Those who so selfishly decide to procreate are those ultimately responsible for creating all the suffering and harm in the first place, it's very tragic to procreate into this disgusting and hellish world where there is potential for the most extreme suffering and torture. I see wanting death as the only logical response to escape from the futility and cruelty of existing, existence itself is the true problem and could never be a desirable state under any circumstances, it's such a terrible, horrific tragedy how life even existed at all. It's horrifying how we cannot just have the option to easily die in peace as in my case the ideal state of eternal non-existence will always be preferable to decaying and deteriorating from age in this meaningless existence.