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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
482
I never knew what people meant by this until one day I actually made eye contact with myself in the mirror and holy shit, it was like all the life was gone. The light was totally out. It was about 3 years into my depression. It's the eyes that really give away how depressed you are, even if you can fake everything else that vacant stare tells the story. If I become not depressed in the future I hope that blank stare goes away.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
10,557
High School....
 
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sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft

sppplmgwiwlkiwbtft

you see it too. for me, it's always like this.
Jun 15, 2023
59
when I was 13 lmao. it's been 6 years now and things are just getting worse and you can very clearly see that in my eyes
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,001
Probably, as a child. Conciously about 5 years ago.
The eyes are considered the window to your soul.....
 
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SexyIncél

SexyIncél

🍭my lollipop brings the feminists to my candyshop
Aug 16, 2022
1,474
I had it a couple years ago, for a few months. I think it meant: I had nothing to care about, that all my training was for nothing

I recovered it a few days before I was going to ctb, because the universe dropped something... peculiarly appropriate on my lap. Hopefully the same will happen for you
 
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EmptyHeaded

EmptyHeaded

Experienced
Jan 24, 2024
229
I honestly don't know what "dead eyes" look like to people. The pictures you find when googling it look like normal eyes to me. A bit tired maybe.
 
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assisted

assisted

🍄
Jul 7, 2022
229
i've had them for as long as i can remember, but i usually fake not having them in public
 
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sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,012
I'm not sure but last summer, my dad said that I looked "sullen" and he told me to "cheer up"
 
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thenamingofcats

annihilation anxiety
Apr 19, 2024
482
I honestly don't know what "dead eyes" look like to people. The pictures you find when googling it look like normal eyes to me. A bit tired maybe.
I think it's basically non expressive eyes. People make micro expressions with their eyes without realizing and it's like the eyes become totally frozen in a blank look when they're "dead."
 
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steygrone

steygrone

I'm trash so I'm taking myself out
May 3, 2024
24
During the pandemic. Stuck in a house with people I learned to hate and a partner who was more shitty to me than normal. I was kinda done then, definitely done now
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

A new mentality, closer to the heart
Sep 19, 2023
2,106
Not dead eyes, but I posted this in another thread about when I remember my resting face becoming a frown. I would've been 19 or 20:

I went to this counselor in undergrad, not as therapy per-se, but it was someone you went to at least once a semester to review your course selection and progress, and you could schedule additional visits with them. I would go see him an extra time once a semester or so just to vent and talk. One visit, I was in there, letting him know I was really struggling with the concept of work and job searching, and that I was tired and really thinking negatively about having to work forever, and he said "Derp, you sound bitter today." That's stuck with me. Bitter. Around then I remember the distinct realization that my resting face was not a smile or even neutral, but a frown. I felt it in my muscles, I guess.
 
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EmptyHeaded

EmptyHeaded

Experienced
Jan 24, 2024
229
I think it's basically non expressive eyes. People make micro expressions with their eyes without realizing and it's like the eyes become totally frozen in a blank look when they're "dead."
Interesting.
I've never been told that I have dead eyes (probably because I don't look into people's eyes), but I've been told that I have an "emotionless voice".
 
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Username1359751

Enlightened
Mar 14, 2024
1,333
Not dead eyes, but I posted this in another thread about when I remember my resting face becoming a frown. I would've been 19 or 20:

I went to this counselor in undergrad, not as therapy per-se, but it was someone you went to at least once a semester to review your course selection and progress, and you could schedule additional visits with them. I would go see him an extra time once a semester or so just to vent and talk. One visit, I was in there, letting him know I was really struggling with the concept of work and job searching, and that I was tired and really thinking negatively about having to work forever, and he said "Derp, you sound bitter today." That's stuck with me. Bitter. Around then I remember the distinct realization that my resting face was not a smile or even neutral, but a frown. I felt it in my muscles, I guess.
What a shit. That was rude.
 
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Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
5,219
Me before:
E67ad6a19605669d8d28a0f5009a263f

And after:
O3rtgbc8veu51
 
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Saturn_

Saturn_

You're gonna carry that weight.
Apr 22, 2024
482
My dad tells me that my school portraits began to change after third grade, that I lost the light in my eyes, my mirth. So probably around then.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I don't really know because nobody has commented on my eyes but I've looked metaphorically dead ever since I started going to school. I've always been miserable
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,278
Born with them 👁️/👁️
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

A new mentality, closer to the heart
Sep 19, 2023
2,106
What a shit. That was rude.
Thanks for saying that. I was never mad at him though. He was right, and I'm glad a neutral voice told me 'hey, you are definitely talking and acting differently than you used to.'
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Mage
Dec 14, 2023
582
2021. The year of the thousand yard stare. I have looked like a psychopath pretty much all the time since.
 
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Username1359751

Enlightened
Mar 14, 2024
1,333
Thanks for saying that. I was never mad at him though. He was right, and I'm glad a neutral voice told me 'hey, you are definitely talking and acting differently than you used to.'
No prob. I mean he can call you out on something, but damn that was shitty and tactless. Distasteful and unprofessional.
Thanks for saying that. I was never mad at him though. He was right, and I'm glad a neutral voice told me 'hey, you are definitely talking and acting differently than you used to.'
No problem. That would've stuck with me too... Dick. He could've said the same thing, got the same point across, if only he tweaked some of those words and his tone. Then it would've gave you notice of his perception, but in an acceptable casual way. That was unprofessional and tactless.
 
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Mi Mi

No One Special
Mar 18, 2024
308
I never knew what people meant by this until one day I actually made eye contact with myself in the mirror and holy shit, it was like all the life was gone. The light was totally out. It was about 3 years into my depression. It's the eyes that really give away how depressed you are, even if you can fake everything else that vacant stare tells the story. If I become not depressed in the future I hope that blank stare goes away.
Last year after my failed attempt
My eyes have been dead
 
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