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Spectre

Spectre

I am serious about not taking things seriously
Nov 27, 2023
316
For me opioids and within the month
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,326
I don't know anymore. Not even sure I'll ctb now. I'd be better if I did but I'm not sure I am in as much pain as before.
 
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FallFromGrace

FallFromGrace

Too Little, Too Late
Jun 4, 2024
44
SN. Don't have an exact date, but it will be after our eldest family dog is euthanized next month.
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
Over the summer, the method (hgun) is finally ready.
 
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Beyond_Repair

Beyond_Repair

Disheartened Ghost
Oct 27, 2023
452
SN - late July
 
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Onelegman

Onelegman

I use a translator
May 24, 2024
552
SN - 29 june
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Sn hopefully by winter
 
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LifeIsBS

Soon
Jun 1, 2024
103
SN - before the end of this month (june).
 
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Agon321

Agon321

I use google translate
Aug 21, 2023
1,654
My method - SN.
Timeline - the next few months.
 
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frost_

Member
Jun 6, 2024
49
Was thinking of multi method CO and SN. Possibly adding in post unconscious drowning for 100%. No timeline.
 
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crystal_meth97

crystal_meth97

Nie mam zamiaru się poddać
May 1, 2024
154
If I can't get my hands on something better, like fentanyl, it will be SN if I can no longer take care of myself when I'm old, if I'm going to be physically unable to care for myself or if I ever have to take antipsychotics long-term ever again. You are neither alive nor dead on that poison, but if I only have to take those for a major crisis like a psychotic episode and then stop, I still won't CTB. So might not even happen, me CTB.
 
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redeeming_butterfly

redeeming_butterfly

Life is no more beautiful than its cruelest suffer
May 15, 2024
90
NN - next month
 
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cait_sith

cait_sith

惻
Apr 8, 2024
351
can't make my mind up if sn or full suspension, have set-up for both, will probably go for fs, I don't have a time-frame.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,200
I envy those with access to reliable methods, I really wish I had the option to just easily die in peace with no risks involved. Painless suicide would solve everything for me and bring freedom from all the suffering, the fact that access to peaceful death isn't a human right is a devastating, unacceptable tragedy that just leads to so much harm.
 
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Nettles

Nettles

Member
May 8, 2024
46
SN end of year
 
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bluegodism

bluegodism

the rose is blue šŸŒ¹šŸ’™
Nov 26, 2023
119
partial hanging at the first opportunity to be alone at home for a long time
 
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LunarLight

LunarLight

i'm a loser, a failure
Apr 3, 2024
1,362
SN, whenever I feel like it.
 
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ikigaimg

ikigaimg

Member
Oct 30, 2023
34
If I don't get accepted to the mental hospital on Monday I will kill myself in max two weeks.
 
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fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
662
Partial hanging, for now, and around 3-4 years (unless I don't get a job this year)
 
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UKscotty

Doesn't read PMs
May 20, 2021
2,445
My method changes year on year. At the moment, fentanyl is my holy grail.

Timeline, not really sure.

I truly believe there is hope of recovery until our last breath. The only ones truly ready to CTB are now deceased.
 
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TheLastBoyOnEarth

Member
Jun 7, 2024
92
N.
July 22nd.
 
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ctbcat

ctbcat

Tomorrow Is Nearly Yesterday & Everyday Is Stupid
Jul 14, 2023
241
jumping - objectless method so no loose trails for me to fuck up... hopefully by the end of this year, at most early next year but i really hope it doesn't come to that
 
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feelinggloomy

feelinggloomy

Experienced
May 29, 2024
252
SN when my 2 pups pass away. They are 10 so I don't know how long that will be.
 
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Shimidori

Shimidori

make me sad
Dec 22, 2023
45
As of right now, I have three methods prepared and a potential suicide spot: a small shrine that is rarely visited, and I got full hanging, dropping off a big height, and SN, in no particular order. I got the SN, a strong rope, and a height that, while not extremely high (20-30m), has a lot of rough terrain and rocks to make sure that if I fall down, I will not make it regardless.

My timeline? Around September-October of this year is my hard limit. I gave myself a good amount of time to try to find a good reason to keep living: finding a job, experiencing consistent happiness, mostly anything that keeps my thoughts off CTB. So far, my mind remains fixated, and, knowing myself, it will probably remain fixated until then.
 
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Onelegman

Onelegman

I use a translator
May 24, 2024
552
As of right now, I have three methods prepared and a potential suicide spot: a small shrine that is rarely visited, and I got full hanging, dropping off a big height, and SN, in no particular order. I got the SN, a strong rope, and a height that, while not extremely high (20-30m), has a lot of rough terrain and rocks to make sure that if I fall down, I will not make it regardless.

My timeline? Around September-October of this year is my hard limit. I gave myself a good amount of time to try to find a good reason to keep living: finding a job, experiencing consistent happiness, mostly anything that keeps my thoughts off CTB. So far, my mind remains fixated, and, knowing myself, it will probably remain fixated until then.
If you can put together the great height and the rope it would be ideal. Hanging yourself from a great height will cause your neck to break immediately, too much height and it will decapitate you... An English doctor (I think) created a table to, in proportion to the height and weight of the prisoner, know the ideal height for the fracture of the neck would occur.

Be careful with that height, it's low. Even if the terrain is hilly, it doesn't guarantee much, and if there are trees, don't even try it. If you can beat the SI and fall head-first it would certainly work.
 
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Shimidori

Shimidori

make me sad
Dec 22, 2023
45
If you can put together the great height and the rope it would be ideal. Hanging yourself from a great height will cause your neck to break immediately, too much height and it will decapitate you... An English doctor (I think) created a table to, in proportion to the height and weight of the prisoner, know the ideal height for the fracture of the neck would occur.

Be careful with that height, it's low. Even if the terrain is hilly, it doesn't guarantee much, and if there are trees, don't even try it. If you can beat the SI and fall head-first it would certainly work.
I do technically actually have a more lethal height at hand (55m), the issue comes more from it being a more public place compared to the one I have in mind. That said, falling down and hoping for the best is the last thing I have in mind, SN and hanging are my more realistic methods, while falling down is more of a "Break glass in case of emergency" method. That's why I chose a distant place to attempt the first two: I won't get caught by a passerby for the 30 mins I'll need to CTB.

I already knew about the falling head-first part of it though, but thanks for the reminder regardless šŸ‘
 
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