Who/what makes you angry?

[Deadlyroses]

I'll start- ignorant nosy relatives! "Are you seeing anyone?? When will you get married? We need a big wedding! Don't you want kids? Don't wait until you're too old! Why do you always want to be by yourself??"

ENOUGH ALREADY

FIRST the fuck of all!!!!! You all raised me in a culture where I was never allowed to interact with boys! EVER!!! Now I'm a socially illiterate adult thanks to your backwards ass ways and my inability to fit in anywhere, and you suddenly have the GALL to ask me where my husband is??? BITCH! WHO SAYS I EVEN WANT KIDS OR A HUSBAND! Mind your business and get the FUCK

SECONDLY

A handful of you went out of your way to make me feel like an outsider for liking certain music and movies and shows! And for being socially awkward and quiet! Y'all picked on me when I was a child, and you never stopped when I asked you to! All in the name of "jokes"?? BITCH

Tormenting an insecure little neurodivergent girl is not joke you stupid fucks!!! Don't tell me shit about getting "too old" because age clearly meant nothing to you when you decided to endlessly pick on a distressed and insecure CHILD. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out why I avoid people! Of course I always want to be alone! I was already lonely and miserable in school, and you idiots fucked up my self esteem even more! Now I hate the absolute fuck out of everyone and everything!! I avoid you fucks like the plague because I'm full of hatred and resentment and negativity towards ALL of you!!! And that'll never change! No I won't forgive or forget! Fuck EVERY last one of you until the end of time!

Please leave me alone and go fuck yourselves with chainsaws EXPEDITIOUSLY


Thanks for coming to my angry TED talk. Feel free to rant about whatever or cuss someone out below if you please.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not sure I feel angry as much, but more irritated. Everything irritates me. The fact that I exist in the first place, the fact that I am still alive. I hate it when there is hot weather (luckily not now), having to talk to people occasionally, certain peoples loud voices, the fact that the people I know talk about the same boring things all the time and I am often stuck listening to them. People who ask too many questions. Noise in general, I live in a noisy area. My inability to concentrate. The fact that everyday is the same, it irritates me when I cannot sleep. I am tired of the same thoughts. Seeing people enjoy life. Laughter is painful to hear.

 

[oliviahurts]

My fucking grandmother. The stuck up bitch. When my sister was a teenager, she asked her if she could use some of her college fund to escape domestic abuse, But instead of helping, the hag yelled at her for being cowardly and ordered my sister to stay at home to protect me an my mother. And that it was her job to 'keep the family together'. Cunt cunt cunt cunt cunt cunt absolute fucking cunt.

 

[Deadlyroses]

My fucking grandmother. The stuck up bitch. When my sister was a teenager, she asked her if she could use some of her college fund to escape domestic abuse, But instead of helping, the hag yelled at her for being cowardly and ordered my sister to stay at home to protect me an my mother. And that it was her job to 'keep the family together'. Cunt cunt cunt cunt cunt cunt absolute fucking cunt.

Hear hear! All that talk about "family is family" is BS! If a family member is a piece of shit, you are well within your rights to cut them off and speak your mind! "Elders" or otherwise!

 

[TheSoulless]

I play games so I don't have to think about my problems. When I also suck at those games, I get angry. I say my headphones are broken, when actually they were "aggressively disassembled".

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Pride, unwarranted feelings of invincibility, people being casually wrong about extremely important topics and simultaneously confident in their beliefs, how there is no brain behind our societal structure and almost everything is haphazard af.

 

[Midgardsorm]

I already said this, but,

My secret is:

 

[summers]

For me, it's when able-bodied people are begging for money IN FRONT OF A STORE WITH A HELP WANTED SIGN IN THE WINDOW.

I came so close to getting into a physical fight with this one guy, mid 30s, who was begging. I called him out. He gave me the finger. Well, the car got shut off right in the middle of the lane, and it was about to be on. The mother fucker actually ran away haha.

 

[LivvenDe]

I'm not sure I feel angry as much, but more irritated. Everything irritates me. The fact that I exist in the first place, the fact that I am still alive. I hate it when there is hot weather (luckily not now), having to talk to people occasionally, certain peoples loud voices, the fact that the people I know talk about the same boring things all the time and I am often stuck listening to them. People who ask too many questions. Noise in general, I live in a noisy area. My inability to concentrate. The fact that everyday is the same, it irritates me when I cannot sleep. I am tired of the same thoughts. Seeing people enjoy life. Laughter is painful to hear.

Me too!!! Usually I don't feel anger, it is more irritation and a wild revolt!

 

[SleepDealer]

Gifs.
Sadists, bullies, assholes, whatever you want to call them.
Arguments, debates, politics.
bigots, -ists, and -phobes.
Being a woman.
Feeling helpless and defeated.
Being angry.
Existing.

 

[LivvenDe]

Gifs

 

[BottomlessPit]

The glaring lack of empathy in humanity.
The disturbing amount of ignorance everywhere.

But at the center of it all, myself.

 

[Caramelized]

• My existence.
• The fact that I feel as though everyone in my life is unwilling to talk about how meaningless and unnecessary life is, causing me to isolate myself and resent them.
• The fact that I'm feeling this way, and can't just turn the feelings off.
• AND ESPECIALLY, when I read articles/ watch videos talking about depression and existential crisis and their fucking "solutions" are things like (and I'm not kidding, I've literally heard this suggestion before for an existential crisis) instead of brushing your hair, facing the mirror like you do every morning, face away from the mirror while you brush your hair and do little stuff like that to change up your routine....THE HELL!? (T_T)

 

[LivvenDe]

The fact that I feel as though everyone in my life is unwilling to talk about how meaningless and unnecessary life is, causing me to isolate myself and resent them.
• The fact that I'm feeling this way, and can't just turn the feelings off.

Oh I so understand you here!!

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Cruelty or indifference towards other species. There are at least laws to feign protection of us humans, but we treat other things that can hurt like ... mere resources for our pleasure. The great majority of what we write or read about suffering and mercy pertains to beings that share our chromosomes. As if other living things couldn't suffer terribly. It's no wonder we can justify hurting each other so much given we can so easily justify creating hell on earth for trillions of other creatures.

 

[LivvenDe]

Cruelty or indifference towards other species. There are at least laws to feign protection of us humans, but we treat other things that can hurt like ... mere resources for our pleasure. The great majority of what we write or read about suffering and mercy pertains to beings that share our chromosomes. As if other living things couldn't suffer terribly. It's no wonder we can justify hurting each other so much given we can so easily justify creating hell on earth for trillions of other creatures.

 

[forgotten15]

Happy people. People who enjoy life irritate me.
Cruelty, bullies. All the bad things that exist in this world because people created them.

 

[littlelungs]

My entire existence. People who lick their fingers before turning a page. People who have absolutely no perspective. Noise. People who deny others who are suffering and/or have no quality of life the right to die, and then try to play it off as it being because they "care". How underfunded MECFS research is. Unsolicited advice. Discrimination based on things that can't be changed. Most news channels. Parents who harass their kids about "giving them grandchildren". Willful ignorance. The whole "fuck you, got mine" attitude that is so rampant in society. People who, upon learning that something upsets someone else, go out of their way to do it right in front of the person in question. My mother-in-law. People who say that people who are chronically ill are "just lazy", "just don't want to work", "aren't trying hard enough", etc. Victim-blaming. How fucking difficult it is for disadvantaged people to access any kind of social help/services. Slumlords. Billionaires who buy their tenth mansion instead of paying their employees a living wage. People who try to invalidate someone's argument solely based on their spelling and grammar. Arguing. People. The arrogance of humans and the willingness to put other sentient beings through a life of absolutely unfathomable hell for pleasure and profit, which I think ties into what @FTL.Wanderer said very well:

Cruelty or indifference towards other species. There are at least laws to feign protection of us humans, but we treat other things that can hurt like ... mere resources for our pleasure. The great majority of what we write or read about suffering and mercy pertains to beings that share our chromosomes. As if other living things couldn't suffer terribly. It's no wonder we can justify hurting each other so much given we can so easily justify creating hell on earth for trillions of other creatures.

Lots of stuff pisses me off, lol. I'm just so beyond fed up with humanity and this world.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Genital mutilation. Especially when these genital mutilators preach lies saying we are made by a perfect, divine entity.

 

[Manaaja]

Loneliness. I wish I didn't need social stuff. I wanna be alone. And have a dog.

The Internet is working very slowly, I can barely browse this website. It was much better earlier today.

 

[deflationary]

How underfunded MECFS research is.

Aren't lots of long covid cases basically the same thing as me/cfs? If so then covid could be a blessing in disguise for people with me/cfs. I'm expecting the covid angle is gonna draw a lot more funds and any findings might be applicable more widely than just for covid cases.

 

[littlelungs]

Aren't lots of long covid cases basically the same thing as me/cfs? If so then covid could be a blessing in disguise for people with me/cfs. I'm expecting the covid angle is gonna draw a lot more funds and any findings might be applicable more widely than just for covid cases.

Spoiler: Spoiler so that I don't clog the thread

I personally can't really say for sure if it's the same thing just based on the information that I have right now, but you're definitely right in the sense that there are unmistakably a lot of parallels between Long Covid and MECFS. Lots of people who suffer from MECFS often caught a virus and then just never seemed to recover from it, and then because the more immediate aftereffects were not taken seriously by health professionals or even the patient themselves, this led to long-term worsening of the affected. That's how it went with me, too – I fell ill with glandular fever which was followed by a series of other infections, from which I simply never recovered and my body just went absolutely haywire. After ten years of going through hell, being gaslit by my family, the health and social systems in my home country and even myself for a lot of the time (because I so badly didn't want to be sick, obviously) and getting increasingly worse with everything I did, my body finally gave in and I collapsed (twice). My husband (who's likewise severely affected by MECFS) recognized the signs immediately and got me in to see a neurologist, where, after extensive review of my medical records, I was diagnosed with MECFS. It took ten motherfucking years just to figure out what the hell was wrong with me.

Of course, this is all extremely simplified, but from my understanding, that's the general gist of how it often goes for people with MECFS. Even with that said, though, not all cases seem to be triggered by a virus, and there are lots of people who DO catch a virus and then don't go on to develop MECFS. We still aren't even sure as to what actually happens in the body to cause it. We see the correlation between a virus and the development of MECFS, but of course, correlation doesn't equal causation, blah blah blah.

It would be so "nice" to at least have a biomarker for it and/or a clear answer as to what causes it, so that we (obviously) have a better idea as to how to treat it (in the meantime I've just been taking a lot of random supplements or off-label prescription drugs in a desperate attempt for some relief), because up until the Covid-19 pandemic hit and Long Covid became more widely known and started to seem to be somehow connected to MECFS, the awareness of this neuroimmune condition was VERY low, the research was painfully underfunded, and it all seemed to be more or less just one big shot in the dark.

So, you're totally right about the pandemic being kind of a blessing in disguise, even though I feel kind of fucked up for saying that – my husband and I actually had a very similar conversation right when we first started hearing about Long Covid cases as well, and we might have even used those exact words. While on the one hand I absolutely HATE that the pandemic happened in the first place and has destroyed so many lives in so many different ways, I'm definitely grateful for the recent progress in research, funding and overall awareness for MECFS that has been fuelled largely by the (unfortunate) prevalence of Long Covid and its undeniable causal and symptomatic parallels to MECFS. My fear is that, once all the hype around Covid-19 has died down a little more, people will stop caring all over again, and all of those affected will be forced to suffer in silence because of the illness's capacity to get so severe that advocacy becomes nearly impossible. There's definitely a reason as to why people with MECFS are sometimes referred to as the "Millions Missing".

I hope the scientific and medical community keeps it up so that we can continue to gather information about this life-ruining illness and hopefully find an approved treatment – maybe even a cure. I highly doubt that this will happen in my lifetime as we still have a long way to go (and I don't plan to live much longer because the suffering is just so fucking unfathomably unbearable, between the severe MECFS and everything else I've got), but I really hope that the day will come where this illness isn't more or less something that lots of people either die with or die from, and that very few people take seriously or give a fuck about.

So sorry if that's all over the place. I'm suffering my ass off and really struggling just to type and think, but this is (obviously) something that I'm incredibly passionate about, and you left a great comment.

 

[stellabelle]

I'll start- ignorant nosy relatives! "Are you seeing anyone?? When will you get married? We need a big wedding! Don't you want kids? Don't wait until you're too old! Why do you always want to be by yourself??"

ENOUGH ALREADY
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FIRST the fuck of all!!!!! You all raised me in a culture where I was never allowed to interact with boys! EVER!!! Now I'm a socially illiterate adult thanks to your backwards ass ways and my inability to fit in anywhere, and you suddenly have the GALL to ask me where my husband is??? BITCH! WHO SAYS I EVEN WANT KIDS OR A HUSBAND! Mind your business and get the FUCK
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SECONDLY
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A handful of you went out of your way to make me feel like an outsider for liking certain music and movies and shows! And for being socially awkward and quiet! Y'all picked on me when I was a child, and you never stopped when I asked you to! All in the name of "jokes"?? BITCH
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Tormenting an insecure little neurodivergent girl is not joke you stupid fucks!!! Don't tell me shit about getting "too old" because age clearly meant nothing to you when you decided to endlessly pick on a distressed and insecure CHILD. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out why I avoid people! Of course I always want to be alone! I was already lonely and miserable in school, and you idiots fucked up my self esteem even more! Now I hate the absolute fuck out of everyone and everything!! I avoid you fucks like the plague because I'm full of hatred and resentment and negativity towards ALL of you!!! And that'll never change! No I won't forgive or forget! Fuck EVERY last one of you until the end of time!
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Please leave me alone and go fuck yourselves with chainsaws EXPEDITIOUSLY
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Thanks for coming to my angry TED talk. Feel free to rant about whatever or cuss someone out below if you please.

You are absolutely on point.
now it's gone in the distance but the scars remain. Their lying, stealing, shaming, cruelty. Their pushing and shoving and pretending like they didn't do anything wrong. It all killed me inside.
im angry at all of the things I couldn't change. That I couldn't stop from happening. That I couldn't escape from.
im angry that I'm still having flashbacks of what they did, and that I'm still in the phase of "acting it out" - that I'm so lost inside and out. That I appear crazy, when I'm not. I'm just upset and my life was thrown off track in a thousand ways and there was nothing I could do.