Discussion Why are you not happy?

[HelpMeToday]

I'm not happy because I was offered a job, but then that job was snatched away from me in the last minute because my references didn't check out.

Since then, it's just been a downward spiral...

 

[rock3]

I'm not happy because I was offered a job, but then that job was snatched away from me in the last minute because my references didn't check out.

Since then, it's just been a downward spiral...

I'm not happy because it feels as though the world hates me no matter how many times I try to pick myself up it never works.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Mental illness, loneliness, poverty, living situation.

 

[Ecka-26]

I'm not happy because I'm an alcoholic.

 

[meetapple]

Mental illness.

 

[DreamingOfAutumn]

Loneliness, shit childhood, domino effect of hopelessness causing a lack of motivation which lead to personal failures and more hopelessness, and a near total lack of any positive reinforcement for what should otherwise be productive actions.

 

[CrazyMary]

I have no energy to do anything, I get bored and lonely. Think I might be getting back into depression but i dont give a fck. I have chances to go on dates but i doesn´t interest me. I need some good to happen soon so I recover.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Lack of skills that render me unemployable apart from teenage/retard-level menial jobs.

Lack of mental acuity, focus or energy to take the time to learn said skills.

The majority of my life's socialization has been behind the veneer of a black mirror, and when faced with IRL social situations that require effort to be human, I falter.

Generally feeling as though existence is barren of any real opportunities/plans for me, or anyone for me to talk to who is on my level as far as mental state, interests.

 

[oceansapart]

because there is no reason for me to be in the situation I'm in. it would have been so easy for me to be happy. but nobody with the power to help me has ever cared about what I wanted only what they wanted for me. and i'm too stupid and weak and passive to help myself

 

[jamie_]

losing my keeper

 

[ConstantPain]

My husband is a narcissist alcoholic and I know he cheats on me but lies right to my face. Part of me doesn't care about the cheating if it means he doesn't want sex with me. I'd say I've become asexual and at this point, dread any physical contact.
I also hate where I live and would much rather leave him and move back to where we used to live. Problem is I can't afford to do that and am too depressed to make it happen.
I'm always in pain both physically and mentally and anything that takes extra work is too much. My job is super stressful and leaves me exhausted.

I envy people who can muster up happiness but I just don't have it in me.

 

[emptyjokes]

My life is a series of screaming highs and drowning lows (usually about 1-2 weeks in between phases, so high -> lower -> make progress towards CTB -> back to high, repeat 1-2 times per month). Living this way has lead me head-first into having many catastrophic problems that are extremely hard to resolve and come with disastrous consequences. At this point it's a numbers game, and I simply do not have any paths left that would lead me to a life that I want to live.

Thankfully, making baby steps towards CTB every month has completely dissolved any thoughts that I WON'T kill myself, so there is a certain peace that stays with me. Someone asked me how I was feeling and I said "I'm on cloud nine right now." An honest answer would have been "I am going to be dead by the end of the year, I don't feel anything."

 

[Darkover]

Lack of romantic sexual love only had one partner in my lifetime from age 16 to 18 now 36
Terrible health problems from age 18 paranoid schizophrenia, 10 times dislocated left shoulder, 22 cavities in my teeth , was depressed for many years after the relationship break up very lonely despairing I was sent to jail at 18 for something I didn't do for 2 months that ruined my life
At 21 I took paracetamol overdose and damaged my stomach lining, I never went to school didn't get any gcse, I was in and out of trouble from a early age with the police, substance abuse mostly weed and at 30 I got a terrible case of tinnitus and a brain injury, my life is completely ruined now I have to ctb has I've been incapacitated for the last 6 years, I've never had a job, a lot of my teeth have completely decayed my life is series of disasters was raised in a single parent home
all i need was someone to care me for but thats just a dream in a place like this

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Botched plastic surgery and financial anxiety.
I am suffering from CPTSD with ADHD and OCD tendencies.
Also I am transgender.
I don't think I ever felt truely happy in my life.

 

[Zerengin96]

Because i have a syndrome that, among other things, causes craniofacial dystrophy, making me look like shit and i have a schizoid personality disorder.

 

[Meretlein]

What job was it? @HelpMeToday

Lack of romantic sexual love only had one partner in my lifetime from age 16 to 18 now 36
Terrible health problems from age 18 paranoid schizophrenia, 10 times dislocated left shoulder, 22 cavities in my teeth , was depressed for many years after the relationship break up very lonely despairing I was sent to jail at 18 for something I didn't do for 2 months that ruined my life
At 21 I took paracetamol overdose and damaged my stomach lining, I never went to school didn't get any gcse, I was in and out of trouble from a early age with the police, substance abuse mostly weed and at 30 I got a terrible case of tinnitus and a brain injury, my life is completely ruined now I have to ctb has I've been incapacitated for the last 6 years, I've never had a job, a lot of my teeth have completely decayed my life is series of disasters was raised in a single parent home
all i need was someone to care me for but thats just a dream in a place like this

It sounds like you have been through a lot. The world can be a hellish place.

 

[outatime_85]

I made too many mistakes, and I am running out of time to correct them.

 

[FuneralCry]

Because I hate being alive. For me simply just existing is painful and I could never want to live in a world that is as horrible as this. To me happiness does not even exist and I see living as being extremely pointless. I have no idea what it would be like, to want to be here. Things could only possibly get worse for me and it hurts me that it is so difficult to leave this world. All that I want is to not exist.