charaunderground

charaunderground

* Let justice be done.
Nov 29, 2024
96
Probably going to buy SN soon, as I'm a touch worried the main source (DMC) will eventually run into legal troubles and get taken down (perhaps I'm just paranoid — but would rather not wait too long and end up with a KL situation).

I'd prefer to CTB in my room because it's "safe" to me, but I'd also like to not potentially traumatize my brother, especially as he's underage, if I were to CTB while everyone is out and he gets home from school before my parents get home from work. He's a teenager and not a young child, but I'd still rather not have him see and be affected* by it.

(* Yes, I know he could be affected regardless — but seeing a corpse in rigor or after it's been there for a bit is way different than hearing indirectly about CTB/death.)

I'd go to a hotel, but my parents are home in evenings, and I couldn't be away for hours without being interrogated. I wouldn't even have a good excuse.

I live in a small town (~1k people) so there's not a major police presence, but I'm still worried that if, say, I parked in an empty lot and took the SN, a cop with nothing better to do might show up and start asking questions.
 
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dimgobaith

Member
Jun 17, 2024
97
I will probably go in my car or a caravan if I manage to buy a cheap one. Somewhere that won't affect anyone else that means nothing to anyone but me
 
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SomewhereAlongThe

SomewhereAlongThe

Student
May 17, 2024
111
I'm going to be doing it in my room, I have an exit bag and I'll use that late at night in my room. I live in an adult group home, but our rooms are not shared and I only live with 1 other person plus the staff. Staff will discover my body, but I'm hoping it won't traumatize them, I've never felt like anyone around me cares so.
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
244
Hotel room so I have more privacy
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
364
big hotel with sn
 
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pariah80

Specialist
Aug 12, 2024
333
Hotel room at around midnight.
 
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HereTomorrow

HereTomorrow

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
551
I want to do it at a hotel just to not traumatize my family. Choosing hanging. I've been studying hotel rooms for good secure spots and mostly just found the bathroom door and the wheelchair accessible bar (though it's often too low).

Realistically, I'll probably do it at home in my room. But I really want to book a hotel and do it there.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
95
At a hotel so I can die in the same city as my wife and daughters. I just booked it, actually.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

The past never dies.
Apr 25, 2023
1,013
Home, at my bed, hopefully.
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,266
On a dock by the ocean. Late at night when downtown is deserted. Going to pass with the special memories associated with that place and the waves will carry my soul into eternity.
 
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timorousTruant

timorousTruant

Azoidant
Nov 18, 2022
71
I'm thinking a hotel somewhere so that my family doesn't have to find my cold dead body and be even more traumatized than they're already going to be.
 
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ScaredOfMachines

ScaredOfMachines

I am who I am
Nov 8, 2024
87
I want to do it at a hotel just to not traumatize my family. Choosing hanging. I've been studying hotel rooms for good secure spots and mostly just found the bathroom door and the wheelchair accessible bar (though it's often too low).

Realistically, I'll probably do it at home in my room. But I really want to book a hotel and do it there.
Same here. I want to do it in a hotel room as well, but realistically I have no means of transportation besides uber, and who knows if anyone will be willing to take a job that late. I hate the thought of traumatizing my family again.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
847
Depends on my method. There's a handy steel beam in my basement to hang from but if I go the chemical route I'll probably do it in the bathtub to make cleanup easy (I'm at least polite 😁 ).
 
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foreverlanguish

foreverlanguish

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ sleepy in a heaven's sprawl
Dec 7, 2024
33
At the moment, probably at home or somewhere outside that is remote.
 
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shrizoid

shrizoid

Member
Nov 18, 2024
87
Probably going to buy SN soon, as I'm a touch worried the main source (DMC) will eventually run into legal troubles and get taken down (perhaps I'm just paranoid — but would rather not wait too long and end up with a KL situation).

I'd prefer to CTB in my room because it's "safe" to me, but I'd also like to not potentially traumatize my brother, especially as he's underage, if I were to CTB while everyone is out and he gets home from school before my parents get home from work. He's a teenager and not a young child, but I'd still rather not have him see and be affected* by it.

(* Yes, I know he could be affected regardless — but seeing a corpse in rigor or after it's been there for a bit is way different than hearing indirectly about CTB/death.)

I'd go to a hotel, but my parents are home in evenings, and I couldn't be away for hours without being interrogated. I wouldn't even have a good excuse.

I live in a small town (~1k people) so there's not a major police presence, but I'm still worried that if, say, I parked in an empty lot and took the SN, a cop with nothing better to do might show up and start asking questions.
if or when I ever go through with it, I would do it in my room
 

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