Who is keeping you alive?

[nihilism44]

I can't leave this earth right now because I know my dad would be going with me shortly after. I also have a lovely boyfriend of 5 years and I don't know if he would be able to handle it.
I know it sounds very pro-life of me but I know how much it would affect other people if I went through with it. I'm really grateful that I have people that love me.. it just makes it so much harder to leave and I'm so fucking exhausted :(

 

[Rabitfever]

Mom, dad, brother. That's basically it. I have a few close friends but they're not going to be affected much is what I feel. But my family would be devastated and that's the only reason why I'm still here. I've recently distanced myself from them hoping to soften the blow

 

[solanastan16]

The fear of falling is what's currently keeping me alive. My younger sister too but sometimes she exacerbates it. It really depends on my mood.

 

[Rayzieka]

Probably my best friend. But I know I get in his way often.

 

[the_final_countdown]

Myself. Unfortunately.

Survival instinct. It's so sad...I just want to go now.

 

[Sakura94]

parents

 

[ExhaustedExistence]

Nobody is worth my suffering.

 

[motel rooms]

It's not a who, it's a blind animal instinct for self-preservation

 

[IHaveNoName]

I know the feeling my main reason I'm still here is my mum, she is also mentally ill and I don't know if she could cope with me CBTing without her depeing on me I'd bne gone right now.

 

[nopointofliving]

Mum

 

[DarkAngel]

My partner has a terminal illness. I vowed to see him through his journey before ending my own.

 

[IHaveNoName]

My partner has a terminal illness. I vowed to see him through his journey before ending my own.

That must be very hard, I hope you are both happy until the end,

 

[BlankUser]

My boyfriend... And my parrot? I'm thinking to buy another bird to keep my parrot company. Or I will write that in my suicide note for my boyfriend. I'll ask him to buy another bird. But I know my boyfriend will suffer a lot if I die. At the same time I think he will have a better life without me. He will be free of my OCD, he won't have to deal with it anymore. I already feel guilty by destroying his life.
It's not a pro-life thing to worry about the people you care. It shows that you are a good person. It's a horrible dilemma actually.

 

[ClownMe]

My dog.

 

[RedHarlequin]

My mom, I will ruin the rest of her life. It breaks my heart. I also have a wonderful partner but even though it will be really hard and traumatizing for him, I think it is not going to destroy him like it is my mom.

 

[DarkWolf]

No one, now my dog is gone. I lived for years for her. I would not die until she did.

 

[LossOfWill]

The only thing keeping me from killing myself is fear. I so badly want death but I don't have SN and I'm too scared to go by any other method

 

[diyCTB]

My elderly mom. We both depend on each other. I am useless NEET but I help her with medical procedures, bring groceries home, help her with home DIY things, help with translations because she does not speak local language. She did a lot for me and I am in a limbo because my death will devastate her at best. I don't know how long I will be able to stay with her because my SN and other medications will start expiring at some point.

 

[deathgal]

When my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer I thought that I would end it after he died. I was thinking I can't go on without him. When he did pass it was really hard. My mum was in bits as my sister and family and I thought I couldn't do that to her. I keep thinking when she goes then it will happen but still every days a struggle. So it's just my close family keeping me here.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

My Dog.

 

[Boochky]

Nobody. My mom tried to kill me in 2019 and I stayed alive because my boyfriend loved me. But now he's tired of me and there's nobody but creditors who will miss me.

 

[WatermelonMel]

Nobody.

 

[Bat 17]

Two daughters. As well as wanting to parent them (I'm a single dad) it one day dawned on me that they could well end up with bipolar disorder and/or suicidality too and need my help. I've suffered many indignities as a psychiatric inpatient and I'd hate to not be there for my own girls when they need me because I've checked out on them. My ex wife would be bloody useless !

 

[LenkaX]

I have nobody but my mother, but she shouldn't had me in the first place. I'm going to ctb soon. It's my life, not anybody else's.

 

[Tortured_empath]

My brother.

 

[DarkNearDeath]

False belief of validation

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Myself.

 

[onthelastday]

n o b o d y

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

idiots apparently

 

[Choicer]

No one anymore I'm still here because I want a certain way out no mistakes no waking up in a hospital bed. I want to get it right.