Discussion What’s your ideal death/fantasy?

[almaranthine]

Mine would be going out to a beach where there weren't any people around, getting into the water, and passing out and drowning. I don't know why but the idea of being unconscious and drowning is so appealing to me... as it would likely be ruled accidental, and no one would have to know you meant to kill yourself. Would suck for the first person to see you washed up on the beach though. I'd feel a bit bad about that. If I had the adequate drugs to accomplish this i feel like I would have definitely tried. Problem with this fantasy method is of course someone seeing you go under, rescuing you, being resuscitated and having potential brain damage after. Ideal scenario: no one's around, no one shows up.
I've also always idealized the drowning in the bathtub with a glass of wine after taking some Valium (or similar drug) method as it could never be determined if it was genuinely a suicide attempt or a recreational accident. I remember having a prescription for klonopin wayyy back for a month (dr wouldn't renew it and I was so pissed) and drinking on it purposefully. Boy do benzos potentiate alcohol. It was a good buzz.

 

[Sick of it all]

Drowning scares me because I can't imagine that last breath of water entering my lungs as I struggle. I'd have to be very out of it to drown. I fantasize about a shotgun blast to the back of my head, via my mouth but hen again I feel for whomever found me. I wish ODing on prescription drugs was easier. I just want to take pills, pass out and die.

 

[almaranthine]

Drowning scares me because I can't imagine that last breath of water entering my lungs as I struggle. I'd have to be very out of it to drown. I fantasize about a shotgun blast to the back of my head, via my mouth but hen again I feel for whomever found me. I wish ODing on prescription drugs was easier. I just want to take pills, pass out and die.

Yeah I definitely wouldn't want to be awake during the drowning in any capacity... simply drugged and then drown before waking up. It sucks how hard it is to get prescriptions, even for the SN method. I still don't know what I'm going to do about that as it feels like the best method for me. If only I knew some sketchy people and could get drugs that I could OD with... I personally don't and wouldn't want to take the chance/risks of seeking out somebody that would sell to me. It would be great to just get high, feel good, pass out, and die. That would be the gold standard.

 

[universe]

I think a little like you, the idea of drowning myself and sinking slowly and peacefully into the water without pain will be the best way for me to die. But ideally I would like to jump out of a boat in the middle of the ocean to avoid my body being found.
I regularly dream that I'm drowning in water and it's incredible. I see the surface of the water flowing away, with the rays of light piercing the water. And I feel so good, soothed.

 

[Sick of it all]

Yeah I definitely wouldn't want to be awake during the drowning in any capacity... simply drugged and then drown before waking up. It sucks how hard it is to get prescriptions, even for the SN method. I still don't know what I'm going to do about that as it feels like the best method for me. If only I knew some sketchy people and could get drugs that I could OD with... I personally don't and wouldn't want to take the chance/risks of seeking out somebody that would sell to me. It would be great to just get high, feel good, pass out, and die. That would be the gold standard.

I agree. Street drugs would be my ideal way to go out. Just hard to come by since I also don't know any sketchy folks to get them from. Whatever method you choose, I wish you relief from this hell we call life.

 

[flightless bird]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-dream-method-f4-tornado.98611/

 

[almaranthine]

I think a little like you, the idea of drowning myself and sinking slowly and peacefully into the water without pain will be the best way for me to die. But ideally I would like to jump out of a boat in the middle of the ocean to avoid my body being found.
I regularly dream that I am drowning in water and it is incredible. I see the surface of the water flowing away, with the rays of light piercing the water. And I feel so good, soothed.

Yes the water, to me, feels so cleansing and as long as my body wouldn't be fighting it, I would find it so peaceful to just drift away.

 

[Klophy]

In my sleep. Just slowly drifting into a permanent unconsciousness.

 

[Lawliet]

i know this sounds insane but i want to be murdered, like shot in the heart so i die quickly. that way my death isn't on me and if i die a martyr, my life could mean something.

 

[akirat9]

simple Peace euthanasia, sleep no wake

 

[almaranthine]

i know this sounds insane but i want to be murdered, like shot in the heart so i die quickly. that way my death isn't on me and if i die a martyr, my life could mean something.

It's not insane... I fantasize about being murdered sometimes, especially after watching the news or a crime drama. I think, "wow, how sad it is that people that want to live get killed instead of folks like me." I always considered that if I was stuck in a situation like a bank robbery, gas station hold up, or a full blown shooting in a public place... I would purposefully throw myself in front of someone else or just run up to someone with a gun.

 

[Forever Sleep]

In my sleep. Just slowly drifting into a permanent unconsciousness.

Yeah, this would be my ideal too. No anxiety about it happening, no pain, no awareness. Just here one moment, gone the next.

 

[almaranthine]

Yeah, this would be my ideal too. No anxiety about it happening, no pain, no awareness. Just here one moment, gone the next.

Would you want to know it was going to happen or not?

 

[Lawliet]

It's not insane... I fantasize about being murdered sometimes, especially after watching the news or a crime drama. I think, "wow, how sad it is that people that want to live get killed instead of folks like me." I always considered that if I was stuck in a situation like a bank robbery, gas station hold up, or a full blown shooting in a public place... I would purposefully throw myself in front of someone else or just run up to someone with a gun.

i feel that, giving your life to save another. i would want to do that

 

[almaranthine]

Fantasy?
Ok. I want to have a party and an orgy with a lot of lovers, both sexes, with a lot of alcohol and at the end overdose on some heavy ass drug like fent, pref IV.

That would be wild lol. I'm not sure if I'd want to die around a bunch of heavily intoxicated people... and would also worry that my drunk ass would blackout and not end up ODing, only to wake up with a massive hangover, potential std, and loads of regret (pun intended).

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/my-dream-method-f4-tornado.98611/

This may be the most unhinged method I've come across on here. I can't imagine running up to a tornado... wouldn't you just get bashed to pieces by debris before you could get sucked up into it? I can see the appeal of being carried up into nothingness... but I imagine that at that point, if still alive you would be physically mangled and dying from either bleeding out from injuries, internally bleeding or both? This is hardcore af. Best of luck with everything; wishing you peace.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Would you want to know it was going to happen or not?

Probably not actually. Make it a 'nice' surprise- not that I'd know anything about it to be surprised. Actually though- I do really need to get my affairs in order first.

While I do feel like I want my life to be over, I do have some anxiety around dying- asides from it being possibly painful. I'm not decided either way on an afterlife and any form of afterlife quite frankly frightens me. So I think I'd worry about it if I knew it was coming.

I guess the nearest I have come to seriously considering my demise naturally was going under anaesthetic for a minor op. The chances of dying were low but it was kind of odd leaving my parents to go in. I realised that I was in fact a bit scared- which surprised me. I wonder if that was because I hadn't got my affairs in order though- that I think was my major worry... Not that I'd be there to witness any of it of course!

How about you? Would you want to know?

 

[NoLightRemains]

I'd love a peaceful death where I'm injected with barbiturates while surrounded by my loved ones. In this fantasy, we are all at peace with it. Lots of crying, but maybe some laughs too. Just enjoying my final moments together.

 

[Lostandlooking]

I would like to die in my sleep also, not knowing about it beforehand. But it would have to happen at a time where I'm expecting visitors the next day. I wouldn't like to decay because it could realistically be weeks before I was found. Also I wouldn't want my cats to be around my dead body for long. So that would be my ideal fantasy death.

 

[swanlife]

Just a few Xanax and sleeping, unfortunately that doesn't work.

 

[actual_fox]

Never being born in the first place. Best thing I think

 

[hamtaro]

Ideally, via voluntary assisted death at a facility like Pegasos. With peaceful music playing and 100% assurance of completion.

 

[actual_fox]

I'd love a peaceful death where I'm injected with barbiturates while surrounded by my loved ones. In this fantasy, we are all at peace with it. Lots of crying, but maybe some laughs too. Just enjoying my final moments together.

That is lovely <3

 

[lionetta12]

Mine would be going out to a beach where there weren't any people around, getting into the water, and passing out and drowning. I don't know why but the idea of being unconscious and drowning is so appealing to me... as it would likely be ruled accidental, and no one would have to know you meant to kill yourself. Would suck for the first person to see you washed up on the beach though. I'd feel a bit bad about that. If I had the adequate drugs to accomplish this i feel like I would have definitely tried. Problem with this fantasy method is of course someone seeing you go under, rescuing you, being resuscitated and having potential brain damage after. Ideal scenario: no one's around, no one shows up.
I've also always idealized the drowning in the bathtub with a glass of wine after taking some Valium (or similar drug) method as it could never be determined if it was genuinely a suicide attempt or a recreational accident. I remember having a prescription for klonopin wayyy back for a month (dr wouldn't renew it and I was so pissed) and drinking on it purposefully. Boy do benzos potentiate alcohol. It was a good buzz.

I just wish for a shotgun bullet to the head.

 

[lachrymost]

Never being born in the first place. Best thing I think

See, this is the absolute dream. Ugh. Why did we have to result from that winning sperm/egg combo? So exceptionally unlucky. Can't force someone to live if they're never born in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Out of actual methods I would go for N, it sounds like the most peaceful method which is ideal to me but of course the ideal way to die would be to wish to never wake again and then just peacefully pass away at a time of my own choosing. It sounds so nice to just peacefully drift off into an eternal sleep, all my suffering and problems instantly gone and instead there is nothing for all eternity. There is something rather beautiful about the thought of eternal nothingness.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

N sounds ideal. It's how I want to go. But I have to settle for SN. Dying in nature sounds nice too, but… I'll have to settle for a hotel. :|

 

[Sad_Sack]

I literally just want to die. I can't feel any enjoyment or peace so the only thing that matters is for the method to be as quick and painless as possible. I could be surrounded by harp playing angels laying on a bed of cheesecake in the must serene setting you could imagine and it wouldn't mean a thing to me.

 

[klonoaencore]

I wish I would be murdered instead of doing it myself. Shoot in the head or sumn

 

[spectraltease]

Mine would be going out to a beach where there weren't any people around, getting into the water, and passing out and drowning. I don't know why but the idea of being unconscious and drowning is so appealing to me... as it would likely be ruled accidental, and no one would have to know you meant to kill yourself. Would suck for the first person to see you washed up on the beach though. I'd feel a bit bad about that. If I had the adequate drugs to accomplish this i feel like I would have definitely tried. Problem with this fantasy method is of course someone seeing you go under, rescuing you, being resuscitated and having potential brain damage after. Ideal scenario: no one's around, no one shows up.
I've also always idealized the drowning in the bathtub with a glass of wine after taking some Valium (or similar drug) method as it could never be determined if it was genuinely a suicide attempt or a recreational accident. I remember having a prescription for klonopin wayyy back for a month (dr wouldn't renew it and I was so pissed) and drinking on it purposefully. Boy do benzos potentiate alcohol. It was a good buzz.

I have 2 weird ones.
The first is that I imagine standing on a high bridge in a Russian city on a cloudy/rainy day. I look down and there are waves in the water. I climb over and jump into the waves. It's funny because I'm not Russian and have never been there. I also like drowning but I wouldn't do it in irl.

The second one is that I imagine having a lovely girlfriend with a similar personality as me. We just together but shes like me, so the thoughts won't go and we kill us together.
When Im talking about this it feels so weird, maybe im a weirdo idk.

 

[AliceTheGoon]

I die saving lives and hailed as a hero.