Are you gonna do it at home? A hotel? The woods? In your car? I was gonna ctb a few days ago, even made a dramatic ass post about it, but couldn't go through with it because I thought my family would find me before I even die and I'll end up a vegetable. However, lucky me, my family won't be home the entire day, so the plan is on again. I'm still not sure if i should do it at home or not, where do you plan on doing it?
nitroautnz
Specialist
- Sep 11, 2020
- 361
At first, I wanted to do that at home because of its convenience and fewer problems, like finding a good spot, and not be found while you doing it.
But I realize that its a bit selfish, and I don't want my flatmates or the house owner to find or deal with a dead body. So I will do it in my car, not sure where yet. But definitely far from the city.
But I realize that its a bit selfish, and I don't want my flatmates or the house owner to find or deal with a dead body. So I will do it in my car, not sure where yet. But definitely far from the city.
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
melancholy_lily
Member
- May 21, 2020
- 37
TripleA
life is a struggle you cannot win
- Sep 25, 2020
- 276
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,706
Either out in a secluded area or indoors away from home (I would really avoid this if I can since my method will be VERY messy). However, if push come to shove, then I would not postpone my deliverance nor risk failure just to avoid "a mess". After all, I never got a say to come into this world (as nobody that is currently alive did), so if anything, if I'm ready to go, I'm ready to go, regardless of what circumstance I'm in.
Stick
Experienced
- Aug 31, 2020
- 269
In my garage. I want to die somewhere familiar, so I want to be at home. It's a little risky, but if I do it at night and tuck myself behind some boxes no one should find me before my delayed message gets sent.
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,870
I know a tower close to me and i climb it sometimes at night just to enjoy the nice night view over the city, so i might drink my SN up there, its a good spot cause i won't get found 100%
Infinite Conscious
Experienced
- Aug 18, 2020
- 282
Today I went to get my occasional line (or two) of my favorite drug (H)... after my dealer was out of town for 10 days.
Imagine your dealer telling you he just left for a vacation... That's what brought tears to my eyes 10 days ago.
But he came back today, so... I flew to him as soon as I saw his message.
And then I continued to the woods... to search for "my place", for the right tree branch, for the last scene of my lifetime.
I think I found it... I don't know how will I do the preparation (tying the knots) in the pitch darkness without drawing unwanted attention with my phone light, but...
Will need to figure that out... the place seems secluded enough, even during the day it could be hours without any passers by, let alone at night.
But then again, it is a mini-forest in a large park of my hometown of 2 million people.
A phone light would be seen from "miles away" and could fuck up the entire plan and the next 20 years of my post-attempt life.
So, to answer the question... still searching.
Settled for full-suspension hanging, as my blocked bank account and inability to pay for online purchases don't allow me to order SN.
Do any sellers of SN use Western Union? I doubt it, since the amount is relatively low.
And I don't have any of the other "pay-pall" type accounts and have never used any of those (never ordered anything online in my not a short life).
Imagine your dealer telling you he just left for a vacation... That's what brought tears to my eyes 10 days ago.
But he came back today, so... I flew to him as soon as I saw his message.
And then I continued to the woods... to search for "my place", for the right tree branch, for the last scene of my lifetime.
I think I found it... I don't know how will I do the preparation (tying the knots) in the pitch darkness without drawing unwanted attention with my phone light, but...
Will need to figure that out... the place seems secluded enough, even during the day it could be hours without any passers by, let alone at night.
But then again, it is a mini-forest in a large park of my hometown of 2 million people.
A phone light would be seen from "miles away" and could fuck up the entire plan and the next 20 years of my post-attempt life.
So, to answer the question... still searching.
Settled for full-suspension hanging, as my blocked bank account and inability to pay for online purchases don't allow me to order SN.
Do any sellers of SN use Western Union? I doubt it, since the amount is relatively low.
And I don't have any of the other "pay-pall" type accounts and have never used any of those (never ordered anything online in my not a short life).
AwokenToReality
Just wanna close my eyes, and feel alright
- May 27, 2020
- 90
I originally wanted to do it at home, I live alone in my mothers house and she comes back to the house maybe once a week, giving me plenty of time for my chosen method. But I've realised that's quite a selfish move. As much pain as I am in, I can't risk letting my mother come home and find me like that. I'm going to try and find a secluded wooded area where I can carry out my plans, however that also brings about the issue of if I'll be found, so will have to work something out I guess. I'm in desperate times right now, and hope I'm able to find a good spot before time runs out for me and home is the only option.
SipSop
Arcanist
- May 7, 2020
- 483
LonelyNick
They/Them, He/Him
- Jul 15, 2020
- 262
In my home, I live alone and the construction crew will find me. Idc about who finds me or in what state, I want to end my pain asap
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
FlyMe2TheMoon
I'm just so tired.
- Sep 30, 2020
- 48
My bathroom.
That's the easiest place for me. Mostly because it's probably the only spot where someone would actually stop to read a note that I leave on the door before they come in.
That's the easiest place for me. Mostly because it's probably the only spot where someone would actually stop to read a note that I leave on the door before they come in.
Lupgevif
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- Jul 23, 2020
- 928
SipSop
Arcanist
- May 7, 2020
- 483
Shades of Grey
Student
- Jun 17, 2020
- 183
At home. Ideally, I'd like to do it in bed for maximal comfort... but I live in an apartment/condo thing, and there are people living both above and below me. I worry that if I begin seizing (a possibility with the method I've chosen) or vocalize, I could be discovered before the point of inviability. For this reason, I am also considering my car (I have sole access to the garage, which might be safer).
ExitTheMatrix
First Time?
- Sep 22, 2020
- 36
Somewhere with no people around so the Woods seems really nice with the fresh breeze of air and nature surrounding you.
Brokensaddle
Student
- Sep 28, 2020
- 180
I have thought long and hard about this and I feel I have more then enough time alone to end my life at home. If I feel cold fight about doing doing it home I have set a side a small enough of my savings to rent a place far away somewhere and hopefully this time I'll be successful in hanging myself and ending my pain. I already spoke to my social worker and she isn't worried about me or was more happy I leave my home city and live somewhere else. As long as I keep my mouth shut I don't think people will find out until I'm gone. Last time I opened my month and my friend called the police on me
HelloHell
Arcanist
- Dec 26, 2019
- 443
hotel
i'm just renting a place and i'd feel bad for the landlord if i ctb there
i'm just renting a place and i'd feel bad for the landlord if i ctb there
Mixo
Blue
- Aug 2, 2020
- 773
TripleA
life is a struggle you cannot win
- Sep 25, 2020
- 276
Rainbow valley, mount everest. Then I'll be preserved forever, and maybe in a million years they'll be able to revive me and I'll be a famous and wealthy guest on Oprah Winfrey the 999th
voidman
emptiness —> nothingness
- Sep 15, 2020
- 217
watsonsmith
Member
- Aug 31, 2020
- 98
Now that I ended up living with my mom (part of the reason I want to ctb) I am in a pickle. On the one hand the flat itself would be a good setting for either full suspension or SN, on the other I don't want her to have to live in a place where her son committed suicide. My second pick would be doing SN in the basement, but it's still her building and a place she frequents. I don't want to leave it haunted with horrible memories.
I am also considering going out into the woods, which would be a more pleasant setting. I am worried, however, about putting everyone through the process of having to call the police to do a search for my body and the entire conundrum involved with that.
I am also considering going out into the woods, which would be a more pleasant setting. I am worried, however, about putting everyone through the process of having to call the police to do a search for my body and the entire conundrum involved with that.
Make sure the boxes aren't too close by...when I read your comment I pictured you (not actually you obviously because I don't know you) shaking with death spasms & knocking over a pile of boxes, making a huge amount of noise & bringing everyone running into your garage!
Lots of towers (here in the uk anyway) have cctv on them, you might want to double check first.
If you already do H why are you going to hang your self? Wouldn't it be easier & potentially nicer for you to overdose on H?
flatearth
dot
- Aug 27, 2020
- 108
im not sure yet!
i can't afford SN or anything like that, much less know where to buy
i don't want to do it in my house because i don't live alone
there's a bridge near me, but i would fall onto ongoing traffic and possibly hurt someone
i can't afford SN or anything like that, much less know where to buy
i don't want to do it in my house because i don't live alone
there's a bridge near me, but i would fall onto ongoing traffic and possibly hurt someone
