Spectre
I am serious about not taking things seriously
- Nov 27, 2023
- 316
We wanted to share a quick update with the community.
Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.
š View the ledger here
Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.
If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.
Donate via cryptocurrency:
SNpartial hanging at the first opportunity to be alone at home for a long time
In 8 - 10 hours do you plan to do CTB? Good luck, best wishes.SN
Between 8 to 10 hours from Now
Working that out todayAre you going to be with us?
ThankyouIn 8 - 10 hours do you plan to do CTB? Good luck, best wishes.
If you can put together the great height and the rope it would be ideal. Hanging yourself from a great height will cause your neck to break immediately, too much height and it will decapitate you... An English doctor (I think) created a table to, in proportion to the height and weight of the prisoner, know the ideal height for the fracture of the neck would occur.As of right now, I have three methods prepared and a potential suicide spot: a small shrine that is rarely visited, and I got full hanging, dropping off a big height, and SN, in no particular order. I got the SN, a strong rope, and a height that, while not extremely high (20-30m), has a lot of rough terrain and rocks to make sure that if I fall down, I will not make it regardless.
My timeline? Around September-October of this year is my hard limit. I gave myself a good amount of time to try to find a good reason to keep living: finding a job, experiencing consistent happiness, mostly anything that keeps my thoughts off CTB. So far, my mind remains fixated, and, knowing myself, it will probably remain fixated until then.
I do technically actually have a more lethal height at hand (55m), the issue comes more from it being a more public place compared to the one I have in mind. That said, falling down and hoping for the best is the last thing I have in mind, SN and hanging are my more realistic methods, while falling down is more of a "Break glass in case of emergency" method. That's why I chose a distant place to attempt the first two: I won't get caught by a passerby for the 30 mins I'll need to CTB.If you can put together the great height and the rope it would be ideal. Hanging yourself from a great height will cause your neck to break immediately, too much height and it will decapitate you... An English doctor (I think) created a table to, in proportion to the height and weight of the prisoner, know the ideal height for the fracture of the neck would occur.
Be careful with that height, it's low. Even if the terrain is hilly, it doesn't guarantee much, and if there are trees, don't even try it. If you can beat the SI and fall head-first it would certainly work.