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SirChuxAlot
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- Jan 16, 2019
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I turned away years ago from the Christian faith (Most enlightening experience) due to the grip and control it had on my decision making process. Missed out a lot on life and wish I could redo the past knowing what I know now.
That aside, not sure what your intentions are for "martyr" but considering the Christian God Yahweh is suppose to be all knowing, they'll know your true intent was suicide and still technically send you to hell.
Many don't realize you can only ask Yahweh forgiveness so many times before he/she/it knows you are not truly repenting for your sins and are worse (in their eyes) because you are also lying in the process.
Like some others have suggested, I would re-evaluate your life and maybe look into different faiths.
It is perfectly normal to questions beliefs, never let anyone tell you otherwise.
That aside, not sure what your intentions are for "martyr" but considering the Christian God Yahweh is suppose to be all knowing, they'll know your true intent was suicide and still technically send you to hell.
Many don't realize you can only ask Yahweh forgiveness so many times before he/she/it knows you are not truly repenting for your sins and are worse (in their eyes) because you are also lying in the process.
Like some others have suggested, I would re-evaluate your life and maybe look into different faiths.
It is perfectly normal to questions beliefs, never let anyone tell you otherwise.
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