Who Is Planning On CTB In November

[Jean4]

I really want to be there personally for people at that time. I was thinking that we should have a monthly post where people can write their date, so we can be there for support.

 

[JimFord99]

I plan to CTB in November.

 

[MeltingHeart]

the thought of been around for firework night terrifies me! that most 'celebratory of nights'! ( I used to enjoy it) - I should have been gone by now-but my SN got found- dont even get me started on Xmas! now that is one season I have NEVER enjoyed even at my most positive!

 

[Nem]

That's a good idea, I think Halloween is the best time to go but I'll have to play it by ear even though I should be gone already

 

[Darkhaven]

That will only make this forum seem more grim and morbid.
Let's make a calendar with people's suicide dates on it so we won't miss the next one...
It makes it seem as if it's something enjoyable to witness and support.
Then we wonder why the other pro life white knights say that we are preying on vulnerable people and behave like "leering crows".
Just an opinion. You do what you wanna do.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Me

 

[khw777]

I was going to ctb on my birthday November 30th but don't know if
that would be to suspicious.

I really want to be there personally for people at that time. I was thinking that we should have a monthly post where people can write their date, so we can be there for support.

That's very kind of you.
I think it's great idea if someone truly wants someone to be there.

 

[Jean4]

That will only make this forum seem more morbid.
Let's make a calendar with people's suicide dates on it so we won't miss the next one...
It makes it seem as if it's something enjoyable to witness and support.
Then we wonder why the other pro life white knights say that we are preying on vulnerable people and behave like "leering crows".
Just an opinion. You do what you wanna do.

I don't consider it morbid. I consider it respectful. A big fear of many of us, as you know, is dying alone.
It's a reality that the majority of people here want to die.
I don't consider commenting suicide morbid. Death is a reality, especially here.
People are here who want to watch no matter what.
However, there are people like myself who want to be there to show the person love and respect and support them.
People make goodbye threads because they don't want to be alone. By knowing that a date is coming up, we can check in and say our goodbyes.
The people on this forum is the only human contact I have. They are the only friends and family I have.
People like @Stan @Haku and @SuicidalSymphonies are my family. I wouldn't want to not be there when their time comes to let them know how important they are to me.

 

[Notf1xable]

I'm going either the last day of October or the first half in November. I'm just weary of doing it in November because of some people I care about birthdays, I had another method I was gonna use but I was too afraid to pull the trigger. I was supposed to ctb in September but I ended up selling the gun I had. So it's looking like November will probably be when it's gonna happen with SN.

 

[Jean4]

I'm going either the last day of October or the first half in November. I'm just weary of doing it in November because of some people I care about birthdays, I had another method I was gonna use but I was too afraid to pull the trigger. I was supposed to ctb in September but I ended up selling the gun I had. So it's looking like November will probably be when it's gonna happen with SN.

Please let us know when you are ready. Don't rush. It will happen when it is the right time.

 

[I’vehadenough]

me too. im trying to make it past the holidays, but i doubt it

 

[Jean4]

me too. im trying to make it past the holidays, but i doubt it

I know how the holidays are. They are horrible. I'm trying to make it past too.

 

[Notf1xable]

Please let us know when you are ready. Don't rush. It will happen when it is the right time.

Money problems have compounded my situation so it's kinda made the need to ctb faster. Too many things hitting me all at once. I'm hoping there's nothing after this, but part of me is so mad on the things I'm never gonna get to see and I'm so mad the the person that hurt me so badly isn't feeling any remorse. And I'm so mad about the potential after effects of what I will do. I've hinted to one of my exes that I have joint custody with of why something would happen would. Because our son has the potential to be effected, I've read the studies. My younger kids at least won't really remember and they won't see me, unless my mom has a funeral. And I've given several options, I'm so worried my kid is gonna think it's him and it's not. He's been through some tough stuff for a kid already, and me and his dad are finally on talking terms. (My ex despised my husband to say the least). My ex also was harassed but not to the same degree and him and his soon to be ex wife think it was my husband and so does my family. I just don't understand it, and my husband (soon to be ex husband, going through a divorce) why he would stay with me. I'm so mad because if it was him I missed out on someone that could have loved me and had a normal relationship. I went through hell being with him, for nothing, I gave up so much. Sorry for the vent, thinking about why I'm doing it makes me so mad, and hurt and so much.

 

[Jean4]

Money problems have compounded my situation so it's kinda made the need to ctb faster. Too many things hitting me all at once. I'm hoping there's nothing after this, but part of me is so mad on the things I'm never gonna get to see and I'm so mad the the person that hurt me so badly isn't feeling any remorse. And I'm so mad about the potential after effects of what I will do. I've hinted to one of my exes that I have joint custody with of why something would happen would. Because our son has the potential to be effected, I've read the studies. My younger kids at least won't really remember and they won't see me, unless my mom has a funeral. And I've given several options, I'm so worried my kid is gonna think it's him and it's not. He's been through some tough stuff for a kid already, and me and his dad are finally on talking terms. (My ex despised my husband to say the least). My ex also was harassed but not to the same degree and him and his soon to be ex wife think it was my husband and so does my family. I just don't understand it, and my husband (soon to be ex husband, going through a divorce) why he would stay with me. I'm so mad because if it was him I missed out on someone that could have loved me and had a normal relationship. I went through hell being with him, for nothing, I gave up so much. Sorry for the vent, thinking about why I'm doing it makes me so mad, and hurt and so much.

I do understand. Maybe think of videotaping a message to your son?

 

[Notf1xable]

I do understand. Maybe think of videotaping a message to your son?

I don't know how he would get it, or to make sure of a way to get it to him. I haven't even figured out how I'm gonna get someone to know what I've done, once it is done. Besides even if I said what I wanted to say doesn't mean he'll believe it. I also worry he's not gonna get the "it's okay to have emotions and all that growing up" I've had to take his step grandma and his grandpa aside and talk to them about not saying certain things. He's in counseling already because of the stuff he's going through, but his dad and his family is very old fashioned. I'm worried I'm gonna potentially mess up his life 10x more. There's a lot to the situation of what happened to him so, yeah I feel like a terrible person for being in pain enough to ctb. Plus my other son is special needs, but I have all that figured out with my other stuff.

 

[bornsinner]

I'm ctb this weekend

 

[WhiteDespair]

I don't consider it morbid. I consider it respectful. A big fear of many of us, as you know, is dying alone.
It's a reality that the majority of people here want to die.
I don't consider commenting suicide morbid. Death is a reality, especially here.
People are here who want to watch no matter what.
However, there are people like myself who want to be there to show the person love and respect and support them.
People make goodbye threads because they don't want to be alone. By knowing that a date is coming up, we can check in and say our goodbyes.
The people on this forum is the only human contact I have. They are the only friends and family I have.
People like @Stan @Haku and @SuicidalSymphonies are my family. I wouldn't want to not be there when their time comes to let them know how important they are to me.

Alternatively, if you know the date you can talk the person out of CtB which is much harder when the person has made up their mind and made a goodbye post. That might satisfy anti-CtB folks.

 

[Jean4]

I'm ctb this weekend

We will be here for you

Alternatively, if you know the date you can talk the person out of CtB which is much harder when the person has made up their mind and made a goodbye post. That might satisfy anti-CtB folks.

Hate to tell you. If you are ready to CTB nobody can talk you out of it. If you can be talked out of it, then you weren't ready.

 

[*KNAZ*]

I was thinking 11/11 would be a cool date to CTB

 

[Jean4]

I was thinking 11/11 would be a cool date to CTB

We will be here for you if that is the right time. :)

 

[passenger27]

I'm planning November for sure.

 

[Jean4]

I'm planning November for sure.

You won't be alone and will have us should you need us.

 

[*KNAZ*]

I don't consider it morbid. I consider it respectful. A big fear of many of us, as you know, is dying alone.
It's a reality that the majority of people here want to die.
I don't consider commenting suicide morbid. Death is a reality, especially here.
People are here who want to watch no matter what.
However, there are people like myself who want to be there to show the person love and respect and support them.
People make goodbye threads because they don't want to be alone. By knowing that a date is coming up, we can check in and say our goodbyes.
The people on this forum is the only human contact I have. They are the only friends and family I have.
People like @Stan @Haku and @SuicidalSymphonies are my family. I wouldn't want to not be there when their time comes to let them know how important they are to me.

There are some really wonderful people and good gentle souls here. It makes it so much easier to be able to vent or ask a question and people respond with so much kindness. For many of us, the little expressions of kindness - a like or a hug icon or a response - is more positive loving human contact than we get in the real world. And we can be honest here. Honest about who we are, what we are feeling, and the things that have brought us here.

 

[passenger27]

You won't be alone and will have us should you need us.

That's very kind. Thank you very much.

 

[Jean4]

There are some really wonderful people and good gentle souls here. It makes it so much easier to be able to vent or ask a question and people respond with so much kindness. For many of us, the little expressions of kindness - a like or a hug icon or a response - is more positive loving human contact than we get in the real world. And we can be honest here. Honest about who we are, what we are feeling, and the things that have brought us here.

I have always thought. Maybe if we got the love and kindness from others in our lives like we have found in this community, maybe we wouldn't want to CTB.

 

[*KNAZ*]

I have always thought. Maybe if we got the love and kindness from others in our lives like we have found in this community, maybe we wouldn't want to CTB.

Or we would find ourselves CTB together in a gentle way.

 

[WhiteDespair]

We will be here for you

Hate to tell you. If you are ready to CTB nobody can talk you out of it. If you can be talked out of it, then you weren't ready.

You are correct. I've known for a while that if someone really and truly wants to CtB there is nothing you can do or say to alter that decision.

I use that exact line if people are worried about me or whatever. I think I used it on a shrink at one point. I've also seen the results of numerous failed attempts and a life torn apart as a result. I'd rather someone who wants to CtB gets the right information, has support whether the choice is to CtB or not CtB, and pick up some empathetic friends along the way who can share their insights and struggles because we do understand this a little better than normies instead of failing a CtB because of wrong ot missing information and then having to spend the rest of a life wrapped up in aftermath of a failed attempt.

I wanted to make a reason from the perspective of an anti-CtB. It's my mistake if I was unclear.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I have always thought. Maybe if we got the love and kindness from others in our lives like we have found in this community, maybe we wouldn't want to CTB.

Yep & people simply willing to take the time to listen to how you feel/ yr thoughts & opinions - you to make you feel like you are worth something. Worth the faintest bit of attention for once.

 

[Jean4]

Or we would find ourselves CTB together in a gentle way.

And we wouldn't be alone :)

 

[tom90]

If everything goes as planned, me also. I just cannot take it anymore.