Why am I like this?

[m3phist0]

Can't figure out what's making me want to ctb. Have a nice wife nice family nice home etc.. but lately all I've wanted to do is die. I'm not sad or depressed really, it all just feels like attempts to satiate the void inside my heart.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. Sometimes there may not necessarily be a reason why we feel a certain way, it is just the way that we feel. I think for me, just simply being alive is enough to make me want to ctb. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[CelestialGoddess]

Can't figure out what's making me want to ctb. Have a nice wife nice family nice home etc.. but lately all I've wanted to do is die. I'm not sad or depressed really, it all just feels like attempts to satiate the void inside my heart.

Honestly, same. I'm not an adult, but I'm a teenager who is financially privileged, has loving family, no serious trauma, born both attractive and intelligent, and I just feel like it still cannot tie me down to want to live. I sometimes feel like a brat for having everything and still wanting to die but seeing lots of people on this site with incurable permanent damage or disease or continuous trauma and pain. I sometimes feel like someone would do so much better in my life, but here I am wasting it.

 

[lostmylove]

I remember my partner in tears saying this exact phrase to me. He just didn't understand the way he was. Life can be so cruel . Am sorry

 

[Red Scare]

Have you tried anything, talking to someone.... you know, like your spouse? Therapy? Medication?

I know what it's like to lose a spouse to suicide, it's not fun. I have to say in cases like this, I tend to sympathize more with the spouse that will be left to pick up the pieces.

All I can say is it has completely left me traumatized. It's ruined my life, and made me suicidal myself as a result.

Being widowed sucks. Bad.

 

[OldDrummer]

Can't figure out what's making me want to ctb. Have a nice wife nice family nice home etc.. but lately all I've wanted to do is die. I'm not sad or depressed really, it all just feels like attempts to satiate the void inside my heart.

What is it that you truly want?

 

[24601]

You need happy chemicals, my friend.

 

[m3phist0]

I was on meds for about 2 years and it really just made me tired all the time. I'm not sure what I really want. I've experienced pretty much everything there is to experience ,and it's just a bunch of short lived highs that I'm exhausted of chasing.
Talked to my spouse about it several times and they just want me to be admitted into a mental health facility and heavily medicated.

 

[thedaywillcome]

What is it that you truly want?

What I really want? Are you serious? I want to die.

 

[Al_stargate]

I'm sorry, I can't really comprehend it. We all gonna die anyway, might as well stick around if things are going ok. I'm very afraid of the negative consequences of suicide for people around me but also more importantly for my soul. Who knows where your soul might end up or if suicide brings some heavy karmic burden that will make for an afterlife of hell. You might believe it or not but still you don't know for sure. I understand if one was trading one hell for another that might be more bearable but why trade OK for uncertainty at best.