Where are you planning your death?

[Moon25]

Where are you planning your death?

I plan to go to work in another city, where the salary is higher, save up for cremation, and then quit. I'll come to my hometown, rent a hotel room and die there ...
Share your plans.

 

[Rustysoupcan]

I'm just going to be in my apartment. Alone in a comfortable environment sounds good to me.

 

[StevieNixs]

I'm a strange pedantic Virgo, so... So far I have been:
1. Packing up my house and taking stuff to charity stores, giving them away or throwing them away. Got a charity to come out on Thursday to assess which of my large furniture and white goods they will take.
2. Contacted the Cat Protection place leaving about 9 x A4 pages of instructions for care for my cat. Bought lots of cat food, cat litter, extra worming treatment , fleaing treatment. Gave them details of her microchip details, vaccinations, likes, dislikes, habits, put videos of her on a flash drive so they know what she is like in my home. I will also get her further vaccinations four days before I CTB - already booked it.
3. Already got my pre-paid funeral plan about four years ago. Does your country have one of those? How they work in my country is you pay monthly - no health checks, Then for the first year you are only covered for accidental death, then after the first year you are covered for all forms of death - including suicide. You choose the amount of the premium you want. They are quite cheap. you pay monthly.
4. I bought my SN etc
5. I wrote 22 letters to bill companies telling them I'm dead - post dating them. Put the stamps on the envelopes and the recorded delivery slips. Telling them to close my accounts and telling them to let my mother act on my behalf. Wrote a letter to my mother asking her to only send the letters once she has my death certificate and can put a copy of that in the envelope.
6. I wrote letters to my mother with the account passwords, websites addresses, usernames etc for all of these account.
7. I managed to get letters of authority from some of these companies so that my mother can act on my behalf - though they do not know why I would need this.
8. Chosen the funeral company - the same one that my sister had.
9. Chosen my funeral plan and stated these wishes - no church service, so cremation service, no flowers - Crematorium flowers do not get cremated with the person as we found out so they are a waste of money. Just mortuary to crematorium, then a wicker urn or a Prozac shaped urn like Carrie Fisher.
10. I am going to pop a letter into the place where my counsellor is based - she is expecting it. Telling her to call the Cat place so they can collect my cat. She will get the letter at 9am - 10am. I will also put the same letter in my mother's door - both marked urgent. I will park my car outside my mother's house and put the key through the door with my letters as I am giving my car to my brother.
11. I will catch the train, then get a taxi to the crematorium where my sister was cremated to get there for about 1am. It's actually a very pretty church. CTB in some place not too startling to visitors or mourners.
12. Then having CTB in this location, I will be taken to the same mortuary as my sister which is a stone's throw away from the funeral parlor place. the reason I will not do it in my town is that there are extra costs involved in transporting a body from one town to a funeral parlour in another town and I want to leave as much as the funeral plan money to my family as possible. I am not CTB at the crematorium for sentimental reasons but for practical ones. I'll also leave a note for the pathologist or whomever telling them exactly what I have taken and a letter for the police asking them not to distribute photos of my dead body via their private whatsapp groups which they seem to like to do in my country.

Finally, forgot to say, I will post my mobile phone through my mother's door having deleted any incriminating apps, searches, info etc. I will also try and wipe my laptop. I have removed all of the labels etc from my meds. The reason I am leaving my phone is that you can be traced with it - even if it is switched off. So in case my mother is not asleep at 12am - unlikely - and she sees the letter and calls the police, I do not want to be traced.
I cannot send timed emails - my mother is not computer literate and my brother rarely reads emails. I cannot send timed texts as again my mother cannot open text messages or send them and my brother rarely looks at texts ... I do not have the mobile phone number for my counsellor. If I did not have a cat, I would just post the letter at the post office to be honest and disappear somewhere never to be found again. but I cannot take the chance of it not being delivered. I also want my family to have some money from my funeral plan and that will only happen if there is a body to be found.
Think that's it

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Probably forest, around 1-mi hike from abandoned car. Away as much as possible from people. Shotgun. Can't risk drugs not working & don't want to WAIT, even partially conscious, while dying.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would ideally like to ctb it in an isolated nature spot, so there is less chance of being found too early, but it is likely I will just ctb in my house. I wish I could just disappear and not have to go through the dying process. I have not made actual plans yet, it is just something I think about. My ctb will probably not be for a long time realistically.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

I wish I could just disappear and not have to go through the dying process.

This. :/

 

[fox_wannabe]

In a vip hotel room with my best suit on

 

[juraviel]

Probably forest, around 1-mi hike from abandoned car. Away as much as possible from people. Shotgun. Can't risk drugs not working & don't want to WAIT, even partially conscious, while dying.

n has a calming, anxiolytic, perhaps even slightly euforic effect, and lights are out within minutes. just saying. and there's 0 pain. with a gun, some chance of a few seconds of extreme pain.

 

[weallneedtovent]

In my home, on my own, in my bed, curled up with my cats.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Lonely creek near some boulders in the late evening.

 

[The Lonely]

I always get amazed at these posts…

I can hardly leave my home… (once every two weeks to the supermarket)…
Im Doing the detox from my prescribed medications…. This may take a couple of weeks…
And that's it.

My pets are still a trouble that I will have to 'manage'… :/

 

[In2thewoods]

I would prefer to do it in my apartment but charcoal grills are prohibited. So I expect it will be in a small tent in the woods.

 

[mossyfox]

deep deep in the woods. where I won't be found for awhile.

 

[wanttodie]

prefer to do it in my apartment by hanging

 

[SheJumped]

I've looked into heavily wooded areas in my surrounding area. My plan is to take an Uber to one of these as I'd rather not drive and fear someone calling in my plates reporting an abandon car. Find the right tree and partial hanging.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

My plan is to take an Uber to one of these as I'd rather not drive and fear someone calling in my plates reporting an abandon car.

Terrific idea--thank you!

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

In my bedroom. My roomates will likely find me but that's alright, my methods of choice don't leave too much of a mess

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

In my bedroom. My roomates will likely find me but that's alright, my methods of choice don't leave too much of a mess

I haven't had roommates since sophomore year. Mind me asking how you have enough privacy to even try with roommates?

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I haven't had roommates since sophomore year. Mind me asking how you have enough privacy to even try with roommates?

I have my own bedroom, housemates would be a better word. One of them is my closest friend and his girlfriend, so im going to be sure to leave as detailed of a note as i can so they dont blame themselves, even though a lot of my stress has been focused on him.

I haven't had roommates since sophomore year. Mind me asking how you have enough privacy to even try with roommates?

May i also ask you while i have the chance, how do you PM and how do you use the search? I cannot find either of them

 

[Jblack]

I have a barn that has the perfect beam for hanging. It is not used for anything anymore so no one will find me. At least not quickly. I have a platform built for me to step off. As strange and odd as it may sound, the idea of stepping off the platform with that rope around my neck actually excites me.

 

[Randomgin]

In my car, blasting some of my music as i drift off to sleep after ingesting SN

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

In my car, blasting some of my music as i drift off to sleep after ingesting SN

do you ever fear that SN isn't painless as they say? Ive had painful and terrifying dreams before, who says asphyxiation doesn't hurt when unconscious?

 

[Randomgin]

do you ever fear that SN isn't painless as they say? Ive had painful and terrifying dreams before, who says asphyxiation doesn't hurt when unconscious?

do you ever fear that SN isn't painless as they say? Ive had painful and terrifying dreams before, who says asphyxiation doesn't hurt when unconscious?

I believe that once asleep, we dont feel anything. I had a piece of my ceiling fall right on my head, didnt feel it until i woke up.
If there is pain, the risk of feeling pain is worth it if I die because im just so ready at this point that id do anything to leave at this point

 

[phoenixx]

I also plan to go to a hotel, but in a different city near me. It's around 10 minutes away by train and the hotel is literally by the station, just a minute walk away so I'll have no trouble finding my way. I'll have it pre-booked for around two nights? I think. I haven't worked that part out yet but most likely two night, so I have enough time and won't get disturbed. First couple of hours I'm there, I'll get everything ready. Get my noose ready and leave my suicide notes and ID out for the police to find. I'm hoping on getting the noose onto the bathroom door, you know, where you attach it to one side and put it over the top to the other side the shut the door? If I can do that, then I'll leave a note on the door warning hotel staff not to enter and call police immediately. Depending on how I feel will determine what will happen next. I'll either spend the next few ours doing whatever I want to myself, hurting myself, getting high/drunk on pills and alcohol, whatever I want. This will help me cope for a while. Depending how long I do that for, I will probably get some sleep if I can or just stay up hurting myself more and doing whatever. The next day will be the day I ctb. Before I do ctb, I'll need to take more pills and drink more alcohol just to suppress my SI. Then, I'll hang myself. - That's my full plan!

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I believe that once asleep, we dont feel anything. I had a piece of my ceiling fall right on my head, didnt feel it until i woke up.
If there is pain, the risk of feeling pain is worth it if I die because im just so ready at this point that id do anything to leave at this point

hmm. I dont mean to be a fear monger, but i'm not so sure i agree with you. Downers of any kind would work better because of their psychoactive effects

 

[Sacred Rest]

I plan to die at my own home, while the family's at work. I don't think I have another option as I don't trust hotel/motel staff, and I'd have to carry all my supplies with me and travel, which is getting to be a difficult task in my sick state of health.

In my bedroom. My roomates will likely find me but that's alright, my methods of choice don't leave too much of a mess

Same here, except at my family home. By the way, I see that you are a newly registered user from around 1 month ago. Are you able to view other people's account profiles, and message them? I am not able to do that despite registering in the spring of this year and waiting all this time. It's an odd restriction to have been randomly placed on me.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

I plan to die at my own home, while the family's at work. I don't think I have another option as I don't trust hotel/motel staff, and I'd have to carry all my supplies with me and travel, which is getting to be a difficult task in my sick state of health.

Same here, except at my family home. By the way, I see that you are a newly registered user. Are you able to view other people's account profiles, and message them? I am not able to do that despite registering in the spring of this year and waiting all this time. It's an odd restriction to have been randomly placed on me.

you need to keep posting and responding. I'm pretty sure thats what got me able to PM etc. Post something interesting in the offtopic board

I plan to die at my own home, while the family's at work. I don't think I have another option as I don't trust hotel/motel staff, and I'd have to carry all my supplies with me and travel, which is getting to be a difficult task in my sick state of health.

Same here, except at my family home. By the way, I see that you are a newly registered user from around 1 month ago. Are you able to view other people's account profiles, and message them? I am not able to do that despite registering in the spring of this year and waiting all this time. It's an odd restriction to have been randomly placed on me.

also IMO its better to do your method of choice outside away from family. They will have to see you with the coroner but its better than finding your body where it lie.

 

[Sacred Rest]

you need to keep posting and responding. I'm pretty sure thats what got me able to PM etc. Post something interesting in the offtopic board

All right. Thanks. That's what I'll do then. Good luck with wherever your road leads you. If anything, I'll consider making a new account.

 

[lonleycrowdedwest]

All right. Thanks. That's what I'll do then. Good luck with wherever your road leads you. If anything, I'll consider making a new account.

stay on your account, you only have 8 messages. Just wait. And take care of yourself, think straight, whatever that means for you.

 

[ondodera]

Like a few others in the thread have said, somewhere out in the calm nature with a tent. I know my family will see my body eventually at the morgue but I'd rather they not be the ones to actually discover my body.
Always have enjoyed nature and how relaxing it can be most of the time.