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Caleb82

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Apr 23, 2024
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I was just wondering how many here had parents who had ctb. And how much of what you are going through now is as a result of that.
 
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Caleb82

Member
Apr 23, 2024
16
My big brother did. And my grandpa.

My parents are asshole junkies that abused the hell out of us. It should've been then

My parents are asshole junkies that abused the hell out of us. It should've been then
I really am truly sorry, Friend. This should never happen. I am so sorry for what you went through and probably still are.

I believe I am an asshole parent and thus why I should get rid myself from them. I don't want my children to ever feel as shitty as I truly am. I want their happiness for all their days almost more than my desire to CTB. Thankfully, they have a good mother. But one shitty parent (me) is enough to destroy a generation.
 
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let.me.let.go87

Meh
Jul 12, 2024
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I really am truly sorry, Friend. This should never happen. I am so sorry for what you went through and probably still are.

I believe I am an asshole parent and thus why I should get rid myself from them. I don't want my children to ever feel as shitty as I truly am. I want their happiness for all their days almost more than my desire to CTB. Thankfully, they have a good mother. But one shitty parent (me) is enough to destroy a generation.
I don't know. The fact that you question yourself means you're better than they were. My folks thought and still to this day think they did nothing wrong. Do you beat your kid(s) for the hell of it? Mine did. Sell them for drugs when money is tight? Mine did. Don't sell yourself short. You may not be as bad as you think… ijs
 
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Caleb82

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Apr 23, 2024
16
I don't know. The fact that you question yourself means you're better than they were. My folks thought and still to this day think they did nothing wrong. Do you beat your kid(s) for the hell of it? Mine did. Sell them for drugs when money is tight? Mine did. Don't sell yourself short. You may not be as bad as you think… ijs
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That is really horrible. Really really horrible. I am so sorry. I don't know how anyone can survive that. My natural instinct at this very moment is to just give you a big hug. I am sorry for your childhood. No one deserves that.

I will just say that I am a different kind of asshole but I am just beginning to see that my shityness might scar them for life and they never deserve that.
 
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