When will you ctb ?

[nothingbutyou]

Have you already scheduled your ctb ?

 

[eupdplishlp]

I will soon within next 2 months max. hub?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Since I joined SS, things have calmed down. I don't have an end date, but I just prepare myself for the option that this final end date could be at any time when my situation gets worse again.

I don't like setting an end date bc it would put unnecessary pressure on me.

 

[darksouls]

I will be forced to ctb if my health condition worsens

 

[kopebaldy]

Tonight, tomorrow, next week, 5 years from now...

I don't have a plan, my date is whenever I feel like this is it.

 

[Carrot]

Whenever my parents go away for a few days.

I'm worried my SN-only method won't work, but I hope I'll give it a try and not instaltly spit it out.

Was planning to make a delayed, scheduled post here but might as well post it even if I end up failing due to SI.

I know things will get worse for me at some point (for example war) and I'll have no hesitation then.

 

[Corovaner]

I don't know, but perhaps mid-august or september.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish I could just peacefully and permanently free myself from this dreadful, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake but of course I'm so cruelly denied the option to just cease existing painlessly that is guaranteed with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead.

It's all so terrible and dreadful to me and I just suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence, all I hope and wish for is to never exist ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse suffering. I find it so terrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, for me only non-existence is positive, only in non-existence will I be at peace from this torturous, futile existence.

 

[knickknack81]

Not set date at the moment. It's more like I am just becoming comfortable with the idea of CTB and looking into possible methods. Gun would be the one I would want to use but it's damn near impossible to get a hold of one in place that I live (unless I go through illegal/black market route). Jumping off a high building would be more accessible where I am but overcoming SI would probably be difficult. Ive even starting to think of hanging methods as of late.

I think I have been putting things off in hopes that things would improve in my life and I would want things to turn around but I just don't see that happening.

 

[TooManyChances]

I don't know because my "method" is a bit weird. I'm trying to get hypokalemia and hypomagnesemia by eating extremely small amounts of food (I read the nutrition facts). It's almost like fasting.

I will supplement with a bit of sodium every day and some multivitamins every 10 days.

So technically my method is "starving" through specific electrolyte loss, but it might take weeks or months. When my heart gives up, that's gonna be the date.

Will this method work? Doubt it, and never seen anything like this before. If I lived alone I would stop eating altogether and quit my job too.

 

[AnimeSlayersFan]

I think I'll do two conflicting things at once, try to enjoy life as much as I can (If it seems things can get better) while practicing and maybe even having some cash leftover for a suicide fund, in case I need to rent out a hotel room or something to ctb (If I can't do it at the place I'm currently staying, like a secret agent carrying a cyanide pill, trying to be ready for when the time comes, then getting the fuck out of there just before they try to get me, my final fuck you to this wicked world.

 

[secretghost]

After I finish paying a small debt and see my best friend once more :-)