KiraComplex
sugar, spice…
- Aug 31, 2019
- 272
I want to grow old. im okay with dying from old age, its what I now want. I want children. A lot of my trauma i have worked TIRELESSLY to rid myself of and a lot of it is managed. im completely sober with an occasional beer. I want to own my own business and live on a farm with horses. But i am, we are, ALL DENIED IT.
They say we will run out of drinking water by 2030. they say going nuclear power and reducing consumption is the only way out. it wont happen. theres no incentive. the president and the world leaders ARE TRYING to kill us all by making our lives so, so much worse. we are CHATTEL. the ai boom will (actually, it already is) drink our resources leaving us with nothing. they are tearing up forests and plains for data centers. according to the BBB, nothing can be done about it. what is the point? the social decay, the ecological decay, it will kill us in a matter of years.
i sat on my hill with a beer and a revolver in my lap. i couldnt do it. what can i do?? Some part of me wants to wait and see, maybe there'll be some godly reversal and itll be okay. maybe i will be granted peace and live on my farm and die old. but i know, in my heart of hearts i wont live to see 40. i will starve and die with my mouth dry as the musks of the world drink the resources through a straw. and its just so fucking sad. it really is. i have to go before any of it happens.
im finally granted a life where i actively want to live and become better. im going through college with all A's when years ago i was abusing benedryl and weed, wanting to kill myself every single minute. but come to realize, the harsh reality of "this will end soon" is still looming over me, in a much different way than before. in a way i cannot stop or decide for myself. i dont have a choice. im going to die by the hoarder's hands. i need to end it.
netflix just bought warner for 81 billion smackers. money that can feed people and maybe slow the global catastrophy we will face. it is instead used as a vessel to get more money for nothing. absolutely nothing.
They say we will run out of drinking water by 2030. they say going nuclear power and reducing consumption is the only way out. it wont happen. theres no incentive. the president and the world leaders ARE TRYING to kill us all by making our lives so, so much worse. we are CHATTEL. the ai boom will (actually, it already is) drink our resources leaving us with nothing. they are tearing up forests and plains for data centers. according to the BBB, nothing can be done about it. what is the point? the social decay, the ecological decay, it will kill us in a matter of years.
i sat on my hill with a beer and a revolver in my lap. i couldnt do it. what can i do?? Some part of me wants to wait and see, maybe there'll be some godly reversal and itll be okay. maybe i will be granted peace and live on my farm and die old. but i know, in my heart of hearts i wont live to see 40. i will starve and die with my mouth dry as the musks of the world drink the resources through a straw. and its just so fucking sad. it really is. i have to go before any of it happens.
im finally granted a life where i actively want to live and become better. im going through college with all A's when years ago i was abusing benedryl and weed, wanting to kill myself every single minute. but come to realize, the harsh reality of "this will end soon" is still looming over me, in a much different way than before. in a way i cannot stop or decide for myself. i dont have a choice. im going to die by the hoarder's hands. i need to end it.
netflix just bought warner for 81 billion smackers. money that can feed people and maybe slow the global catastrophy we will face. it is instead used as a vessel to get more money for nothing. absolutely nothing.
