Help Why am I feeling so worried about my death?

[Bad-luck]

Hey guys. I am feeling so worried and anxious about CTB. I don't want to be. Please give me some advice.

 

[Tears in Rain]

It's normal to be anxious and worried, it's a huge decision. Your whole existence is on the line, of course you're going to be anxious.

Are you fully certain about your decision to ctb? The more at peace you are about your choice, the easier it will be.

 

[Csmith8827]

I think we all fear death. I was lying in bed the other day and everything was dark and my fan was going and I just wished I could close my eyes and go to sleep and never wake up again. It made me think that taking SN in a really dark room might not be so bad. Like but then I thought of how violent it can get with all the vomiting and stuff and I was just like fuck that...

I dunno what to tell you. CTB isn't easy and I'm no longer in a living situation to where I could even do it.

I think when you've finally reached that point though, you'll know it. Like maybe your not ready yet? Nobody knows what happens so it's kinda scary.

Life is so jacked up. I'm sorry you're feeling how you're feeling...I'm just happy that it'll end one day. I remember talking to this girl in a bus station and she was just like it might be a nightmare but it's not forever. It may take hella long but this shit is going to end eventually. And when it does. Whew. Relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really wish it's not so difficult for us to die on our own terms, what I'd personally fear is trying to die going wrong and just leading to way worse suffering. But anyway I hope that you find peace eventually, I find it so cruel how there isn't the option for us to just fall asleep eternally.

 

[rozeske]

Are you fully certain about your decision to ctb? The more at peace you are about your choice, the easier it will be.

I second this plus it's normal to be anxious and to fear the unknown. All our mind knows is this life and your survival instinct would do everything it can to fight us off when we try to take it away.

 

[eashanm]

Stoics and yogis both say that to overcome the fear of death one must think of it constantly in the proper manner. Daily meditation involves withdrawing consciousness from the body–a preview of death. By practising meditation we are inoculating ourselves with a minute dose of daily death and thereby developing some control over the dying process.