When did your depression begin?

[FrostedHoax]

I feel like it started to creep up when I was around 12-14 but then came in full force by the time was 16-17. I do feel like I've always been a little different and "off" compared to everyone else even if I was a seemingly normal and happy child. Actually, now that I think about it a little more, I did get bullied a bit during my childhood which probably led me to becoming more socially withdrawn when I hit middle school.

 

[unnormal9]

Thinks its just depression

 

[heavyeyes]

I remember first experiencing feelings of depression and thoughts of suicide at 12 or 13. When I was 14 my mom died suddenly and things got so much worse. I was officially diagnosed at 15. I was a very anxious and emotionally unstable child so it's no surprise to me that I developed a mental illness. I suspect I still would've been depressed if my mom hadn't died. Whether it would've been more or less in its severity I'm don't know.

 

[[EmptySpace]]

I felt depression when I was 16 years old. I took pills for a long period if time, but the depression kept coming back. I lost hope that it would stop, because I can't just stop thinking about the meaninglessness of everything.

 

[leftdreaming]

Don't know. After my second attempt everyone just kinda agreed I had depression. I believe they are right, but I struggle to recognize it in myself. I'll take a guess and say 10 maybe.

 

[Alltheywanted]

About 5 years ago. It all started with my problem with the pronunciation of the letter "r". I was scared to speak since other would make fun of me. Now that I can say "r", I have other problems such as psychotic symptoms or lack of self-acceptance.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I worked hard for my big goals in life since I left school and university. A few years ago the project of a lifetime completly failed which led to depression with active suicidal thoughts since then. All attempts to recover a well running business that satisfies me, failed; it makes it even worse.

 

[Rocinante]

14 or so

 

[quietly_gone]

I've been depressed since I was 15 I think, but I used to be at least functional until two years ago when I suddenly went through an episode of intrusive thoughts about people wanting to harm me. They were very specific and felt very real. They're mostly gone now, but the catatonic state it left me in for more than a month still lingers. I don't remember experiencing depression like that before this episode. I feel like I'm just a shell of the person I used to be now. I wish I knew why this happened to me. Back then I still had hope at life.

 

[AerialBoundaries]

14. Took my first panic attack in September 2005 and it was all downhill from there. Also got into a fight in the school lunch hall with an older student and got knocked unconscious the same week. It's been a slow decline ever since.

 

[groucho]

My first memory of depression and suicidal thoughts was at around 7-8 years old. Was planning on cutting myself with a butter knife... Not a bright kid!

 

[savoytruffle]

Probably 12-13. I was actively self harming at 14