Where will you ctb? Sn users.

[trucker247]

I'm doing at a hotel but I'm trying to figure out if i should do it in my home city or drive a few cities over. Also struggling to decide on which hotel. I have maybe 4/5 days to decide.

 

[Willthishelp?]

If I had it I would rent a cabin in the woods with a sauna and do it in the sauna combined with charcoal

 

[Falseunderworld]

Usually do it one city over so you dont get found missing immediately, hotels are a good place or in the woods really far in

 

[aSilentVoice]

Probably either at home or a hotel. I like your profile pic. It's my favorite movie.

 

[trucker247]

Usually do it one city over so you dont get found missing immediately, hotels are a good place or in the woods really far in

I plan on booking the room for two days and telling my family I'm going to the mountains to go skiing.

Probably either at home or a hotel. I like your profile pic. It's my favorite movie.

It's honestly mine too, it's kinda sorta my life being portrayed in animation. The part that hit me the hardest was the very beginning where his mom asked him why… it's wild because I'm literally doing everything he did

 

[brokenpersi]

I thought about Home, but now more and more about woods. I will find some nice spot, and then rest. I know my body can be eaten by the animals, but honestly I dont give a fck about that.

 

[lukas19]

I'm doing at a hotel but I'm trying to figure out if i should do it in my home city or drive a few cities over. Also struggling to decide on which hotel. I have maybe 4/5 days to decide.

in my flat. my landlord is a scumbag, i detest him so win win for me

 

[vultureilse]

i wish i could do it in a hotel or a forest but i dont really have a choice but to do it at home

 

[asterisk3]

Home, probably. Maybe hotel.

 

[Zegers]

Airbnb or hotel, idk yet.

 

[almostoutofhere]

In a hotel, probably a few cities away so I'm not found as fast. I'd imagine they'd look at the hotels in my city almost right away to see if I'm checked in

 

[hapiniuier]

A place in the forest that takes at least an hour to get in or out, no phone, just a watch on my wrist to know that 40 minutes after taking antiemetics have passed. Hope I won't try to force vomiting when the SI kicks in cause that's the only thing that could save me in those circumstances (aparat from divine intervention).

 

[TapeMachine]

I'm afraid to ctb anywhere besides my bedroom. It's the only place in which I feel completely at ease. If I should place myself in an unfamiliar location for ctb, I worry that the anxiety would make those hopefully-final moments unbearable.

But I really hate to taint this house with my death...

I live here with my boyfriend of several years, but we have separate bedrooms. (His snoring makes sleeping in the same bed and room impossible for me.) So his bedroom is downstairs; mine is directly above his upstairs. I won't be able to ctb if he is home (because of potential, weird noises), so this is going to be tricky, and that scares me.

 

[Forever Sleep]

At home (live alone- just hope the neighbours don't hear...)

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I'm afraid to ctb anywhere besides my bedroom. It's the only place in which I feel completely at ease. If I should place myself in an unfamiliar location for ctb, I worry that the anxiety would make those hopefully-final moments unbearable.

But I really hate to taint this house with my death...

I live here with my boyfriend of several years, but we have separate bedrooms. (His snoring makes sleeping in the same bed and room impossible for me.) So his bedroom is downstairs; mine is directly above his upstairs. I won't be able to ctb if he is home (because of potential, weird noises), so this is going to be tricky, and that scares me.

I'm also scared to do it anywhere and wish I could do it at home. I've never tried to ctb away from my own home. My partner lives with me too though so it makes it almost impossible to do it here and assure she isn't the one to find me.

 

[Sparx]

A place in the forest that takes at least an hour to get in or out, no phone, just a watch on my wrist to know that 40 minutes after taking antiemetics have passed. Hope I won't try to force vomiting when the SI kicks in cause that's the only thing that could save me in those circumstances (aparat from divine intervention).

This is pretty much what I've planned. Somewhere where I can't be found/get help easily when SI kicks in, assuming I even manage to drink the SN.

 

[expired_dreams]

I'll probably ctb in my empty room on an air mattress. I've thought about putting on a suit or something just so I look nice but idk.

 

[Freebird4567]

Planning to book 1 week in a hotel to ctb

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

My plan has always been at home, in my bed.

I figured I'd get comfy in a flannel nightgown, take a wastebasket to bed in case I vomit, and try to look as if I had gone to bed feeling sick, Because I'd have some time while my husband was away on business, there would be more of an excuse for the blue blood.

 

[TapeMachine]

@stilhavinightmares, I'm sorry you also feel somewhat conflicted. I do not want my partner to be the one to find me either, but..::sigh:: I don't know..

My biggest fear with ctb isn't death itself, but that I'll unexpectedly wake back up to find that I am still alive because someone "rescued" me.

Do you have any ideas where you might ctb instead of your home?

 

[All-Dead-Y]

I plan on booking the room for two days and telling my family I'm going to the mountains to go skiing.

It's honestly mine too, it's kinda sorta my life being portrayed in animation. The part that hit me the hardest was the very beginning where his mom asked him why… it's wild because I'm literally doing everything he did

What movie?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Ideally this month, BUT it's too cold outside so I am probably going to wait until Spring. I want to do it outside so I can minimize the trauma of my suicide to my family as much as possible, but each passing day it's tempting for me to just impulsively take it. So basically, my answer is somewhere outside.

 

[LunaRory]

Somewhere in nature, off the beaten track. I'll take a tent and set it up somewhere nice in the middle of nowhere. I'll enjoy a few days taking in the scenery and one evening I'll enjoy my last sunset, go in my tent and CTB. There will be a note on the tent to not enter, but instead call authorities, in case nobody answers when called out to. There'll also be a note explaining that this was a conscious choice, a plan in the making for several years and not an impulsive act as well as details on whom to contact. At least that's the idea

 

[stilhavinightmares]

@stilhavinightmares, I'm sorry you also feel somewhat conflicted. I do not want my partner to be the one to find me either, but..::sigh:: I don't know..

My biggest fear with ctb isn't death itself, but that I'll unexpectedly wake back up to find that I am still alive because someone "rescued" me.

Do you have any ideas where you might ctb instead of your home?

My fear is the same. I have been going between hotel/motel/Airbnb and my car (but where?!). So many pros and cons to all. I'm so scared of being found and my life becoming way worse, and devastating my family.

I've heard others say they're going deep into the woods to do it. I like the idea but I would likely be scared and it's also winter here.

 

[trucker247]

What movie?

A silent voice, it's on Netflix

 

[TapeMachine]

My fear is the same. I have been going between hotel/motel/Airbnb and my car (but where?!). So many pros and cons to all. I'm so scared of being found and my life becoming way worse, and devastating my family.

I've heard others say they're going deep into the woods to do it. I like the idea but I would likely be scared and it's also winter here.

Deep in the woods...my anxiety would be at an all time high. Oof... (also currently winter where I live)

But I think my bf is onto me a bit more than I'd previously thought. So my bedroom might not be a viable option afterall. God, there are so many details that need to be worked out...I do like that the process slows me down atleast, because I'm one hell of an impulsive person, but impulsive ctbs are often rife with errors, and I don't want to fuck up this time.

Feel free to private message me if you want to vent, discuss, or whatever :)

 

[Ifonlyitwassosimple]

Doing it at home I don't have a choice.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

Deep in the woods...my anxiety would be at an all time high. Oof... (also currently winter where I live)

But I think my bf is onto me a bit more than I'd previously thought. So my bedroom might not be a viable option afterall. God, there are so many details that need to be worked out...I do like that the process slows me down atleast, because I'm one hell of an impulsive person, but impulsive ctbs are often rife with errors, and I don't want to fuck up this time.

Feel free to private message me if you want to vent, discuss, or whatever :)

Likewise! Thanks :)

 

[Unending]

I would like to ctb at home if the option was available since I'm agoraphobic but if I still am dependent on my parents or living with them when the time comes, it would have to be at a hotel.

I'd ideally book a few days so that I could spend some time alone in the room and have a moment to reflect on everything. If it's a hotel that I have to pick, I'd be brainstorming ways to avoid the staff having to see anything. Would probably have to go with the typical note slid under the door but on the other hand, that could possibly alarm staff before I'm actually gone.

On the other hand, I could make sure that my body will be out of view upon immediate entry to the room and leave a note in a spot that is impossible to not miss before they walk too far in and see my ctb.

Who knows, I'm suffering a lot right now but as I continuously say, this is all speculation of the future. My ctb is unfortunately going to have to be quite some time away.

Ugh.

 

[Ernest1964]

When I was a teenager I spent several summers working at a summer camp in California. It is out in the forest and there is a redwood tree there that was hit by lightning many many years ago and is hallowed out, it's a pretty big space. When I look back on my life, one of the places and times of my life where I was happiest was when I worked at that summer camp... I think that might be a nice place to CTB.

PS: Of course NOT during the summer when I might be found by some children!