When did you take a bite of the fruit from the Tree of knowledge which allowed you to see beyond the illusion that this world is good?

[Ambivalent1]

"I rather accept the cold, hard truth than believe a comforting lie."
-carl sagan

 

[DazaiKinnie]

Well, I had taken a bite but didn't chew until recently. Like I knew but chose to ignore everything like a fool.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I really love the question, but thinking about it, I have absolutely no idea when I realized that this world truly sucks. I think it kind of came into focus over time, bit by bit, one horrendous story in the world after another, multitudes of death of family and friends, disappointment after disappointment, failure upon failure, lie after lie, blow by blow.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I really love the question, but thinking about it, I have absolutely no idea when I realized that this world truly sucks. I think it kind of came into focus over time, bit by bit, one horrendous story in the world after another, multitudes of death of family and friends, disappointment after disappointment, failure upon failure, lie after lie, blow by blow.

A slow mulling over as the fruit is being chewed. Realization after realization coming into focus.

 

[Bluebunnysky]

I started getting bullied and ostracized in elementary school for being gay; That's what started my negative worldview perception. My first relationship was with a narcissist as well which was hard to get through and walk away from but I did and I'm proud of myself for that

 

[venin]

My first Major Depressive Episode. Shortly I became an atheist and then everything fell down like in a game of domino.

Somehow I think I always knew, deep down. Sometimes reality is just too inhumanely cruel or painful to acknowledge. That's one of the reasons so many people are in denial.
That's why so many people are so religious. They need something to cling to in order to survive. That's why religion is called "the opium of the masses".

Not so many people have the balls or bad luck to see life for what it really is, entirely.
I think most of them are lucky enough that their bubble of illusions and denial never pops and can live and die peacefully even though they lived a lie.

Sorry for digressing

I started getting bullied and ostracized in elementary school for being gay; That's what started my negative worldview perception. My first relationship was with a narcissist as well which was hard to get through and walk away from but I did and I'm proud of myself for that

Sorry to hear that. I grew up in a narcissistic family. You really should be proud

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence was never something good in the first place and I've never believed in that insensitive delusion, existence was always a burden I was forced to endure, it just so unnecessarily causes harm.

 

[ZoloftSüchtig]

Well, I had taken a bite but didn't chew until recently. Like I knew but chose to ignore everything like a fool.

Same I think for me

 

[Forever Sleep]

I guess I learnt about the precariousness of life via lots of deaths in the family early on- age 3. Then, I got a lesson in narcissistic behaviour. I developed a cynical mind with regards to society pretty early on too. Not so sure where that came from. By age 10 though, I'd worked out how shit this life can be! How about you?

 

[Ambivalent1]

I guess I learnt about the precariousness of life via lots of deaths in the family early on- age 3. Then, I got a lesson in narcissistic behaviour. I developed a cynical mind with regards to society pretty early on too. Not so sure where that came from. By age 10 though, I'd worked out how shit this life can be! How about you?

From the beginning

 

[Alltheywanted]

When i started high school

 

[brokeandbroken]

"I rather accept the cold, hard truth than believe a comforting lie."
-carl sagan

I was forced into a situation outside of my control where humanity could show me whether it was good or not, a last chance if you will. Despite all the abuses of life I managed to overcome it unfortunately... The answer is that the world is pretty shit. I see no redeeming qualities.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

"I rather accept the cold, hard truth than believe a comforting lie."
-carl sagan

life , consciousness, pain , suffering , existence, this world , this animal body : They all get worse and worse the more I research and think and reason about these things.

 

[StolenLife]

My childhood innocence was lost at the age of 5 when my grandparents passed away. I had what is essentialy a kid version of an existential crisis. I realized that life is tragic more than it is happy. Followed by severe bullying at school.

 

[ANONYMOUSM]

I dont know when exactly but I remember how my mom and dad used to get in a lot of fights and each of them would end up with my mom screaming that she was going to leave me with my dad and ship me back to my dad's country

 

[dialogos]

When my dad beat me so much as a child that because of the pain, I was forced to become self aware at too young an age. Even if I didn't have the words, my first thoughts and self aware feelings were "what is this hellhole and why is that monster hurting me? I don't want to be here!" It was so strange and alien to me.

 

[Ambivalent1]

When my dad beat me so much as a child that because of the pain, I was forced to become self aware at too young an age. Even if I didn't have the words, my first thoughts and self aware feelings were "what is this hellhole and why is that monster hurting me? I don't want to be here!" It was so strange and alien to me.

Same feelings I had. Being born into hell. ctb should be easy. We'd be escaping this hell. But it'd be easier if death was a better place and not just a void. Seems sad

 

[Hollowman]

After taking a lot of Lsd when I was a teen.

 

[Lost Magic]

I think you would like this poem by, Charles Bukowski, entitled The Crunch If you haven't already that is.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I think you would like this poem by, Charles Bukowski, entitled The Crunch If you haven't already that is.

Seems random. Hard to follow