Which is more efficient ?

[DimaD]

I only have pain killers and SN to ctb. I do not have antiemetics. I am concerned that I will throw up violently and get most of the SN out of my system, won't be able to drink the 2nd cup and fail my ctb attempt. I know SN is much less painful than hanging but my question is: Would it be more efficient to do it anyways with SN or to hang yourself?

I do not want to fail. I want to have a high chance of dying. I just want to go

 

[nyctophilia]

I'm thinking about this a lot as well, but I know there are some cases where they were succesful without antiemetics, so I think I will try it without. But honestly, I don't know what would be more efficient