Method Which of the following two methods is better?

[KillingPain267]

1. A Llama Maximax 45 caliber handgun to head, or 2. SN with antiemetics and benzos and all

In terms of reliability and is what I'm most concerned with.

 

[Worndown]

Which one can you get easily? That is the best.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I would do both drink SN then immediately shoot myself. would that work or would it make it more complicated ?. but i wouldn't take benzos cause that could interfere with the shooting.

i've seen suicides in gun ranges on watchpeopledie and they do it very fast before the worker has a chance to stop them

 

[Coin]

I would choose SN over any other option if I could actually get my hands on it. It has all the qualities of a suicide method that I want: little chance of side effects in the event of failure, ease of administration, and reportedly painless.

I would do both drink SN then immediately shoot myself. would that work or would it make it more complicated ?. but i wouldn't take benzos cause that could interfere with the shooting.

i've seen suicides in gun ranges on watchpeopledie and they do it very fast before the worker has a chance to stop them

Gun ranges typically don't allow people to rent a gun if they come to the range alone. This is a preventative measure for a suicide method that is relatively common.

 

[KillingPain267]

I would choose SN over any other option if I could actually get my hands on it. It has all the qualities of a suicide method that I want: little chance of side effects in the event of failure, ease of administration, and reportedly painless.

Gun ranges typically don't allow people to rent a gun if they come to the range alone. This is a preventative measure for a suicide method that is relatively common.

There is or can be considerable discomfort if not pain with SN and it can take a while to kill you. I have severe anxiety on waiting for effects of substances. There is risk of vomiting. Meanwhile, a gun is near instant and I don't have to fast or worry about keeping stomach contents down. Also, less (no) time to regret and call emergency once the bullet leaves the chamber.

Gun has also always been my dream method, inspired by movies like the Deer Hunter, One Eight Seven, Scent of A Woman, Lethal Weapon 1, Brooklyn's Finest and that Family Guy episode. I also like the thought of having a nice last few drinks and/or low opioid high before going to Hades, which is a no-no with SN.

I would be having the gun as my possession, not in a gun range.

Only concern is that the guy I'm talking to from Telegram drug markets who is selling it, I don't know him and it could be a police setup. That alone is a big part of the equation. He seems to have a reasonable deposit scheme though, so if he is a no-show I wouldn't lose much money. But as of now, SN seems to be the safer option in terms of legality, but damn, the thought of buying a gun and having it ready for any day I can't take it anymore is just so cool. I was already shocked how easy it was still to buy drugs in a country with strict regulations of damn near everything.

Which one can you get easily? That is the best.

If the gun seller is not a cop or a scammer, then basically next week already. With SN I've had problems getting antiemetics rather than the SN. It's a hard decision, because one is hard to get and the other is risky to get.

 

[Coin]

There is or can be considerable discomfort if not pain with SN

Yes, most if not all methods will cause some level of discomfort.

I have severe anxiety on waiting for effects of substances

Very valid point. As an advocate for the right to die, I believe you should be able to choose whichever method best suits you.

Meanwhile, a gun is near instant and I don't have to fast or worry about keeping stomach contents down. Also, less (no) time to regret and call emergency once the bullet leaves the chamber.

If the CTB attempt is successful, everything you said here is true. I advise you to at least consider the case that the attempt fails. In this case, you will survive likely with severe brain damage. This brain damage would be debilitating to yourself, likely cause a life of dependency on others, and consequently further hardship on the others who provide care to you. For this reason, I am less likely to consider this method but again to reiterate my previous point, you should select whatever method you find to be the best for yourself. I just wanted to be sure you were aware of this possibility.

Gun has also always been my dream method, inspired by movies like the Deer Hunter, One Eight Seven, Scent of A Woman, Lethal Weapon 1, Brooklyn's Finest and that Family Guy episode. I also like the thought of having a nice last few drinks and/or low opioid high before going to Hades, which is a no-no with SN.

The idea of a "dream method" of suicide is very discomforting to me. To me, a "dream method" of suicide doesn't exist and when picking a method, the goal should be to pick the option that is least bad. In an ideal world, the environment that any human is surrounded by would never cause any individual to even consider suicide but that is a discussion outside the scope of this comment.

 

[KillingPain267]

Yes, most if not all methods will cause some level of discomfort.

Very valid point. As an advocate for the right to die, I believe you should be able to choose whichever method best suits you.

If the CTB attempt is successful, everything you said here is true. I advise you to at least consider the case that the attempt fails. In this case, you will survive likely with severe brain damage. This brain damage would be debilitating to yourself, likely cause a life of dependency on others, and consequently further hardship on the others who provide care to you. For this reason, I am less likely to consider this method but again to reiterate my previous point, you should select whatever method you find to be the best for yourself. I just wanted to be sure you were aware of this possibility.

The idea of a "dream method" of suicide is very discomforting to me. To me, a "dream method" of suicide doesn't exist and when picking a method, the goal should be to pick the option that is least bad. In an ideal world, the environment that any human is surrounded by would never cause any individual to even consider suicide but that is a discussion outside the scope of this comment.

You are right, and I'm reconsidering and may go with SN afterall for various rational reasons. I need to stop living in fictitious movie scenes as if they are realistic.

I think I as thinking too much about the thrill of obtaining and having an illegal gun and going out epicly, but I'd rather use that money to try some new drugs I never tried before I ctb. Some have said the handguns I was offered are not that powerful, so the risk of failing is there. To me, I'm mostly afraid of facial disfigurement in case of failing, which is a high possibility with this and low with SN.

The low risk of permanent damage in case of surviving SN is appealing. It's worth the discomfort which I could mask by upping the benzo dose. Also, there is risk I am drunk impulsive one night and shoot myself in the jaw or something. I could also mess up SN with alcohol impulsivity, but in both cases I would buy a safe box to store it until I decide the day has come.

Then there is the biggest thing: the risk that the gun seller is a cop. I could face the lowest minimum of 4 months prison. Highest, 8 years! The downside of SN is that I still need to get antiemetics somehow. But the court is now still in favor of SN for sure. Enough of the movie reenactment fantasies. Or maybe I should watch movies where the characters kill themselves slowly by a poison, lol, to get my head away from these suicidal alcoholic cop tropes. Any suggestions for movies?

 

[needthebus]

If the CTB attempt is successful, everything you said here is true. I advise you to at least consider the case that the attempt fails. In this case, you will survive likely with severe brain damage. This brain damage would be debilitating to yourself, likely cause a life of dependency on others, and consequently further hardship on the others who provide care to you. For this reason, I am less likely to consider this method but again to reiterate my previous point, you should select whatever method you find to be the best for yourself. I just wanted to be sure you were aware of this possibility.

Completely agree with this. Most people who do the first method die, but the ones who don't are in absolute excruciating hell. Why take that risk?

 

[grapevoid]

I agree with the above comments.
Failing with SN has less chance of long term damage, therefore I'd consider it the better option.

My father's best friend, who was in the military and an avid hunter, so very familiar with firearms, attempted to shoot himself, lived and is now blind with many neurological issues. It would be unfortunate to fail and have an even harder life than before.