They killed my healthy dog two days ago. She was otherwise in a really good health, energetic, happy. She would have had surgery on the 15th day of this month, but my narcisstic mom, without my consent or knowledge, canceled it and got the dog euthanized. Fucking murderers my parents. The dog was legally mine so it was a crime to do so. And I was told it might even be animal abuse to kill a dog that is healthy. I've seen videos of dogs living happy lives with three legs. There's no reason why a dog with one broken leg which could be easily fixed in a surgery would have to be killed.
I hate my brother for defending my narcissistic parents and worshiping them to the point that now that I have gotten older and more mature, I've started to hate him for being for being mother's little puppet even though he is almost 40. He chooses parents that treat him like crap over a sibling that treats him well. I like him, but I hate him.
I also hate my uncle for being a creep to a child. He never did anything sexual but I still remember when he claimed that some school assigment or some shit was actually a love letter. He also got angry at his brother after brother told him he hasn't lost any weight, he hasn't talked to the brother for 10 years, but still keeps calling the brother's wife really often. WTF.
I have lately started to hate my aunt after realizing she is similar to my narcissist mom. She wants money from her poor kids and when her kid kills himself, she keeps thinking it's okay to keep demanding money from them. No wonder he killed himself. She values money over relationships. She goes to long vacation trips (even during corona of course), buys design clothes, and then demands money from her kids.
I wish I had rich relatives. One of the first videos I ever saw on the internet was a girl who got a giant luxury manor for her 18th birthday. Guess what I got? Despite the fact that I literally had no income or money, my narcissist mom demanded I start to pay her for drinking water! When a person has a disabled kid with zero money and severe depression and her "Congratulations for being an adult" gift is demanding money from them I hope she burns in hell forever. I really wish I had rich parents. I've read that poor family's often have child and spouse abuse, though I'm not saying a poor person can't be a good parent or a rich person a bad parent (I recently read about a rich dad who bought expensive items for his new wife and step-children while his ex-wife and biological child barely had money to eat), just that poor parents are (and several studies confirm this) much more likely to view kids as a money resource or money expense while rich people don't need extra money so if the kid drinks a cup of water or eats a piece of bread it won't drive the family moneyless.
I hate my cousin for being a childish bully at age 31. He literally has no friends, has never dated, etc. And no wonder why. For example, when I played Hearthstone card game online against random opponents (so not against him but against total strangers), everytime I won he'd say it was only because I cheated, and every time I lost he told me it's because I'm a terrible player., He lowers my self confidence a lot. Sometimes he is nice and does and say nice things, but often he behaves like a 10 year old school bully. A few months ago when we were frisbee golfing, I got a call from my mom and she told me that dad had killed a poisonous snake which had wandered into their yard. I told my cousin that dad had killed a poisonous snake which had been lurking in the yard. I also said that it was good that dad had killed the snake, because the snake could have bitten the dog or a human and killed someone. My cousin's response? He yelled "[My full name] thinks that killing animals is okay!". Like what 31 year says such things? Not even a teen says things like that. It was really childish, but also really hurtful and illogical. I hadn't killed any animals, it was my father. I didn't say killing animals is okay, in fact I love snakes, I have went to a snake exhibitions and paid money to have snakes on my neck. But if a dangerous poisonous snake is in the yard and there's a huge danger that it will kill the dog or a human, then it's right to kill the snake.
I hate nearly all my relatives. Either they are toxic shit or they treat me as if I was a complete stranger and forget I even exist and never talk with me.
I read about changing your names. I wish I lived in the USA. I've read that it's really easy there. Meanwhile I wish I had a gender neutral name and a nice surname but I have to send them a photo of my genitals so that I don't get a name that is "incompatible" with my genitals, because I am just a piece of genitals not a human being, not a person, not a soul, no, just a genital, why do you even talk to my head talk to my genitals. It will probably also cost 10000€ and I will probably have to ask the president for a permission to change my name, and I probably can't change my surname unless I get married and take my wife's name but of wait can't take a vagina's name has to take a penis name fuck you system....
