Where do you plan to ctb?

[HappyMstake]

I would like to do it at home but I'd much rather a stranger find me than my family, and I don't really have anywhere to hang in my apartment anyway. So.. the woods it is.

 

[sadworld]

Make sure the boxes aren't too close by...when I read your comment I pictured you (not actually you obviously because I don't know you) shaking with death spasms & knocking over a pile of boxes, making a huge amount of noise & bringing everyone running into your garage!


Lots of towers (here in the uk anyway) have cctv on them, you might want to double check first.


If you already do H why are you going to hang your self? Wouldn't it be easier & potentially nicer for you to overdose on H?

nah it's an old abandoned one

 

[UpsidedownStar]

In my backyard, in the middle of the night. Can't wait. It's slowly getting colder and colder, so I just need to wait two more months before I can go.

 

[My_name_is_Luka]

It depends from the method. Some can be done at home, others in a car, others in the open.
My preferred choice would be at home, in my bed. But I'm in a rented apartment and the owner lives 1 floor below me.
Literally no one would be worried if I'm not reachable for a few days; no one would suspect anything. Probably only a few colleagues at work could think that something happened or I got sick, but they would only contact the police after several days.
The thing is that I don't want to be left in the apartment for days, with my body starting to decompose. It would create some bad problems to the owner.
I could send a delayed email at work, saying to send the police to my apartment because something has happened to me. But I should be confident that the message will be read and that my attempt has been successful, or I would be in deep troubles.
So unless I decide to be a little selfish, once in my lifetime, I guess I will have to do it in my car.

 

[rt1989526]

It depends from the method. Some can be done at home, others in a car, others in the open.
My preferred choice would be at home, in my bed. But I'm in a rented apartment and the owner lives 1 floor below me.
Literally no one would be worried if I'm not reachable for a few days; no one would suspect anything. Probably only a few colleagues at work could think that something happened or I got sick, but they would only contact the police after several days.
The thing is that I don't want to be left in the apartment for days, with my body starting to decompose. It would create some bad problems to the owner.
I could send a delayed email at work, saying to send the police to my apartment because something has happened to me. But I should be confident that the message will be read and that my attempt has been successful, or I would be in deep troubles.
So unless I decide to be a little selfish, once in my lifetime, I guess I will have to do it in my car.

Who cares? People die in apartments all the time. Im going in my apartment I don't care how long it takes for me to be found.

 

[Mr.Nobody]

Probably in a hotel room.

 

[My_name_is_Luka]

Who cares? People die in apartments all the time. Im going in my apartment I don't care how long it takes for me to be found.

That's true. But maybe from the point of view of law, it's different if one dies naturally or he commit suicide. I wouldn't like that the landlord could request a large reimbursement to my relatives and so my money will be wasted for that and they won't reach the few people that deserve them

 

[rt1989526]

That's true. But maybe from the point of view of law, it's different if one dies naturally or he commit suicide. I wouldn't like that the landlord could request a large reimbursement to my relatives and so my money will be wasted for that and they won't reach the few people that deserve them

Hmm. Not sure what the law states in that regard... I guess your alternative is a hotel. Those are the choices I'm going between. I keep going back and forth. I think I'll have more privacy in my apartment tho

I think you should put yourself first for a change though. You are the one suffering! I wish the best for you regardless what you decide.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

The intention is to die somewhere that is secluded - out of sight from others and out of mind too.

 

[TooConscious]

I find thinking for certain doesn't help me as I don't do well with ultimatums. I think when I finally get it done it will be "right let's go to that decent tree I found" " let's travel to beachy head" "let's inject this H on a stomach of drink and benzos". It makes it risky but I've thought these things through alot so it won't be impulsive but it just keeps it from being a 'plan' so I don't get overwhelmed.
Only way I can describe it is if you were told you were going to be stabbed going to buy milk, wouldn't it make going to buy milk so difficult. I don't know what it is, but it's bad enough that I've ranted this long about it.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

im not sure yet!
i can't afford SN or anything like that, much less know where to buy
i don't want to do it in my house because i don't live alone
there's a bridge near me, but i would fall onto ongoing traffic and possibly hurt someone

Hey I just wanted to reach out because I'm concerned. When you joined, it was with pro-life intentions, but then in your first thread you'd done some reading on the site, came to understand folks' perspectives, and didn't want to be a pro-lifer anymore. Now you're planning to suicide? Is it okay to ask what changed?

 

[Cant Maintain]

My workplace bathroom afterhours with a sleeping bag and a comfy pillow and a few delayed emails :)

 

[losthope123]

There is a bridge on a national parkway south of the capitol of my state. The bridge is about 200ft off the ground, has parking on both sides, and the fence along the bridge is only about 2ft tall. I am planning to eventually go out at 3 a.m. or so when no one is there and ctb. I was thinking this method because there is no way one survives a 200ft drop to solid ground.

 

[AJ95]

I'm booking a nice, comfy 5* hotel for my final night.

Going to curl up in a nice fluffy bed and let the SN take me away

 

[Lilacmoon]

I'm booking a nice, comfy 5* hotel for my final night.

Going to curl up in a nice fluffy bed and let the SN take me away

what a coincidence, i was thinking the exact same thing

 

[AJ95]

what a coincidence, i was thinking the exact same thing

Make a quick flight to Sydney and we'll go out together lol

 

[LostInSociety]

On the road I'm planning a head on collision with a truck while on my bike. Will try my best to make it look like a shit judgment call from my side. Accidents happen all the time.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

On the road I'm planning a head on collision with a truck while on my bike. Will try my best to make it look like a shit judgment call from my side. Accidents happen all the time.

I can empathize with why you might want to go that route, and I have no disrespect toward you. I wonder if you've yet considered that it's an act of violence toward another who's just trying to go about their life. Other people could also wreck trying to avoid, run over your body and be traumatized, or wreck while witnessing it or rubbernecking afterward.

I respect your right to choose to die, and I respect the truck driver and other drivers just going about their daily lives unaware of what's about to impact them, possibly for the rest of their lives. I hope for all of you that you'll consider something that doesn't involve others in your method and your choice.

 

[Donewiyhitall]

I am struggling to find the place that causes the least problems for others. And that includes hotel people. I don't want to do it anywhere near somebody I know that has to walk in and relent that moment. I would love to do it in the car with SN and even though I live in a big state with lots of woods nowadays they have all these drones and cameras and that makes me nervous.

 

[LostInSociety]

I can empathize with why you might want to go that route, and I have no disrespect toward you. I wonder if you've yet considered that it's an act of violence toward another who's just trying to go about their life. Other people could also wreck trying to avoid, run over your body and be traumatized, or wreck while witnessing it or rubbernecking afterward.

I respect your right to choose to die, and I respect the truck driver and other drivers just going about their daily lives unaware of what's about to impact them, possibly for the rest of their lives. I hope for all of you that you'll consider something that doesn't involve others in your method and your choice.

There will always be someone that has to find your dead body no matter what or how you go about doing the deed so you will fuck up someone's or multiple people's lives. That is the sad truth.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

There will always be someone that has to find your dead body no matter what or how you go about doing the deed so you will fuck up someone's or multiple people's lives. That is the sad truth.

Yeah, but it's a different truth than what I was talking about. A dead body in traffic can cause accidents. A dead body in a hotel room, maybe cause an accident like peeing one's pants.

Not to mention, you know, the accident involving a minimum of one other vehicle. I can't force you to, but I do hope you'll consider the magnitude of the impacts of this action. There are other ways to die that don't make someone's vehicle your suicide weapon and put others' health and lives at risk. That's assault, and potential manslaughter or murder. If you live, you could recover handcuffed to a hospital bed and then spend the rest of your life in prison.

 

[Donewiyhitall]

Yeah, but it's a different truth than what I was talking about. A dead body in traffic can cause accidents. A dead body in a hotel room, maybe cause an accident like peeing one's pants.

Not to mention, you know, the accident involving a minimum of one other vehicle. I can't force you to, but I do hope you'll consider the magnitude of the impacts of this action. There are other ways to die that don't make someone's vehicle your suicide weapon and put others' health and lives at risk. That's assault, and potential manslaughter or murder. If you live, you could recover handcuffed to a hospital bed and then spend the rest of your life in prison.

If you do it in a home where loved ones will always have to walk in and see that room that's going to be a hardship if you do it in a loved one's car yeah they're going to have to sell that car. if you do it in a hotel room it does cause consequences not for you but they have to call in hazmat cleaners and it's still it's just a burden on somebody when you're trying to relieve your burdens think it would be a little bit more nice if you left less of a burden on somebody else. I have been in a hotel on and off for the past two months but have become to the billierize myself with the staff and I like them. Now I cannot figure out where to go that will not make me feel bad. I don't think there are any easy answers but I would always suggest that if you can do it in a place where your family will not ever have to walk into again please do that, and if you can find a place that is not a burden on someone else do that as well. I hope and pray I can figure that place out really quick I understand if you can't but I hope we all can

 

[Donewiyhitall]

If you do it in a home where loved ones will always have to walk in and see that room that's going to be a hardship if you do it in a loved one's car yeah they're going to have to sell that car. if you do it in a hotel room it does cause consequences not for you but they have to call in hazmat cleaners and it's still it's just a burden on somebody when you're trying to relieve your burdens think it would be a little bit more nice if you left less of a burden on somebody else. I have been in a hotel on and off for the past two months but have become to the billierize myself with the staff and I like them. Now I cannot figure out where to go that will not make me feel bad. I don't think there are any easy answers but I would always suggest that if you can do it in a place where your family will not ever have to walk into again please do that, and if you can find a place that is not a burden on someone else do that as well. I hope and pray I can figure that place out really quick I understand if you can't but I hope we all can

Too many misspellings and mishaps to correct. I text speech and don't look back. I'm very sorry, I have no patience for spell correcting and can't spell to save my life!

 

[MariV]

Probably in a hotel room.

im thinking of this. but it will be terrible for the person findimg you in the morning

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I don't know where I'll ctb but I was thinking of covering myself up with a sheet while I'm still conscious and leaving a note or something.

 

[Nicebuddimtim]

Home, I live alone and nobody visits I don't talk to neighbours and its usual for nobody to see me for a week or 2 at a time

 

[BridgeJumper]

Off a bridge in Germany

Its gonna suck for the people who see, but Im so burnt out I kinda dont care.
Definitely not at home cause my obnoxious parents just never leave for long enough so I can die.
But I also think about going into the woods and overdosing or something, or jumping into the river with a brick tied to my neck, just floating away, dissapeaing, dying somehwere where nobody will ever find me
But I need something violent that makes me sure I will not survive.
Idk...

 

[ecmnesia]

cheap hotel.

but if I could, I'd like to do it in a pretty place. somewhere with a chilling breeze, where I could leave in the company of the stars.

 

[flatearth]

Hey I just wanted to reach out because I'm concerned. When you joined, it was with pro-life intentions, but then in your first thread you'd done some reading on the site, came to understand folks' perspectives, and didn't want to be a pro-lifer anymore. Now you're planning to suicide? Is it okay to ask what changed?

what changed for me was my perspective on life. when life was hard on other people, i would tell them "never give up, you can always get through anything with enough will-power!" and would go by that same advice myself. but then i realized i was wrong, and the option of catching the bus is okay too
i used to be very optimist and naive when i was with my ex, to the point where he called me immature and stupid. maybe now he would be proud of me for opening my eyes in this way and facing the truth: sometimes there are things you can't fix and all your attempts at mending it are futile
and thank you for being concerned! your reply made me smile :)

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I'm currently debating on where to go. I really want to do it at home to die in a familiar place, but I risk waking people up and being found. I might have to find an alternative. I don't know where though. I just need it to be soon. I'm somehow getting worse. And I thought that wasn't possible.