Where do you plan to ctb?

[idkwho]

Hey, everyone. I was just curious what your plans are regarding where y'all want to ctb? I'm torn rn if I'll do it in my apartment or at a hotel. I live in a small apartment building and idk. If I do it here, I'll only probably be discovered when my body starts to smell since nobody really looks for me or contacts me. I'm just hesitating on doing it in the apartment because it's located in a small part of town. If I do it here, I know that news will spread so fast and here in our place, people are very nasty when it comes to talking about other ppl's lives. And I just don't want to die in a place where that could happen. Like, I wanna just die without ppl who know me talking shit about it you know. I mean, I shouldn't care bcs I'll be dead anyway but that's just me, always bothered by other ppl smh. Also, most people living in this area are religious and their
thoughts on suicide are Idk if y'all get what I'm saying, I sometimes don't get myself too lmao. Anyway, that's why I'm also considering doing it at a hotel far away.

To those of y'all planning, have u guys decided where already?

 

[Darkover]

at my flat is where i'd ctb

 

[StolenLife]

Inside an appartment so that I don't get caught again.

 

[universe]

I think a bit like you. 2 solutions : the apartment or the hotel. But I think I'll take the hotel.

If I CTB in my apartment, they will discover my body weeks later, unless I send an email that I am no longer there. And on the other hand, I don't want to bother the concierge, people will know what happened and since they know me (by sight) it bothers me.

If I take an impersonal hotel, which I would have reserved on purpose for, I would be in condition for CTB: I paid, I have to do it, there will be a whole mental preparation: the fact of going there with just what CTB, no phone. No one will know me, I will not be afraid of judgment. And on the other hand, there is always the risk that a cleaning lady will open the door and save me even if I put a door hanger: do not disturb.

 

[Sersilv1]

Hey, everyone. I was just curious what your plans are regarding where y'all want to ctb? I'm torn rn if I'll do it in my apartment or at a hotel. I live in a small apartment building and idk. If I do it here, I'll only probably be discovered when my body starts to smell since nobody really looks for me or contacts me. I'm just hesitating on doing it in the apartment because it's located in a small part of town. If I do it here, I know that news will spread so fast and here in our place, people are very nasty when it comes to talking about other ppl's lives. And I just don't want to die in a place where that could happen. Like, I wanna just die without ppl who know me talking shit about it you know. I mean, I shouldn't care bcs I'll be dead anyway but that's just me, always bothered by other ppl smh. Also, most people living in this area are religious and their
thoughts on suicide are Idk if y'all get what I'm saying, I sometimes don't get myself too lmao. Anyway, that's why I'm also considering doing it at a hotel far away.

To those of y'all planning, have u guys decided where already?

In the Woods next to my house. I also want to be buried there.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that I see as being important would be to die somewhere where I'm not found too early causing the attempt to fail. I guess that apart from that where the location is would not particularly be that important as after all everyone has to die somewhere someday and if I was going to ctb, I would be gone soon enough after I would actually go through with it. In an ideal world I would like to go to an euthanasia clinic but unfortunately that is not the reality. Apart from that I like the sound of dying in an isolated forest, but realistically I would likely ctb where I live.

 

[outrider567]

In my bedroom---but the 70 lb Nitrogen tank has to be transported from the laundry room, got a dolly for that---All things are already attached to the tank, just need to turn the tank on, put the EEBD hood on, and breathe deeply, and that's it

 

[Musichater]

Regardless of the location I pick, people will assume it's haunted by my ghost due to all the stigma regarding death in general and suicide in particular (I live in a zealous third world country btw). It's a tough decision, really.

 

[drainganggggg]

a few weeks before i ctb, im going to get in my car with all my savings, drugs, and a shotgun and just drive out into the middle of the desert and get fucked up until i blow my head off. some time next year

 

[makethepainstop]

If they didn't give a damn about you when you were alive....why should you give a damn what they say when your dead?

 

[👁️👃👁️]

If I had an apartment I'd do it there. I don't have my own place, so I'm headed to a state park to die in a tent.

 

[flightless bird]

Somewhere in here.

I'll be at least a hundred miles away from any human realm. No one will ever find my corpse.

 

[Hercules]

I am going to go to a hotel.

 

[StreetSweeper]

I have my location picked out. Its a 45 min drive outside the city. National park that allows backcountry camping. Ill be setting off for 7-14 day solo camping trips at a time, and one time, i wont come back. I even have the expereince, knowledge, and gear to actually enjoy myself out there, so once i lose the apartment and its time, the process to a new start or a old ending begins. A small part of me hopes this will renew some vigor in my soul, but i wont bet on it. With any luck, the wildlife will find me before the park rangers do and they wont even have a body to autopsy.

 

[nopride86]

Whatever method I end up choosing, it will have to be done in my car. And since I won't be able to go far, I'll probably have to do it during the day, in a more remote parking spot of my apartment complex. Not ideal. Which is why my method has to be pretty quick.

 

[DarknessAtNoon]

Deep in the forest

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I'm not sure. I feel like my decision will come about spontaneously, although I'd prefer it to take place in a lush, forested region.

But the likelihood of my body being discovered is too great. My best option seems to be some sort of marsh area because I don't want my family to have to deal with it. It would decay more quickly if done so.

 

[lifeORdeath]

Wherever the moment strikes me I guess. I don't set a date, I is more of a response than a plan.

 

[Snatsbats]

All that I see as being important would be to die somewhere where I'm not found too early causing the attempt to fail. I guess that apart from that where the location is would not particularly be that important as after all everyone has to die somewhere someday and if I was going to ctb, I would be gone soon enough after I would actually go through with it. In an ideal world I would like to go to an euthanasia clinic but unfortunately that is not the reality. Apart from that I like the sound of dying in an isolated forest, but realistically I would likely ctb where I live.

Do you live with someone or alone? I would be scared to be found out by my parents.

 

[FuneralCry]

Do you live with someone or alone? I would be scared to be found out by my parents.

I live with family members which is one of the reasons as to why ctb is difficult for me. If only we lived in a world where our right to die is respected, then that would be much better for suicidal people as there would be no secrecy involved in planning to leave.

 

[LesbianCarpetPython]

I want to do it in the comfort of my own home

 

[annique]

my house has recently been in a constant atmosphere of depression and relationship instability (between me and my mother), also i'd probably be found early by her

i like nature and being surrounded by trees , so i planned on dying on my uni's campus on a weekend day

 

[hellispink]

I am doing in a hotel room. Safest and easiest way.

 

[Xav]

At work, in my office or in my car.

 

[heavyeyes]

Most likely a hotel. Ideally I'd do it at home but I live with family. I don't want to traumatize them by finding my lifeless body (or worst case scenario not lifeless). There's also a chance I'll be found too soon which I don't want.

 

[lylas]

The woods near my home are supposedly haunted, so I might have some company there
Or perhaps I would hide in some farmer's barn. Ideally I would like to be able to be in contact with others as I die, whilst still hidden and undiscoverable physically. Perhaps I would just take a long walk, I like the idea of that a lot, my last journey. Realistically though I will probably do it in bed at home spontaneously.

 

[almaranthine]

If I ctb in my apartment, eventually my mom will end up coming by to check on me. At first she might just assume I'm ignoring her or angry about something and it could take some time for my body to be found. Hotel seems like my best option. I really want to get one with a balcony view of the beach since I live near water. Smoke my last cigarette staring out into the ocean sounds like a decent last moment for me.