I can't straight up give or post the information here but if you truly want an accurate reputable source then go ahead and purchase the peaceful pill handbook. It isn't much for someone wanting to end there life and it has all the details needed to go through with the plan as well as trusted sources. All you will need to do after that is make a protonmail account and send the payment through bitcoin or the other methods listed and it will be sent to you discretely. I've already ordered and it should be coming in soon, it is the one thing I can look forward to in the immense misery and frustration I feel at my low points, knowing i'll be able to end it. I hope whatever decision you choose brings you peace.