I personally wish I never existed more than anything, to never exist prevents all suffering in an existence which was completely unnecessary in the first place. Existence also disgusts me, I think it's something disgusting being forced out of the ideal state of non-existence, being burdened with the ability to suffer endlessly.
Existence is undeniably so futile and harmful, leading to nothing but to decay, it's certainly disgusting the amount of senseless torture and cruelty in this world, the existence of life was a horrific tragedy.