Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,163
I feel overwhelmed in my life
But just because of the many life changes I've been dealing with, but also the fears for the future
Future loans, future roomates, future roomate problems, etc
The idea that I don't have to deal with any of that feels good knowing I could go back home
Back to walking on eggshells and abuse
It's wrong, it's unhealthy, but the new is scary
So scary I'd rather die than live though the pain that'll put me in a suicidal spiral
Anyways I don't know what I'll do for the summer. Stay on campus or stay go back home
Even though I know taking out a bunch of loans and being in debt is better than abuse, it's also not as easy as it seems
Sigh, I'm an idiot
But just because of the many life changes I've been dealing with, but also the fears for the future
Future loans, future roomates, future roomate problems, etc
The idea that I don't have to deal with any of that feels good knowing I could go back home
Back to walking on eggshells and abuse
It's wrong, it's unhealthy, but the new is scary
So scary I'd rather die than live though the pain that'll put me in a suicidal spiral
Anyways I don't know what I'll do for the summer. Stay on campus or stay go back home
Even though I know taking out a bunch of loans and being in debt is better than abuse, it's also not as easy as it seems
Sigh, I'm an idiot
