Venting When you're fed up with life, but there's nothing else you can do...

[caotic_realm]

I'm fucking sick of life; I've felt this way for a long time. "Satisfactions" don't do anything for me—if you can even call them satisfactions—like selling something online or winning a fucking online video game.

Being in this forum is the only refuge I can find, but I admit I find it hard to communicate solely through a translator and feel no connection to anything or anyone; it's like talking to AI—it answers me as if it were a person, but deep down, it's something programmed. It isn't human; it might tell you it loves you or cares about you, but it's just a program trying to emulate human feelings.

I am truly fucking fed up and exhausted; I think about death every day, and I'm a coward for not doing anything to even try. I just want to die, goddammit!!!!!!!!!!