasons I'm suicidal:

1. I don't want to go to college or get a job, both seem so miserable, I've never went to college, but still, I don't want to do assignments and any time I've had a job I've hated it.

2. I hate being unemployed as much as I do being employed. I hate feeling like a leech and I hate not having my own money.

3. I don't live alone and I have no privacy. It's degrading and I'm afraid I'll have to live with someone for my entire life due to my laziness and lack of motivation.

This is how I started out in my 20's. I've now reached my 50's and have a completely new list but I understand and relate to this completely. If I'm being honest I don't know how I'm still here and have found that the chronic illnesses mixed with a recent cancer diagnosis gives me little to no hope

 

[geepeedee]

lost it all, have no will to continue. watching the world burn isn't enough.

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

i got doxxed basically and basically i have some bullies on m case and they're so cruel and it hurts my insides so i have realised the only way out of any of this is by killing my self :3c yay

also my overthinking will finally end ‍

feel this so much. been doxxed at both my old and new place and they are dragging my parents and workplace into it now. it seems like it will never end, unless, they have no victim to attack anymore

 

[thefarter]

feel this so much. been doxxed at both my old and new place and they are dragging my parents and workplace into it now. it seems like it will never end, unless, they have no victim to attack anymore

i am sorry you were doxxed too.. its so hard. traumatising lowkey. i feel awful 24/7 because of it.

idk in my case it seems to genuinely be never ending. and it will obviously only end when i am dead.
and maybe whoever did it will realise they probably should never do it again :3

 

[ppyppyppy]

I failed to become a proper adult. No proper job, a degree in a field I don't love, living with parents, never had a partner, no friends, massive disappointment to family. I feel like a burden that should take itself out.

 

[kuroshimi]

Simply don't want to witness the world's decline and I don't want to wait for the wound of past to heal.

And I just don't see the point anymore.

 

[aesthetic]

i would rather be dead than continue to exist in this cruel world.

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

I am fundamentally Not Enough as a person.

 

[Spicy Tteokbokki]

1. Being neurodivergent which makes life hell ever since I was born in most ways, from work to relationships to love to sensory issues to emotional issues..
2. Not finding like-minded people and living in the wrong place for me, which has been very lonely and isolating during my entire life, and because of above I can't just pack my bags and move somewhere because I don't have money or connections or anything rly, or at least the connections I do have can't help me.
3. Never having much if any control in anything my entire life, which also sucks, and also why I keep struggling with one eating disorder or the other, as that's one thing I can "control".
4. Life as is right now, humanity, society is just flawed, broken, filled with shit and negative energy that I don't see the point even if all the above was solved for me.
5. It feels like I am playing some late-stage game and I never found it enjoyable in the first place. However, I am forced to play it for what feels like an eternity, and the game keeps getting progressively worse and more unfair over time, just further making the game feel awful to play.