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Archness

Archness

Defective Personel
Jan 20, 2023
554
Turned 20 recently, and I guess that'd mean I'd been pondering abt death for 4 years total, more seriously for 2. About 1/5th of my life was suicidal and that fraction will only grow.
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,012
23F, honestly idk how long I've been this way. I never wanted to live past 18 though so…
I'm 21, hope to stay that way. Adulthood has shown itself to be agonizing and the things that make life what it is hurt me. It is adulthood itself that has driven me to this point.
Same, I never even wanted to reach adulthood anyways.
 
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binkie

Member
Oct 15, 2023
28
23NB, I was diagnosed with depression when I was 11. My first time hospitalized from an attempt was at 13. I've given up on ever getting better. I never thought I'd be around this long and every year that passes by I just get more and more lost. I haven't had a plan for the future since I was 16. Every attempt at self-improvement fails and every time I try to change my circumstances I find myself floundering and losing myself further into a current I never saw. There is no freedom for me in this life. I'm tired of struggling. I've tried so hard for so long and I'm just so tired.
 
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DreamEnd

Enlightened
Aug 4, 2022
1,892
26. Planning to join the 27 club soon
 
nodaysleft

nodaysleft

Hanging on by a thread
Jan 27, 2024
14
24M (FTM) and been in therapy since I was 14 yrs old. It's fucked up my childhood and adolescence and I've only gotten worse over time. So much to our 'prime-years' right?
 
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d2reason

Member
Feb 2, 2024
31
24. Suicidal the past year. I'd expect majority of users here would be young people; it's just a hunch I have.

There's also population-level data you can look at.

USA Deaths by Suicide in 2021, CDC.
10-24 years7,12614.8%
25-44 years16,72434.7%
45-64 years14,66830.5%
≥ 65 years9,65220.7%
But do keep in mind that deaths do not encompass unsuccessful attempts or suicidal people that have not attempted.
 
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Tzu

Tzu

Member
Feb 5, 2024
19
24F (well, close enough. Birthday in a week)
 
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calebzz1

calebzz1

What is it like to see single and clearly?
Jan 6, 2024
97
I'm 23, don't really want to CTB but currently dealing with bad complications and a terrible outcome after my dream surgery and no matter what I do nothing changes.
 
heisenberg

heisenberg

well, good luck babe !
May 18, 2020
186
20f. turning 21 in october. i've been depressed since i was 11 and suicidal since i was 13. i've only had one attempt on my life, an overdose at 15. one of the nurses at the hospital told me "if i really wanted to die it would have worked" lol.
 
UserHussein

UserHussein

Member
Oct 14, 2023
51
21, expecting to end it all before 22. Or maybe sometimes this week. I tried hanging myself earlier, only for survival instinct to kick in.
 
whotookmylexapro

whotookmylexapro

Member
Jan 19, 2024
68
21…. Im more recently suicidal maybe a year ago but i literally cant take it anymore. My late teens were filled with trauma which triggered all my mental illnesses and i have no support and life doesn't seem to ever get better. I held out up until last year where everything built up and came crashing down, i cant anymore
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Wizard
Oct 8, 2023
674
23M. Suicidal since I was 8 (at least, that's when I first tried). Really hope I can figure something out soon. Never thought I'd go on for so long but there gets to be a point where you get used to it.
 
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returntothevoid

Member
Jul 20, 2023
98
21. Been suicidal since I was in elementary school, I believe when I first seriously started considering it I was about 11 or so. Just been steadily getting worse and worse every year that goes by.
 
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VoidedExistence

Student
Dec 6, 2023
103
I am 23, I would like to know if i am the only young guy in here? I see post from people ranging from all ages.

How old are you and how long have you been suicidal?
me 21, been suicidal since 17
 
RollingGiant

RollingGiant

stay cool
Jan 25, 2024
29
20, turning 21 soon. I've been miserable on-and-off since I was a little kid, but for the last four years I've been almost constantly depressed, with shorter periods of intense, painful anger and despair.
 
terra.nuvo

terra.nuvo

Student
Feb 15, 2024
179
23M, had my first attempt at 14 and have been suicidal ever since.
 
peacepursuit23

peacepursuit23

Any day now
Jan 14, 2024
12
20M here, had my first strong depressive episode 3 years ago, fell into it again. Dont plan on keeping the cycle up, though I am unsure when and how.
 
PixelPlant

PixelPlant

smile, you’ve lived :)
Aug 15, 2023
128
i'm currently 21M and not thinking about going past that age. I had thoughts of death since age 12 and even made a first attempt at partial hanging around that time
 

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