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gardenhouse

Specialist
Mar 26, 2026
332
Who would miss you the most when you're gone from this world? who would be the most devastated?
 
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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
274
My dog lol. No one else loves me like she does, in this pure unconditional way.
My mother would probably be devastated but part of me, an ugly one, enjoys that thought. I think to myself: "good riddance".
 
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ilovenewyork

Experienced
Nov 16, 2025
293
Nobody will care.
 
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_Gollum_

_Gollum_

Formerly Alexei_Kirillov
Mar 9, 2024
1,697
Probably the brother that's closest in age to me. We talk everyday. So I think the impact on him would be greatest. It's what I feel the most guilty about. But at the same time I'm a big believer in not wanting someone to suffer if you love them. So I hope he'll understand.
 
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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
180
My mom would die of a heart attack. Everybody else would be fine. Maybe some would be sad for a while but ultimately it would all be for the better.
 
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fadedghost

fadedghost

Found SaSu after reading BBC & watching YouTube
Dec 10, 2025
569
no one

although i expect one family member would have performative fake grief
 
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wannabeangel

wannabeangel

ź’°įƒ Missing Wings ą»’ź’±
Mar 14, 2026
203
my parents and siblings, my ex husband even tho he left for valid reasons, im sure some friends would miss me too even if i wasnt very close to all of them all the time. it makes it harder to go through with everything, but i hate feeling like i am just forced to suffer to make others happy with my existence on this earth
 
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BrokenByTheSystem

BrokenByTheSystem

I'm not a good person
Mar 23, 2026
136
I'd say my cat but I think even he dislikes me...
 
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whywere

Angelic
Jun 26, 2020
4,042
Absolutely no one.

I might, a huge might, be remembered for the scholarship that I am going to set up but besides that aspect, ZERO.

Oh, there will be shirt tail cousins who will speak nicely about me until they find out that they get ZERO and then the usual barbs and nasty language will be back.

Walter
 
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charlavail

charlavail

trying to figure out the point
Mar 19, 2026
154
my cat. i don't know if anyone else would miss me that much when i'm gone, they barely act like i'm alive now unless they think i'm in severe distress.
 
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idksympxthy

idksympxthy

hey, did you know...? my blood is black!
Apr 11, 2026
56
my little sister. she doesnt speak much but I was the first person she ever told "i love you". at my worst moments she runs into my room wanting to cuddle, or just yanking my arm to come hangout with her. she takes me out of that dark mindset a lot and i find myself always breaking down into tears silently when i hug her. I just keep praying everyday that she can keep her innocence for as long as she can unlike me when i was a kid. The thought of her even encountering one unkind thing in this world makes my chest tighten. If i leave this world, how can I know that she'll be safe?
 
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Lfsn_kivacs-rei

Lfsn_kivacs-rei

Member
Mar 1, 2025
33
My sister, my dog, and a few friends. I don't think any of them will be surprised though, I've been very clear that I'm on the way out. The dog will look after my sister. I'm trying to find a way for my dog to see my body before cremation so he's not waiting for me to come home.

My mother will make it all about her. I doubt my dads will notice after the initial shock.
 
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mars2027

mars2027

Member
Apr 8, 2026
53
My mom, I think. I don't feel like we have a "deep" connection. I'm the youngest of my siblings, and she had me at quite an old age. Also, after I was born, everything seemed to start going wrong for her (my grandma died, and she began having financial and marital problems, while her mental and physical health deteriorated), so I guess I can't blame her for not being that fond of me, as I barely remember her playing with or taking care of me when I was a child. Now that I'm an adult, we argue a lot because we pretty much have nothing in common aside from our temper, but when we're on good terms, it feels good. It's also very clear that I'm the one she loves the least in this home, but I can't help but love her the most anyway.
 
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jaysthreecents

Member
Apr 10, 2026
19
My dog lol. No one else loves me like she does, in this pure unconditional way.
My mother would probably be devastated but part of me, an ugly one, enjoys that thought. I think to myself: "good riddance".
This is why I always preferred animals over humans. Something special about how animals don't complicate love. The human mind is our greatest tool, and our greatest enemy.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Paragon
Dec 24, 2025
918
i dont even know anymore
 
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moon2bright

worthless
Apr 11, 2026
36
My wife, which is a big reason why I haven't done it yet. She'd be able to find someone better, though.
 
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RoachClassified

RoachClassified

i still feel like nothing...
Apr 23, 2026
26
probably my internet friends, not for long tho, a week or two. i'm just a guy behind the screen to them, not someone they would genuinely miss for the rest of their lifes
 
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chaoschuckler

chaoschuckler

CTB on 11th May Hopefully šŸ–¤
Feb 4, 2026
127
Can't tell but there will be some who will miss.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,533
since my female dog left me in 2020
I am alone, isolated, no social contacts
 
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Bishop

Bishop

This is the way
Mar 24, 2024
257
I'm not sure who would be devastated. But I would miss my cousin the most.
 
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Bikishii

Bikishii

yeah yeah whatever
Mar 12, 2026
79
I have a few friends I know who would never forget me, even if we've barely known each other ten years, or less than that. The few who know me deeply enough that I can even talk about this sorta stuff with them to some degree, they would move on and wouldn't lose sleep at night after a while, but once in a while I know something would happen that'd make them think "ah, that really reminds me of Bikishii, i wonder how things could have been..."

I won't have to deal with the consequences, I'll be long dead by then so I won't experience it. I guess my nuclear family will "miss" me but that seems to come from a place of obligation rather than genuine feeling.

I dunno! It could be the ones you least expect.
 
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bg733

bg733

The Day That Never Comes
Nov 26, 2025
19
I believe the only one is my girlfriend, I don't deserve her. Without her, not even my cat would miss me hahaha.
 
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Roadrunner

Specialist
Mar 18, 2024
377
My dog. She's the only reason I haven't climbed onto the bus yet. If life gets so bad that I can't take it anymore before "her time", I'll arrange for my adult son to take her "while I'm out of town for a couple days", I know he will keep and care for her.
 
HarleyQuinn

HarleyQuinn

heartbroken
Feb 28, 2026
48
nobody will miss me.
 
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Spite

Spite

I don't like this world.
Aug 20, 2025
470
My wife, my maternal family, and a few Internet friends. One of the reasons I haven't CTB'd yet is because I feel horrible imagining what life would be like for them after I'm gone. I know my wife and my mother would be absolutely devastated, they would not be able to live with themselves.
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

There's someone in my head but it's not me
Oct 21, 2024
664
Well, mom died in February, and my dog died two weeks ago from old age, so that's two that won't miss me

I guess my kids will miss me(at least two of them)... A few people at work might miss me since we have a blast when we are working.

My brother might act sad for a couple days, but he's a dick so I don't really care.
 
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SoverignDreamer97

SoverignDreamer97

I am never alone.
Mar 29, 2026
229
A world without me would be awfully dull and grey, but this isn't up to me; if I die, I die; though my father, mother, and the whole world forsake me, the Lord will bring me up. (Esther 4:11, Psalm 27:10)


"You can't please everyone; control the things you can control." ~Suncha Ferriera (Victus Group)
 
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3shells

Member
May 8, 2026
5
Basically my whole family. It fucking sucks but i have basically zero attachment to any of them beside my mom who is the only one who keeps me going, shes the only person i can think of who has ever loved me even if she could never truly understand me. Shes pretty old though and her health is so and so which basically makes it that i'm just hanging around until she passes which will probably be my que to go. My dad is cool and all but he has always been so old-timey that hes always been pretty emotionally distant. I could cry infront of him and he'd just sort of stand there saddend not knowing what to do and pat me on the back and leave me be while mom would actually try to comfort me. My brothers are so distant from that i just don't have much mind to pay them but i do feel sorry for my sister who also struggeled with mental health pretty badly in the past but got alot better. She told me i should call her if i'm thinking of ending things so i guess i'll see how that goes when the time comes up.
 
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HeyBoogahJr

HeyBoogahJr

I'm still here.
Apr 25, 2026
125
Who would miss you the most when you're gone from this world? who would be the most devastated?
I think the only person who would be is mum. Everyone else says they care. But even after my hanging attempt, no one is around to help.

Who would that be for you?
 
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