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antmann

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May 14, 2021
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Where would you guys park a car if you were about to drink SN? Where I live there are no forests. I was thinking maybe somewhere as simple as a mall parking lot would suffice, since I could just lay down in the back seat and the windows are tinted, and park away from other cars. Somewhere with absolutely nobody around would seem suspicious, no?
 
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deathisnear

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May 23, 2021
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As long as the windows are tinted, I don't see why a mall parking lot wouldn't work. If you go out and park somewhere, there is a chance of being reported and have authorities check the vehicle. In a parking lot with a lot of other cars, you would blend in until the mall closed and then they may check, but by then hopefully you'd be at peace
 
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logan

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With the car, I would simply drive out of the city into nature where you have peace and quiet and are not disturbed so quickly.
 
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Symbiote

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Get a for sale sign and stick it in your car and the park with all the other cars that have for sale signs on them. No one going to bother you for months.
 
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logan

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Get a for sale sign and stick it in your car and the park with all the other cars that have for sale signs on them. No one going to bother you for months.
or the first interested party speaks to you directly ... ;-)
 
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JustLosingMyself

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Sep 4, 2018
544
You'd be surprised how little people pay attention to what you're doing in a parked car.
I nearly succeeded twice in a parking lot. People who were parked next to me went about their business not paying the least bit attention that I was trying to strangle myself using a ratchet strap.
 
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You'd be surprised how little people pay attention to what you're doing in a parked car.
I nearly succeeded twice in a parking lot. People who were parked next to me went about their business not paying the least bit attention that I was trying to strangle myself using a ratchet strap.
That is correct. But it is precisely in such situations that an attentive, helpful fellow human being comes along ...
I think in such an exceptional situation one would certainly like to be alone.
 
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antmann

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As long as the windows are tinted, I don't see why a mall parking lot wouldn't work. If you go out and park somewhere, there is a chance of being reported and have authorities check the vehicle. In a parking lot with a lot of other cars, you would blend in until the mall closed and then they may check, but by then hopefully you'd be at peace
This is what I was thinking, if I get to the mall by around 4 then that should give me around 6 hours before anything looks suspicious. I suppose the only drawback is getting news attention
 
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WFJ74

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Aug 18, 2020
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My plan is to CTB via SN in my car. Leave the house about 1am and park behind a hotel about 10 miles away since there's very little activity outside that late. I'm going to fold down my back seat and make a bed inside the trunk. Drink the SN, cover myself completely with a black blanket (interior of my car is black so it'll make it harder to see me in there through the window).
 
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TheYounger

Aria Math
Jun 7, 2020
140
I have a similar plan to ctb in my car near this national park close to my town. It's actually hard to decide where to do it. Should it be in town or in a somewhat scenic place? But it's like why does it matter if it's scenic, right? Uhh... Yeah. I think that would be the spot where I ctb. I'm just kinda worried about throwing up and drawing attention.

Because my first attempt was like that. I drank some sodium azide and I started throwing up violently and getting the runs too. It would just be embarrassing if someone found me in that kind of condition. But I guess I really shouldn't worry about it since I'll be dead.

There was also one recorded suicide at that national park. The guy threw himself off a cliff and they didn't find the body until like months later. Also, that national park was the last place I went to with this friend of mine before he off'd himself a couple weeks later. So... Yeah.
 
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In an industrial park on a non working day or at night.
 
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antmann

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May 14, 2021
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My plan is to CTB via SN in my car. Leave the house about 1am and park behind a hotel about 10 miles away since there's very little activity outside that late. I'm going to fold down my back seat and make a bed inside the trunk. Drink the SN, cover myself completely with a black blanket (interior of my car is black so it'll make it harder to see me in there through the window).
I didn't think about a hotel. That's a good idea since you can be parked there 24 hours
 
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Pookie

Somebody you used to know.
Oct 18, 2020
1,051
Get in the boot, or trunk, as they say in Murica. Nice and claustrophobic.

On a serious note, I would rather not give you advice, makes me feel guilty.
I have a similar plan to ctb in my car near this national park close to my town. It's actually hard to decide where to do it. Should it be in town or in a somewhat scenic place? But it's like why does it matter if it's scenic, right? Uhh... Yeah. I think that would be the spot where I ctb. I'm just kinda worried about throwing up and drawing attention.

Because my first attempt was like that. I drank some sodium azide and I started throwing up violently and getting the runs too. It would just be embarrassing if someone found me in that kind of condition. But I guess I really shouldn't worry about it since I'll be dead.

There was also one recorded suicide at that national park. The guy threw himself off a cliff and they didn't find the body until like months later. Also, that national park was the last place I went to with this friend of mine before he off'd himself a couple weeks later. So... Yeah.
Sodium azide??? Pretty rare to see people use that rather than SN. Apart from the runs and the vomiting, what other symptoms did you experience?
 
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WFJ74

Student
Aug 18, 2020
150
I didn't think about a hotel. That's a good idea since you can be parked there 24 hours
Yep! And by 1-2am the vast majority of people staying at the hotel will be in their rooms sleeping so the likelihood of you getting noticed is decreased, IMO.
Get in the boot, or trunk, as they say in Murica. Nice and claustrophobic.

On a serious note, I would rather not give you advice, makes me feel guilty.

Sodium azide??? Pretty rare to see people use that rather than SN. Apart from the runs and the vomiting, what other symptoms did you get?
Actually a lot of cars have fold-down back seats so you can lay with your hips/legs in the trunk while your chest and head are on the seats and you can look up out of the back window at the sky while you wait to CTB.
 
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TheYounger

Aria Math
Jun 7, 2020
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Get in the boot, or trunk, as they say in Murica. Nice and claustrophobic.

On a serious note, I would rather not give you advice, makes me feel guilty.

Sodium azide??? Pretty rare to see people use that rather than SN. Apart from the runs and the vomiting, what other symptoms did you experience?
Well, it was hard to tell what other symptoms i experienced since I was very drunk that night. I do remember my hands getting cold. And for some reason I started shaking alot! I'm kinda surprised that I didn't raise suspicion with my mom because she thought that i just started throwing up because of all the alcohol I drank.

With sodium nitrite though. I drank a little bit of it and I could feel the blood flowing in my eardrums. Even just drinking a little bit of SN and you surely throw up.
 
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Somebody you used to know.
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Sorry you experienced that. Which would you say is worse in regards to symptoms? SN or SA?
 
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TheYounger

Aria Math
Jun 7, 2020
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Sorry you experienced that. Which would you say is worse in regards to symptoms? SN or SA?

Well, I'm not completely sure because of the circumstances. When I drank the sodium nitrite I was completely sober and I drank maybe 2-3 grams of it diluted in water. It definitely feels like your blood is rushing faster through your body. And I remember the feeling of blood rushing through my eardrums. I think for a slight instance I felt somewhat lightheaded. But because it was only a couple grams i felt those symptoms and just nausea the rest of the day. I ended up throwing up twice.

Now with sodium azide, i was drunk and I had a lot to drink that night. And I had a bottle of sodium azide already prepared. It was basically a disposable bottle with like 20 maybe 30 grams diluted in water. And I took like a swig of the bottle didn't completely finish it or else I wouldn't be here writing about it. But that was enough to make puke violently and well you know the rest.

In both instances though i would say that sodium azide definitely delivers more violent symptoms. But who knows if i were to try to drink more grams of sodium nitrite I may get the same symptoms.
 
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Well, I'm not completely sure because of the circumstances. When I drank the sodium nitrite I was completely sober and I drank maybe 2-3 grams of it diluted in water. It definitely feels like your blood is rushing faster through your body. And I remember the feeling of blood rushing through my eardrums. I think for a slight instance I felt somewhat lightheaded. But because it was only a couple grams i felt those symptoms and just nausea the rest of the day. I ended up throwing up twice.

Now with sodium azide, i was drunk and I had a lot to drink that night. And I had a bottle of sodium azide already prepared. It was basically a disposable bottle with like 20 maybe 30 grams diluted in water. And I took like a swig of the bottle didn't completely finish it or else I wouldn't be here writing about it. But that was enough to make puke violently and well you know the rest.

In both instances though i would say that sodium azide definitely delivers more violent symptoms. But who knows if i were to try to drink more grams of sodium nitrite I may get the same symptoms.

Okay, thanks for clarifying that for me. Sounds like it was very unpleasant though.
 
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Protesting the conditions of an inhumane world
Oct 2, 2019
350
I don't drive, but I would love to CTB in the middle of the highway to cause a jam as one final middle finger to the world.
 
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antmann

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I don't drive, but I would love to CTB in the middle of the highway to cause a jam as one final middle finger to the world.
That would certainly be a middle finger to the world lol, but I really don't want to hurt anyone. Also, that basically guarantees you would get saved
 
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