Discussion Which of these is your main reason?

[αmber]

Hello. I hope we all can be at peace one day.

The purpose of making this poll is to get a view on what are the reasons that make us want to end our existence.

Feel free to vote and post a comment if you wish!

 

[T90-Alpha]

i wish i could click more than one button on here

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

wow its 50 50 physical illness/disability and loss of a loved one.

both actually apply to me

 

[αmber]

i wish i could click more than one button on here

wow its 50 50 physical illness/disability and loss of a loved one.

both actually apply to me

Hey, I just made possible to select more than one option

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I've got six of them, lol.

 

[MatthewV3]

For me it's depression that seems to be treatment resistant, childhood trauma, loneliness and no perspective for the future.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me, life itself is enough of a reason to want to die. I simply prefer the sound of non existence. The fact that life is a thing in the first place is absolutely horrifying to me. I want nothing to do with living and I have no interest in being alive. I see no point to suffering until old age just for the sake of it. Life is very depressing and painful.

I have never wanted to live and I do not belong in this world, dying is what feels right for me. There is absolutely nothing here for me in this world. If I do not exist, I am incapable of suffering and there is no limit as to how bad things can get in this life. By dying I am escaping the possibility that things could get much worse.

Suicide does not even need a reason, it is a human right and living is not an obligation, it is a personal choice and I would choose death over absolutely everything. I do not want to be me anymore, I do not want to be anything at all.

 

[VapeAway]

I checked most of these boxes. My life is really a miserable piece of shit...

 

[western_heart]

I checked almost half of these, have already overcome a few...

 

[αmber]

For me it's depression that seems to be treatment resistant, childhood trauma, loneliness and no perspective for the future.

Have you tried some medicines to treat depression? I started taking some in February and have felt a little better at times. I have also taken medicines for depression when I was younger, but those had no effects on me.

On childhood trauma, loneliness and no perspective for the future, I also suffer from these. Unfortunately, childhood is a phase in our lives upon which we have almost no control, a phase in which our future (mental, psychological, financial, ...) is fully dependent on other people. The traumas I had when I was a kid play an enormous role on the problems I face today in life.

 

[Funeralprincess]

Pretty much depression, trauma, and losing my soulmate which happens to be the biggest reason. I'm just anxiously trying to get all the tools I need for a peaceful departure

 

[αmber]

For me, life itself is enough of a reason to want to die. I simply prefer the sound of non existence. The fact that life is a thing in the first place is absolutely horrifying to me. I want nothing to do with living and I have no interest in being alive. I see no point to suffering until old age just for the sake of it. Life is very depressing and painful.

I have never wanted to live and I do not belong in this world, dying is what feels right for me. There is absolutely nothing here for me in this world. If I do not exist, I am incapable of suffering and there is no limit as to how bad things can get in this life. By dying I am escaping the possibility that things could get much worse.

Suicide does not even need a reason, it is a human right and living is not an obligation, it is a personal choice and I would choose death over absolutely everything. I do not want to be me anymore, I do not want to be anything at all.

I agree with you on each word you wrote. Non existence seems a lot more beneficial than existence. By not existing, we're freeing ourselves of all upcoming sufferings. I would rather feel nothing, neither pleasure nor pain, than feel bad much of the time and feel good at very rare times.

I wish we could just go as easy as we go to the hospital for a sickness we have and say to the doctor we are sick of living and want a thoroughly functional medicine for that. We would take an injection and just fade into the blackness of non existence. That would be a dream world.

 

[archipelago]

If you had asked a few years ago, I would have included depression and childhood trauma in my vote. By and large, my main reasons are physical illness that results in being unable to work, therefore not having independence. These two things did not change for me even though I don't feel depressed anymore, so I would say those are my reasons.

 

[αmber]

Pretty much depression, trauma, and losing my soulmate which happens to be the biggest reason. I'm just anxiously trying to get all the tools I need for a peaceful departure

Is the loss of your soulmate something recent? When I lost mine a long time ago, I felt like being in hell, but luckily that has ended. On the other hand, trauma and depression, which I also suffer from, seem to last longer if not forever. These are the main reasons I want to exit life.

 

[MementoMori81]

A combination of factors for me.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Main reason: wrong assigned sex at birth, dont want to go through life seeing people have the appearance I wish i could have. This also leads to my lack of motivation.

I am better off dead.

 

[Circles]

Besides disability, boredom, philosophical reasons, etc. the major one for me that's not on there is loneliness.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

One of the main reasons is my financial situation but even if I had enough money to never worry again in my life, I have a feeling I would still be unhappy:,)

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Unfortunately, childhood is a phase in our lives upon which we have almost no control, a phase in which our future (mental, psychological, financial, ...) is fully dependent on other people. The traumas I had when I was a kid play an enormous role on the problems I face today in life.

Unfortunately it's true.

 

[Idontmatter]

Depression that is treatment resistant, fatigue, anxiety, no motivation. Looking forward to permanent relief.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I checked all of these I am fucked
Student debts
Childhood neglect (no hobbies, not well socialized)
Physical illness (acne)
Career mistakes (choose wrong major)
Lookism
Depression

I have way too many issues

 

[lofticries]

Straight up depression since I can't remember a time in which I didn't feel empty or anxious.

Also feeling like I'm in a race carrying heavy weights. While everyone is half way down the track it feels like I never left the starting line. Tired of feeling like I've being left behind and can't seem to catch up with everyone else.

So yeah a strong feeling of inadequacy also makes me wanna die.

 

[Hate you]

life is pointless and repetitive suffering

 

[VikingHagstrom]

Imma ctb in a hotel in the next few days, i m sad

 

[outrider567]

Is the loss of your soulmate something recent? When I lost mine a long time ago, I felt like being in hell, but luckily that has ended. On the other hand, trauma and depression, which I also suffer from, seem to last longer if not forever. These are the main reasons I want to exit life.

lost my soulmate when she died in January, yes it is hell, each day still...shock and grief no end to it

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I ticked most of the boxes, but a lot of my reasons have a common root cause - my (very) late ADHD diagnosis (very late, as in the summer before I turned 50). Undiagnosed and untreated, so I job-hopped a lot, moved a lot, bounced from this hobby to that passion to some other interest, then lost interest in just weeks (or days!), wasted a lot of money on these passions, made a lot of other stupid mistakes, etc, etc. My family doesn't have much patience for me, and all of my friends have ditched me, so I'm pretty isolated. I may also be on the spectrum, menopause made my brain worse, and covid kicked my ass.

And even though ADHD is behind many of my issues, they are not easily fixable (if at all) - my ADHD specialist closed her practice earlier this month, there aren't many others around here, my family doctor doesn't want to prescribe my meds b/c they're serious shit, I don't want to take my meds (even tho they work) b/c I"m terrified of becoming addicted, and on, and on, AND ON.

I'm on track to CTB soon b/c I'm running out of money and can't deal with the prospect of being homeless on top of everything else. I just hurt so much. I'm so glad I was able to get my hands on some SN.

 

[Slimetae]

Half of these boxes I checked toxic family environment leading to childhood mistakes leading to being in and out of the court system now I just struggle depending on someone else for my survival.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Every aspect of my life has been a failure and now I'm overcome with so much anxiety… It's too late to reinvent myself…

 

[Oblivion Access]

Checked every box but loss by death and depression with no apparent cause, I got causes out the wazoo. Man, I need to get on with CTB...

 

[Sister of the Moon]

Pretty much 'all of the above'.