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freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
768
Bipolar disorder with psychotic features. Diagnosed BPD (not sure if I have it). Complex fracture in left arm and shoulder that hasn't healed nearly 3 years on. Dodgy knees, some arthritis not helped by being well overweight/obese. I walk slowly and carefully partly from low energy and partly from fear of falling and/or worse pain in my knees. I'm only 60 but feel older.
 
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AnonymousS

Specialist
Sep 11, 2021
303
Diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in 2017. Treatment stopped working 2 years ago so I have been in steady decline. Wish I would have fucking died when i was first diagnosed.
Sorry to hear that.
 
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SmallPika

Member
Jul 15, 2022
11
ME/CFS, chronic pain, autism, adhd, chronic depression, and anxiety. 🙃🙃
 
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cordolium

Member
Apr 16, 2022
16
EDS, POTS, BPD. Eds is one of the most painful illnesses so im trapped in my body and being tortured 247
 
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8evergo

8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
I don't know sometimes I think I've been cursed.

1. Diabetes requires insulin
2. Multiple scleros
3. refux disease
4. Astmah
5.high blood pressure.
6.Tinnitus since 2013
7.biliary problems
8. Hyperthyroidism
9.Loss of libido
10 Defective ankle because foot hasn't healed since my accident


I always have to eat a lot of tablets
I can't anymore, I don't feel like it anymore
and sleep problems also come up, for years I only sleep 2-4 hours, so I can't sleep anymore and sleep apnea always has to sleep with a cpap device mask

since I had long covid, I also have ernome problems with stamina and walking stairs and loosing memory
 
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Hangnail

Member
Jul 14, 2022
85
Facial Disfigurement
 
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gwanath

Member
May 23, 2022
41
CPTSD, PCOS, hiatal hernia, celiac's, bunch of symptoms and an undetermined autoinflammatory disorder, all of which I could live with and was actively trying to either treat or resolve. What has driven me here was developing degenerative dryness of my body mucous, including Dry Eye Disease from meibomian gland dysfunction. My secreting glands are fucked and it's just going to get worse as I age, so no thanks.
 
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8evergo

8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
557
Degenerative eye condition.
Medical induced physical and psychological trauma.
Situational depression...not sure if that's a condition.
A few facial injuries that get me down.
that's sad you were attacked because of your facial injury or was it an accident i have a small scar on my eyebrow would be attacked that was a long time ago had to be sewn you can hardly see it anymore
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,391
Type 2 diabetes
 
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Vanrock3000

The Noose is Waiting for Me
Aug 12, 2022
37
Inclusion Body Myositis and and bad back pain due to spinal disc problems
 
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hershberger

Student
Dec 28, 2019
129
Mental: treatment resistant MDD, GAD, PTSD (workplace abuse which resulted in my only real ctb attempt/hospitalization in 2019).

Physical: blood pressure (controlled with medicine), GERD (less controlled).

I suppose the MDD is the biggest issue. My depression is like a rollercoaster: it's tolerable sometimes, but it has an impact on every part of my life when things cycle downhill. I'm able to work, although at certain times (like now) it is a massive effort to get through the day.
 
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cluckcluckgoose

Member
Nov 18, 2019
16
HSV2 ~ all my health shit stems from allowing people to get close to me and letting my guard down... Yet another ailment we "supposedly" don't understand enough to cure, but understand enough to develop drugs the pharmaceutical companies can profit off of
 
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MrOptions

MrOptions

Let it go. This to shall pass.
Jan 6, 2020
178
High cholesterol, Diabetes, High blood pressure (controlled via meds).
Rare eye cancer. ( Diagnosis and treated this year) Need CT scans ever 4 months to see if it spreads. So far so good, not spreading.
 
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LeavingEarly

LeavingEarly

Specialist
Mar 19, 2022
345
I have a mental illness that years of various treatments have not fixed. Tired of the inability to work, or be happy and comfortable.

In my country, in a year, they are opening medically assisted dying to mental health cases, but they aren't sure of the exact criteria yet.
What country?
Nothing diagnosed physical or mental---Get total checkups each year--Of course, not been to a doctor since my girlfriend died Jan 24th---If I went now, my doctor would probably throw me in a mental ward anyway for CTB Depression---Bad day today, miss her like crazy
How did she die??
What country?

How did she die??
Bipolar, diabetes and bulging discs small fracture in my spine from an ATV accident.
 
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Regrets

Regrets

★★★★★
Aug 7, 2022
31
Severe depression, most likely caused by bullying

Physically, only Essential Tremor, it doesn't really bother me
 
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Whoa Whoa Yeah Yeah

Member
Jul 7, 2020
7
In addition to a crapload of other stuff, both mental and physical, I also have a damaged ureter (tubes that join the bladder to the kidneys) that was caused during bowel surgery 3 years ago - it now has to be held open with a stent for the rest of my, hopefully short, life. Usually the stent is changed every 6 months but last time, due to switching hospitals, an administrative fuck up meant it wasn't changed for 16 months regardless of my doctor contacting the hospital on numerous occasion informing them of increasing ill-effects. As a result, even after finally changing it for a fresh one, I'm in even more pain and constant discomfort than I was before. I think this will be the straw that breaks the camel's back - there's no way in hell I'm putting up with this shit long-term. I can't even walk around the house anymore, let alone leave it, so my mum is going to have to be the one who finds my body. I know she'll understand but that won't make it any easier on her - if only there was some other way.
 
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Murasa

Murasa

"The Great Little Captain"
Dec 3, 2020
1,756
Bipolar disorder and hypersexuality, physically I don't suffer from anything serious, although I could develop heart diseases. Those are the ones I was diagnosed with, I could perfectly suffer from more disorders considering how messed up my brain is.
 
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Jrmull1993

Jrmull1993

Warlock
Jul 13, 2022
753
Treatment Resistant Depression, Waldenstrom macroglobulinemia, and Asexuality disorder. (The last one is something I've diagnosed myself with)
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,515
Which issues as diagnosed by a medical professional are you facing. They could be physical or mental.
Depression, anxiety, tpl (borderline in english?)

Turns out depression was low thyroid, anxiety was reactive hypoglycemia (malnutrition) allergies, personality disorder was severe traumas

poisonned by acid vinegar, it corroded everything I cleaned, i taste metal, floors, paint. My eyes burn too much to watch tv, too dizzy to have fun... Friends abused me sexually & abandonned me... Doctors keep calling me crazy

got beaten, hit by car, but poison us worse

Treatment Resistant Depression, Waldenstrom macroglobulinemia, and Asexuality disorder. (The last one is something I've diagnosed myself with)
Asexuality is a sexual orientation? I was. Probably from trauma...
Arthritis and cancer with a brain tumor tossed in just because I didn't have enough going on. So far I am holding out ok.
I thought it'd kill me but you sound healthier than I am... Damn, even cancer can't kill us. Pretty sure I had covid too
I don't know sometimes I think I've been cursed.

1. Diabetes requires insulin
2. Multiple scleros
3. refux disease
4. Astmah
5.high blood pressure.
6.Tinnitus since 2013
7.biliary problems
8. Hyperthyroidism
9.Loss of libido
10 Defective ankle because foot hasn't healed since my accident


I always have to eat a lot of tablets
I can't anymore, I don't feel like it anymore
and sleep problems also come up, for years I only sleep 2-4 hours, so I can't sleep anymore and sleep apnea always has to sleep with a cpap device mask

since I had long covid, I also have ernome problems with stamina and walking stairs and loosing memory
I wonder if you'd die by sleeping without a mask. I envy peanut allergies, such an easy way to find.
I don't know sometimes I think I've been cursed.

1. Diabetes requires insulin
2. Multiple scleros
3. refux disease
4. Astmah
5.high blood pressure.
6.Tinnitus since 2013
7.biliary problems
8. Hyperthyroidism
9.Loss of libido
10 Defective ankle because foot hasn't healed since my accident


I always have to eat a lot of tablets
I can't anymore, I don't feel like it anymore
and sleep problems also come up, for years I only sleep 2-4 hours, so I can't sleep anymore and sleep apnea always has to sleep with a cpap device mask

since I had long covid, I also have ernome problems with stamina and walking stairs and loosing memory
I wonder if you'd die by sleeping without a mask. I envy peanut allergies, such an easy way to find.
Thanks. We do no get to choose our problems, just cope with them the best we can.
I need that wisdom... on a t shirt at least
Thanks. We do no get to choose our problems, just cope with them the best we can.
I need that wisdom... on a t shirt at leasth
Thanks. We do no get to choose our problems, just cope with them the best we can.
How do you cope?
 
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Un-understandable

Member
Aug 10, 2022
5
May or may not have BPD(dont have money to see a doctor), but setting new records of highest highs ive ever felt and lowest lows every day in this godforsaken month, and despair at student debts makes me want to bash my head in

also tried self harming for the first time, so i dont know if that counts
 
tilsleepcomes

tilsleepcomes

Willing to try anything.
Jul 23, 2021
106
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notenough86

Member
Apr 18, 2022
16
Which issues as diagnosed by a medical professional are you facing. They could be physical or mental.
Chronic migraine. Depression , OCD and anxiety. Colon polyps, periodontal disease. Alopecia, eczema on hands so bad they break and bleed.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Depression and apparently Epstein Barr
 
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DunnoWhyButYeah

DunnoWhyButYeah

~*-*~
Apr 3, 2020
399
Mostly chronic pain.
 
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Jadzia

Name is from Star Trek. I'm not from E. Europe
May 8, 2019
405
Severe ME, MCS, depression and anxiety
 
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StolenLife

StolenLife

Warlock
Sep 19, 2022
740
Currently I'm just depressed. I used to have horrible social anxiety disorder in my teens. One of my teachers actually used to think I was deaf because I never talked to my classmates. It improved after I turned 17 and when I first came to Uni I was just shy. But then fucking virus came and I had two full years of talking to none of my peers face to face, so now I'm starting from zero again, altough it's still much better than when I was a teenager.
There are also some symptoms of BPD and CPTSD but no official diagnosis yet so I don't know.
 
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Anonymus

Enlightened
May 6, 2022
1,355
Officially on my disability certificate:
  • Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
  • Generalized Anxiety Disorder
  • Developmental Disorder (Asperger's in principle)
  • Balance disorder (peripheral vertigo)

And unofficially:
  • Narcolepsy
  • Attention deficit disorder
  • Irritable colon
  • Insufficiency in physical exertion

And nonsense that affects me but that a lot of people have and it doesn't affect them:
  • Chilblains in the hands at temperatures below 25 degrees Celsius positive.
  • Marked loss of sight due to age due to latent hyperopia.
  • Fungi on hands, feet and some parts of the body.
  • Prostatic hyperplasia level 2
  • Lack of B12, folic acid, Vitamin D... but why do I eat badly, since everything hurts and I have been reducing food so much that I have stuck anemia in my body permanently.
  • And teeth that often hurt if the food is not tender enough.

And the truth, I need someone by my side who loves me because I hate myself and I can't keep despising myself like this. I will never do CTB, I know that now, so least I feel valued by someone who will make me see that maybe I am worth a little bit of my company. This way I would at least change my attitude and maybe overlook most of my problems and focus more on enjoying what I can of this life...you have to hope for better times if only to better endure the inevitable day to day.

I guess I'm addicted to life, otherwise I can't explain it.

//

De manera oficial en el meu certificat de discapacitat:
  • Trastorn Obsessiu-Compulsiu
  • Trastorn d'Ansietat Generalitzada
  • Trastorn del desenvolupament (Asperger en principi)
  • Trastorn de l'equilibri (vertigen periféric)

I de forma no oficial:
  • Narcolepsia
  • Trastorn per déficit d'atenció
  • Colón irritable
  • Insuficiéncia a l'esforç físic

I tonteriés que m'afecten a mi però que te molta gent i no els hi afecta pas:
  • Penellons a les mans a menys de 25 graus
  • Pérdua acusada de vista per l'edat degut a l'hipermetreopía latent
  • Fongs a mans, peus i per alguns llocs del cos
  • Hiperplàsia prostàtica nivell 2
  • Falta de B12, àcid fòlic, Vitamina D... però perquè menjo malament ja que tot em fa mal i he anat reduïnt tant el menjar que m'he fotut l'anèmia dins el cos de forma permament.
  • I unes dents que em fan mal sovint si el menjar no es prou tendre.

I la veritat, necessito algú al meu costat que m'estimi perquè jo m'odio a mi mateix i no puc seguir despreciant-me d'aquesta manera. No faré mai el CTB, ara ho sé, així que que menys que sentir-me valorat per algú que em faci veure que potser val una mica la pena la meva companyía. D'aquesta manera al menys cambiaría la meva actitud i potser passaría per alt la majoría dels meus problemes i em centraría més a gaudir del que pugui d'aquesta vida... s'ha de tenir l'esperança de temps millors encara que només sigui per aguantar millor el dia a dia.

Suposo que sóc adicte a la vida, sinó no m'ho explico pas.
 
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makethepainstop

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Sep 16, 2022
2,029
Depression, heart problems..
..ain't life just PEACHY!
 
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